Confession: I Didn't Run a Marathon

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5/2/2011 5:39 AM   :  81 comments   :  12,517 Views

Early this year, I shared a goal with you: I would run my first marathon on May 1.

Guess what? I didn't run it.

My training went well until I hit the double digits. I read up about marathon training, selected a plan for beginners and rose early several mornings a week to run. I did everything right, or so I thought.

I struggled to keep myself hydrated and fed properly while dealing with stomach issues on long runs. I fell 10 miles in to a 15-mile run, scraping and bruising my knees. I bonked during my 16-mile run, which is when I talked to Nancy about fueling and pace. (I was running too fast to sustain my pace over long distances, and I wasn't eating enough during my runs.)

I rebounded, had a wonderful 15-mile run, followed by a half-marathon in D.C. There, I pulled my hamstring and couldn't walk properly for three days. A sharp pain in my left tibia, which had been diagnosed a year ago as tendonosis, returned and worsened. After a few days of rest, in the midst of moving, I caught a sinus infection, which left me unable to run for a week. When I finally got back out there, my leg wasn't fully healed.

That day, as I hobbled home, I made the decision to drop from the full to the half marathon, and later, to defer my entry until next year. Friends who had also run marathons encouraged me through the tough times. One said she had only run as far as 16 miles before race day; another said he couldn't walk up stairs for two weeks after his first marathon.

Truth be told, I still could have run, but I likely wouldn't feel great today. There will always be another race, and I am accountable only to myself.

Last week, I met with an orthopaedist. After an X-ray and an exam, he determined I have suffered chronic stress fractures in my left tibia. They have mostly healed, which means I can still run shorter distances, but it's only a matter of time until I get another one. We're working to find the root of the problem. Until then, I'm doing a lot of walking and yoga. Truthfully, it's a great reminder to slow down.

Four weeks from now, I'll board a plane for Honduras, where I'll spend a week at a raw, vegan yoga retreat. It's my 30th birthday present to myself. That is a priority to me. What if I had run the race, injured myself more, and been unable to go on that trip?

Remember that quote I shared with you earlier this year? The one about not making a big deal about things?

"We don’t have to make such a big deal about ourselves, our enemies, our lovers, and the whole show." --Pema Chödrön

Over the last few weeks, I've returned to that quote. I've refused to get angry, sad, or even frustrated about not being able to run a full marathon right now. I didn't defer because I was scared, weak, or uncommitted. I did it because it was the right decision for my body, and no one gets to judge me for that.

Not running a marathon changes nothing in my life.

I am still a runner.

I still respect myself.

I am still a fit and healthy woman.

I see this not as a failure but an evolution, a chance to learn more about myself and my body.

Life gets in the way sometimes. You have to roll with it. Just because I cheered on my fellow runners yesterday instead of running 26.2, does not change who I am. I won't let it affect how I feel about myself, just like I won't let the number on the scale affect my self-worth. It's just a number.

To everyone who did run the full marathon, congratulations. I wish I could have been there with you. I someday hope to cross that finish line after 26.2 miles. This is not that time.

I have another confession for you: I don't like racing. I am not a competitive person, I don't like crowds, and I don't like to run with other people. I like the meditative aspect of long runs, the feeling of accomplishment when I'm finished, and the internal and external strength that running awards me.

I'm giving up racing for now. I'll still do the occasional 5K or 10K for charity, but I would rather save money and pursue other things that make me happier.

Without a training schedule, I'm free to hike, take long walks, and ride my bike. I can join friends for a Spinning class or deviate from my normal fitness routine. I can even take rest days without worrying that I'm jeopardizing my progress.

Let my "failure" be a reminder to you: Small goals are worthy of celebration. Walking a 5K, running a mile, exercising for 10 minutes a day--those are all accomplishments of which you should feel proud. You don't have to run a marathon, cook everything you eat from scratch, or bench press your own body weight. I won't feel like a quitter for deciding to change my goal and listen to my body, and neither should you.

No one judges you but yourself, and really, cut yourself some slack! Whether you need to lose 100 pounds or you're just trying to maintain a 5-pound loss, we're all fighting the same fight, taking the same journey. We're in this together. My body is unique, and so is yours. What works for me won't necessarily work for you, and what motivates you might not be what inspires me to get off the couch and lace up my sneakers.

