I have "started over" several times. One thing I just realized that every time I "start over", I usually have less bad habits to break, because I have more healthy habits that I pick up and don't lose, even when I fall out the wagon and the weight creeps back on.
I find myself back where I started....in 2009 when I looked at photos of myself in a bikini from a recent trip and hardly recognized who I was. I weighed nearly 160 pounds on a 5'7 frame....this was shocking coming from a once gymnast and track runner. I started spark people in 2009 and made it down to 135...I felt good, looked good and subconsciously wiped my hands and though "done!". Well...over the last few years I have tried to keep and eye on myself...and my eye watched as I slowly crept back to 156....here we go again. I am working out more consistently, but I am also working a stressful job that has me using food as my emotional release and reward at work. I am frustrated with myself that I allowed myself to get back to this shape....but I have finally had it and am getting back on that horse. I wanted to look and feel good FOR GOOD this time. I want to have more endurance and energy, and to fit back into all my cute little clothes I bought myself when I lost the weight.
No more excuses, and no more justifications. I've just had my 30th birthday and I have sworn that not only will my 30's be my best decade ever, but that its time to turn a new and permanent leaf that has my health and wellness as a top priority. No more waiting. Now lets get back on that damn horse!
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