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LOOKINGUP2012 Posts: 1,958
4/20/12 12:03 P

Best wishes on your journey. emoticon

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4/20/12 8:29 A

Hi

Thinking of starting a blog to coincide with my attempts to lose weight, this is my first entry, what do you think?

Thanks

SparkNI


Am I being honest with myself? In the last 2 years, have I ever given a weight loss regime a fair shot? Is my head muddled and confused with various conflicting regimes and advice? Do I think, oh well if I have that juicy T-Bone steak, that�s all protein and low carb which is fine, and if it has fat through it that�s fine too because fats are ok (Atkins). Do I think, oh well, this time I�ll have toast and low fat spread, which is fine as it�s only so many syns etc. Then there�s the cheats, 3 hot wings from KFC, a variety meal for lunch, a big bag of chocolate twirl pieces, strawberry laces. Food makes me happy, it really does. It is also my biggest enemy and ultimately, could be my downfall. I�m already HUGE. My mum summed me up what that non-PC, no nonsense term yesterday, I had been asked by a friend to be groomsman at their wedding, so out I went, hoiking my 25 stone and not insubstantial butt into the suit hire place. I walked in, the guy looked me up and down nervously and said �How can I help you?� When I told him I was part of the wedding party and needed measured up, he shuffled off and said �back in a min�. In the 5 loooooong minutes waiting on him returning, I looked at the sizes of suits, biggest waist I saw was 46�, I knew I was right royally screwed. He came back with the biggest jacket he had, I squeezed into it, it looked absolutely ridiculous and too small by half. The game was up. He said, �I have a black suit that would fit you, but nothing in that colour�. I shuffled, out of the shop, slightly humiliated, downhearted, and ashamed of myself. I got home and told my mum the sad tale, she phoned up another suit hire shop who she believed specialized in �bigger sizes�. And so came the moment I have previously alluded to � she said �Hello, I was wondering if you would be able to help me, my son is looking for a suit for a wedding, and he�s absolutely HUGE!!!� HUGE, I guess that�s what I have become, and my mum had no qualms about describing me as just that on the phone with me listening in the room.

I reflected on the fact that I have been trying to lose the same stone in weight (but the first of many I need to lose) since the start of 2012. I had lost it, put it on again, all in the space of weeks. I knew, just knew, after my easter exertions that when I went back to my slimming class, that the heap would be back on me. I have tried, I have eaten healthily 70-80% of the time. But the weight isn�t bulging in any substantial way.

So I had to pull out of being groomsman at my friend�s wedding. I�m not hitting the panic button yet, my own wedding is slightly over a year away. But I have a huge task. 5 stone to be lost in a year. 1 and a half pounds a week for the next 52 weeks, all sounds very achievable doesn�t it. So why do I have so little belief, so little faith, and not enough application, to make it a reality. I�m failing, I�m getting fatter, and I have had a wake up call hit me smack right in the middle of the forehead. You are HUGEEEEEEEE!!! I know it, but still part of me doesn�t accept it, that I�ve got to this stage, AGAIN. They say it�s easier to lose it than it is to keep it off, I think that�s true and I�ve proven it in the past, but right now, I�m finding it nigh on impossible to just lose it!! Help me!!!!




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