Love yourself.

Have you ever set a goal for yourself, only to discover that it wasn't the right goal for you? Are you too hard on yourself?

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  • GILENH20
    81
    Thank you for this! I've been training for a half marathon (my first) since April. It's less than 2 weeks away and I now have plantar fasciitis. No matter how much I do to make it better in the next 2 weeks I'm likely kidding myself that I could actually run 13.1 miles and not injure myself worse! I'm having trouble letting go...and I'm still not letting go till race day comes in case by some miracle this pain is gone tomorrow...but when I finally make the decision I will cheer on my friends if I can't run. I wanted to just sulk and hide that day but I've decided I won't do that! - 9/23/2014   9:18:59 AM
  • 80
    I needed this, thank you. I've been sick with the flu or something like it for a week now... it's been really disappointing/discouraging not to keep on doing what I've been doing so religiously for so long. I keep my head up by telling myself that it's worth it to focus on feeling better first so I don't work too hard and feel worse in the end. On the topic of goal-setting, having something to aim for is great, but I've learned the worst goals I've ever set for myself are weight-related. I remember how much I wanted to weigh 130 pounds on my 18th birthday -- I spent 5+ hours a day in the gym most days of the week and ate less than 1000 calories on those days (and when I had a day "off" from working out, it was often less than 500 calories). I dropped about 30 pounds in 3 months and finally reached my goal, but when I passed out twice visiting my grandmother in the hospital ICU, I finally changed that goal; it changed my whole perspective and my priorities. I'm happy to not even own a scale anymore, I know that my weight isn't going to get any lower than 140 (at least not by any healthy means) and I'm fine with that. - 4/25/2012   1:06:47 AM
  • 79
    Wonderful blog. The first 5k race I wanted to run, I had horrible problems the day before in my legs. I decided it wasn't a good choice. I felt horrible at first but, a few months later I was well enough to run my first 5k! I like how you stay positive in the face of failure. You turned failure into something beautiful and rewarding. Thank you! - 6/12/2011   1:45:43 AM
  • DEANO3276
    78
    A great blog, I've run 2 Marathons in the last 2 years and am planning on doing my third next year and how I finished that first one I'll never know!! A catalogue of injuries hampered my training and meant that I was definitely not fully prepared for the heartbreaking 6 hours or so I was out on the course. In hindsight I probably shouldn't have done that first Marathon and was very lucky not to seriously injure myself. I learnt my lesson for the second one and was much better prepared and even managed to convince my Wife to run the second one with me and we motivated each other through the tough winter training (not nice!!) and stayed healthy and finished the race in a better time.

    I wish that I'd listened to my body like you have and whilst its a shame for you that you can't run the full marathon distance you absolutely should be a proud runner, a half marathon is also no mean feat and I wish you all the best in your running and hope that the injuries you've had don't impact on your enjoyment of your running. - 5/13/2011   5:02:26 PM
  • 77
    Stepfanie, I LOVE this blog!

    I admire people who run marathons. The elite athletes that run the NYC Marathon every year, like Paula Radcliffe, make it look effortless but it's not. Running 26.2 MILES is a feat and it is not for everyone. It takes a great deal of commitment, stamina, steely resolve to take the punishment to the body and keep moving forward. It requires a high degree of training. I think marathoning has lately become an obsession, almost a "fad." Recognizing what is and what isn't for us, as individuals and as athletes, is the most important thing we can accomplish. I don't have the mettle for a marathon. I don't think I have it for a half-marathon, either.

    Shakespeare wrote, "To thine own self be true." He was on to something... - 5/11/2011   2:33:27 PM
  • 76
    I'm proud of you! way to stick to what you love no matter what!! - 5/6/2011   5:42:53 PM
  • ANDYGIRL1219
    75
    A reminder to all of us to listen to our bodies. Sometimes I get grief for doing this from certain friends. The older I get, the more I know to respect what my body is trying to tell me. And always, tomorrow is another day.

    Best wishes and thanks for sharing. - 5/6/2011   7:12:23 AM
  • 74
    You made the right decision by pulling out! Your health is more important than some race! :D - 5/6/2011   12:21:45 AM
  • 73
    It is the the pursuit of your goal... the journey forward that is important and what really matters. The final outcome is just a dream to be imagined, but not finalized until the journey's end. - 5/5/2011   5:36:50 PM
  • 72
    I do admire those that run marithons. I know that that is not for me. That is what is so nice about the choices we have. You may be surprised when you find that one thing that motivates you. It might be something that you would not expect. Mine is kettlebell training. I didn't know what a kettlebell was until Sparkspeople. I like hiking and yoga too. But I find that I have been kettlebelling more than the others lately.
    Liked your blog. I am sure it hit home to a lot of people.
    Have a nice time on your Honduras trip. The yoga retreat sounds great to me! - 5/5/2011   4:08:34 PM
  • 71
    Due to nagging health problems that kept me from training well, I just withdrew from an upcoming race for the first time. I thought it would be depressing but now I feel like I really looked out for myself instead of trying to live up to everyone else's expectations. Now I'm back in training for another marathon feeling healthy, excited and more relaxed than ever since I know I'm doing it FOR myself instead of TO myself. - 5/5/2011   5:36:15 AM
  • 70
    I loved this blog. I am fit and work out several times a week, but have never felt the urge to want to run a 5K or marathon, etc. or any sort of race. It's just not my thing. I almost feel like there is too much pressure put on everyone to try for these goals, when the truth is, it just may not be the thing for everyone. Thanks for sharing! - 5/4/2011   1:59:54 PM
  • 69
    I totally agree. As a competitive person, it was hard to come to the realization that I do NOT have to compete with anyone else, but need to set goals that are right for ME! - 5/4/2011   10:52:53 AM
  • 68
    Thank you! We sometimes will hear messages that are close to this. This just seems to me to be more personal because you are sharing your personal story. So thank you for remind us or telling maybe some of us for the first time a wonderful message. - 5/3/2011   5:17:09 PM
  • 67
    This may be the most inspiring post I have read to this day. Thank you for sharing this with us, for loving yourself, and for standing for ME to love myself. - 5/3/2011   3:29:04 PM
  • SARAH-E
    66
    I have set goals that I didn't attain well. It was not fitness related, but last year I worked seven days a week from May until the end of September. Two jobs-one the regular Monday to Friday and the other on weekends with long hours usually starting immediately after the first job on Friday afternoons and returning late on Sunday evenings. I also thought I could pull off not one but two independant study courses on line during this same time frame.
    I did finish everything, but I didn't do any of it well or to the best of my ability. The fact that the quality lacked so badly has taught me that while I can accomplish this, it means nothing if I can't be proud of my accomplishments. I am embarrassed of the quality of work I turned out last year ... I only did it because I was feeling pressured by one of my employers and I thought that it would be worth the enormous sense of achievement. That sense of achievement and accomplishment never came to be, which is why I will learn to work within my own bubble of best productivity and never stray from it again. - 5/3/2011   11:44:41 AM
  • MYDOGJAX
    65
    Great post. I especially liked the "you are only accountable to you" part. - 5/3/2011   10:56:33 AM
  • MEETNEWME
    64
    "Not running a marathon changes nothing in my life. "

    "Small goals are worthy of celebration."

    "No one judges you but yourself"

    "Love yourself."

    I simply loved ur Confession!! You are so positive!!

    Stay this way!
    Cheers! - 5/3/2011   3:32:44 AM
  • 63
    I was training for a 5K and ended up with stress fractures in both my shins. When I stopped running I gained weight and am now starting to turn things around again. I still think about running on occasion, but I am happy feeling pain free. Challenging myself through other cardio activities has taken it's place. - 5/3/2011   2:41:59 AM
  • 62
    I don't care much about races , I run because I like it. I don't think injuring yourself is a good idea. - 5/3/2011   2:03:00 AM
  • 61
    I've never cared about running a marathon. - 5/3/2011   1:00:13 AM
  • 60
    Serendipity... Yup, that's what this is. I just wrote in my latest blog that I was not going to meet my goal of losing 50 lbs by the end of June. I am disappointed that I have falllen off a reasonable pace for weight loss. At the same time, I DID lose 20 lbs so far. And I am thrilled with that! So I am trying to celebrate the success that I have acheived and not dwell on my disappointment over a goal that is now unachievable. - 5/2/2011   11:19:59 PM
  • 59
    Steph:
    Great blog. Good work. It takes guts to do that, but you've got them. Fitness-wise, I'm still trying to recover from all the setbacks I experienced a couple of years ago. I could have bounced back faster, but life got in the way.

    I have experienced tendinitis in just about every extremity, so I can really sympathize with your pain and the setback. I just want to share with you that I, too, used to see an orthopedist for my problems. It worked at first, but eventually the orthopedist didn't know what to do with me. My physical therapist at the time suggested that I see a physiatrist (physical medicine and rehabilitation specialist) for a second opinion, and I'm really glad she did. I didn't know what specialty that was at the time, but I'm really glad I took her advice. Their training is very different (broader, I think), and they are, imho, much better at dealing with soft tissue injuries (such as tendinitis) and chronic problems than orthopedists. They are not surgeons, so they don't get all excited about cutting things up, but they do have some good remedies. My former orthopedist never figured out that one of my legs was a little bit shorter than the other, and he never really examined my feet as a possible contributor to the problems. My leg issue and my extremely flexible flat feet turn out to be central to my problems, so it has helped to know about these conditions and manage them. Good luck with your recovery. Sorry I didn't see you in D.C. I've been preoccupied, and I forgot the date! Please come back soon!
    Janet - 5/2/2011   10:28:30 PM
  • 58
    Great blog. Yup, I set goal of running first 5K, after training for almost 8 weeks. Shin splints and a cold so I have to set things back a bit. Trying not to be hard on myself for pushing myself too hard, too fast. Thank you! - 5/2/2011   9:51:13 PM
  • 57
    You hit on a topic that we mostly seem to skim over, the subject of what to do when the goals you've set for yourself are no longer feasible. I can't speak for others, but when I broke a couple of vertebrae in my back, I went through the whole grief process - denial, trying to cut a deal with God, and a long time later, reluctant acceptance. At the time of my injury, the doctor mentioned something about compressed and herniated discs, but frankly the diagnosis of a broken back took my whole attention. Through the rehab process I did everything I was told - the walking of short distances, the use of ice and heat and the flexibility training. Finally I hit the magic 5 mile walk mark. I walked that distance 6 days a week for three weeks, then decided to start jogging. Three steps and I felt like my lower vertebrae were packed in sand and pebbles - I could feel bones grating together, and it HURT! I called my doctor and when he called back he told me to look at the discharge sheet. It plainly said running was out of the question. The whole grief process repeated itself and I've finally accepted that I will have to content myself with walking, biking and swimming as my cardio.
    The lesson I learned was that it wasn't necessarily what I thought I could or should be able to do, it was what my body was capable of doing.

    Listen to your body. Stress fractures are one way our body has of telling us something is wrong, as are continuously pulled muscles, muscle strains, shin splints and tendonitis. - 5/2/2011   9:17:38 PM
  • ETHELMERZ
    56
    I'd like to read this kind of truth in Fitness and Shape magazines for a change!! Real people. Good for you for being realistic, and still happy, not having to follow the "crowd" in all of their endeavors. - 5/2/2011   9:11:52 PM
  • 55
    Thanks for this great blog! - 5/2/2011   9:06:51 PM
  • JENN03275
    54
    Thank you for sharing your story. I wanted to run my first 5K this spring. Still can't run much farther than 1.5 miles. Its a struggle. However, I am proud that I can run, even a little. I think I would have an easier time if I had a running buddy. - 5/2/2011   8:30:52 PM
  • 53
    Proud of you regardless of any outcome!! - 5/2/2011   8:17:37 PM
  • 52
    Don't sweat it Stepf!

    I wondered what happened when I didn't get any splits for you on Sunday; I was concerned. Pushing out past the 13.1 is a territory of great differences. I bonked in Pittsburgh back in March; thought my stomach would eat itself. That's when I realized I needed to EAT something during the run besides honey; my fuel of choice. I've also learned that just because the 20 mile training run didn't go great it doesn't mean that the 22 won't be awesome; it was. Now I'm into taper mode awaiting that starting line on May 15th in Mississauga, Canada. I'm trying to stay focused on the goal while ignoring all the aches and pains that have accumulated. I do better when things are structured, training or classes, but it would be nice to have an evening where I didn't "HAVE" to go run 10 miles. I miss my bike; it's still filthy from the fall. I'm ready to change things up, but not for a couple weeks yet.

    Enjoy your trip to Honduras; you've earned it.

    Namaste! - 5/2/2011   7:52:24 PM
  • HAPPYHOLBROOK
    51
    I ran my first marathon in Portland on 10/10/10. I'm REALLY busy...I work full-time and I teach two online classes for the community college on top of maintaining a home, a marraige and the world's sweetest Golden Retriever. Though I followed the training plan 80% of the time, finished the race, and had a great time, I haven't really run since (MAJOR time suck...about 5-7 hours running each week!).

    I had planned to do the half Ironman last year. I can kill at swimming, I know I can run a half marathon (though I'm fabulously deconditioned), and I hate biking, so about six weeks into the training plan when I was supposed to start doing bricks, I threw in the towel. It was just too much work. I already work two part-time jobs, I don't need a third. I found I was approaching each workout with resentment and dread, and that's not what it's supposed to be about.

    I'm much happier and more sane doing short (10-30 minute) workouts like the Spark 28-day challenge. I'm more likely to stick with something if it's not a huge time committment like endurance races are. I wouldn't trade my first marathon experience for anything, and I haven't ruled out doing another some time in the future, but it'll be a LOOONG way off.
    - 5/2/2011   6:57:15 PM
  • 50
    You are not a failure! A few years ago I had decided to run a marathon. I was having some pain in my knees, as I have a neutral stride and do not displace the stress, so it was going straight to my knees. I put new insoles in my shoes for more arch support right before a 15 mile training run. Not such a good idea. I felt some pain in my ankle, but kept running. I completed the training run, but had incurred a stress fracture in my foot. Nonetheless, I did not run the marathon. I have staid away from any distance running since. I think this year I am going to run a half marathon. I have a lot of friends that have run many marathons. That's there thing and I love cheering them on. - 5/2/2011   4:52:41 PM
  • 49
    I agree that you made the right decision. Our bodies have a wonderful way of telling us when our brain has over-reached its enthusiasm. Fortunately you were "woman enough" to acknowledge that running a marathon is not the best use of your time or your body at this time. Congratulations!
    I was wondering if you have heard of virtual races. My understanding is that you choose your course and run your race when you want to. It seems to me that it might be something for you - no early morning wake-up calls, no crowds (but then no party afterward). Just a thought.

    Margaret
    - 5/2/2011   4:45:50 PM
  • 48
    The sheer number of responses should tell you something! Everyone finds where they want to be and should be. I am not sure I will ever even aspire to a marathon OR half, but I am one of the happiest solitary 5K-ers around. - 5/2/2011   4:42:37 PM
  • 47
    Thanks for sharing this. I wanted to be a runner but you know, I just don't love it enough. I am with you. the 5k and maybe a five miler once in a while is all I need to challenge myself. I rather weight train, work with my trainer and jog through my neighborhood just to get away from it all for an hour or so:-) - 5/2/2011   4:32:15 PM
  • 46
    WOW......what a great blog! You did the absolute best for yourself.......I applaud you! - 5/2/2011   2:53:39 PM
  • JENNSUTHERLAND
    45
    You did the only smart thing you could do - bravo for sharing you story. When you get injured sometimes the best decision to make is to live to run another day. I've been disappointed by race deferrals, but I've never regretted my decision. - 5/2/2011   2:47:41 PM
  • 44
    I too have set a goal that I was not able to succeed at. As long as we keep trying our best we are making progress! - 5/2/2011   2:45:07 PM
  • 43
    I also changed a goal. I love to volunteer at state and national parks. There was an opportunity to do this in Hawaii for 6 months starting in June, oh how I wanted this.

    First killer, cost of airfair and camping equipment. I stopped camping about 6 years ago and got rid of my gear.
    Second deal breaker was I have only been walking as an exercise. You have to hike in with 20 to 30 pound pack and back out each week.

    So I have started walking. Found out I can do over 4 miles without too much
    pain but I will not have enough time to get in shape and get my application in and approved. I am also looking into slowly purchasing used equipment.

    So I have changed my goals, this year will volunteer in June closer to home.
    Next year I want to go for Hawaii.
    - 5/2/2011   2:42:41 PM
  • 42
    Great post, it was very encouraging to me. I missed my weight goal by just over a pound a couple of weeks ago and was feeling very badly about it. Your blog put it into prespective for me. - 5/2/2011   2:35:13 PM
  • 41
    Thank you so much for sharing! You have summed volumes in a few words! Your words came to me at such an opportune momment. I think we all struggle in some way with the issues you have raised. For me, it seems at present, I am struggling with each. I am currently exploring many new activities. I will never be a runner, but I have been using Spark to train for the 5k walk. This is my second time through as interruptions in schedule, illness, injury and weather made it necessary to train indoors. I made the decision to amp it up a bit as I was learning so much about how my body responds in general. I will never be fast, and I have learned do better time with less stress and longer distances. I am struggling after some strenuous walking and many hills whether to rest, or do my ten minutes of core and thirty of walking. In the past after injury, I have jumped in too quickly...

    I really admire the way you have learned to listen to your body and celebrate all of your accomplishment - 5/2/2011   2:29:37 PM
  • 40
    People sure fall all over the "continuum of fitness". Where I feel you presented a healthy, balanced approach to life, wisdom & personal fulfillment, there were those who seemed to disagree.

    Maybe in the fitness community, we shouldn't presume to think our way is the only way. It's not!

    I'm impressed with the process you went through in deciding what was best for you. And how can it be worth pushing yourself with injury that can set you up for more trouble later?!! -- I have injury issues right now that are preventing me from running, but I'm thrilled to still be mobile & able to walk on down the road... - 5/2/2011   1:09:32 PM
  • 39
    Thank you for sharing your confession! I recently made a similar decision to adjust my running goals...realizing that I need to listen to my body and my heart and they were telling me to run...just not as far as I was pushing myself. I now have the time and stamina to do so many more activities.
    Congratulations on your success!! - 5/2/2011   1:05:50 PM
  • 38
    WOW. You wrote this exactly when I needed to read it. I've been battling the same 7 pounds ever since the school year started, and it's really been a demoralizing issue in my life. I finally decided yesterday that I can't fight myself any more, and that it's time to re-prioritize. My goals are now all about my running -- and not even the 1/2 marathon goal I have, just my love for the sport and the desire to improve. I'm hoping that by focusing on the REAL priorities (loving my body, loving my sport, and loving the planet), I'll be proud of myself no matter what the scale says or what happens on race day. Thanks so much for reaffirming my choices! - 5/2/2011   12:34:38 PM
  • 37
    Happy Birthday!! What a great gift. You're a great role model--thanks for sharing and confirming that it's okay to change your goals or not meet your goals and still respect yourself and celebrate your accomplishments. As the saying goes, when one door closes, another opens. I've been on the "injured list" for months and can't run long distances. But it's opened up so many more opportunities for swimming, hiking, exercise DVDs, knitting, etc. Most of those activities fell by the wayside because I was so focused on getting all of the long runs in. I miss them, but it's also been liberating. - 5/2/2011   12:30:44 PM
  • 36
    I sometimes feel a little guilty since I read so many blogs of people who race. Especially during this season because I wonder what I'm doing! But, I have to remind myself again that being amid large crowds of people at ridiculously early in the morning, is not my scene. - 5/2/2011   12:22:09 PM
  • GERRYJTIERNEY
    35
    Botched it. - 5/2/2011   12:02:14 PM
  • 34
    I can totally relate to this blog! I trained successfully for a 1/2 marathon last October that my best friend from college and I were going to run together...I followed my training plan exactly and had run up to 12 miles. I was ready, willing and excited! Two weeks before the race my friend got injured. She could walk the 1/2 but not run...we committed to the 1/2 together so we decided to WALK it together. I actually think that walking it was harder on my body than running it would have been. I still completed 13.1 miles and had never done that before. It is still an accomplishment that I am proud of. I am planning to RUN a 1/2 marathon this September so I can check that off of my list too! - 5/2/2011   12:00:00 PM
  • 33
    You can only do as much as your body will let you. It sounds like you made the right choice and are accepting it just as you have to. Good job on not letting yourself get depressed and devastated about it! - 5/2/2011   11:43:40 AM
  • 32
    good for you... you did right - 5/2/2011   11:36:26 AM

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