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TASHASWH
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8/21/12 11:18 A

#25 well after taking a week off from realty I am back and still working at it. Man it is easy to get side tracked and forget to do things the right way. I am here and I am struggling as always to eat right. It is so hard to stay on track. I was having ankle issues last week as well which kept me from excercising but I am working on getting back into the routine. It is so hard to get a routine going but so easy to get out of it.



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8/9/12 10:42 A

Natasha, keep up the fight. Every day will bring so many temptations and struggles. Each day you can also revel in your successes!

I found that tracking your food before you eat it makes you take a good look at what is about to be put in your mouth and helps you to decide if it's worth it. I aim for about 400 calories per meal and allow myself two snacks that add up to 200. This way if a meal or snack is off by 20 to 50 calories I'm still in range of my calorie limit. I also make sure to eat each meal every day at normal times. This helps me to stay full all day and I don't end up reaching for the wrong snacks.

I'm on my second weight loss adventure! I lost 35 lbs before and now I'm tackling that last 15.

I used to be a soda addict. I'm now free. I estimate I lost a good 10 lbs just from getting rid of the diet coke! Note that I said "diet" coke!

Good luck!

Leah



TASHASWH
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8/9/12 10:11 A

#24 Well I tried Zumba this morning I did about 10 minutes of this then changed to Walk away the pounds and did a mile.I am feeling good I lost 2 pounds which I have to weigh in. It is still a struggle not to eat certain things but I am getting better at watching it and logging everything in. I have also gotten better about making sure I log everything into the computer.



TASHASWH
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8/7/12 10:10 A

#23 Well I got up again this morning and did another 2 mile walk away the pounds video plus crunches with twist and I used my cowbell for my arms. 2 days in a row so far so good. I seem to have gotten my eating under some kind of control. I did really good yesterday stayed in a good range. I am already on my fourth cup of water for the day and feeling good. I will weigh tomorrow to see if I have lost anything but if I haven't it will be alright I know it is going to take time and I had to work at getting to the place I am right now and I will have to continue to work at getting to were I need to be. My plan is to start excercising everyday so I have set up a five day goal and 2 days so far three more to go. If I make it five days excercising in a row It will then turn into another 5 I am the most worried about the weekends since I do not have to get up it is just to easy to stay in bed. I will wait until then though to really worry about it. Here I am struggling along but things are getting somewhat easier the more I do it the better I am getting at it. Pray for me.



TASHASWH
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8/6/12 10:35 A

#22 I finally made myself get up and excercise this morning. I did Walk away the pounds 2 mile walk. I also did some arm excercises with my cowbell and some crunces with twist. i am feeling good I am going for a 5 day streak with the excercises that is my first goal to get up and excercise everyday this week. I had some multigrain cheerios for breakfast and I have my meals for lunch and dinner laid out and ready to go. I also have my snack planned as well. I am on my 4th cup of water and fixin to get another refill. I am feeling very motivated today and I am on my way. It has taken a few weeks to get to this point and it has been a struggle but It looks like I am getting things under control at this point.



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8/2/12 3:54 P

#21 Well I wasn't hungry last night so I didn't eat dinner. This doesn't happen often and i use to would eat anyways. I got in the pool for a little while yesterday and I went outside with the girls. No real excercise but I didn't just sit around. So still improvement.



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8/1/12 5:41 P

Good for you! Seems like you have a great approach of just taking it one day at a time. Keep it up and you will reach your goals!



TASHASWH
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8/1/12 9:35 A

Post #20. Well I played the Wii last night and did the Just dance for about 15 minutes. It wasn't as long as I wanted to play but it was a start. Three days now I have done very good. Last nights dinner was the worst thing I have eaten all week it was some Chicken nuggets from Mcdonalds' but I did not have a soda or Fries. I am feeling good and can't wait to see a change either on the scale or in my inches. I am going to go weigh in tonight. I am finding it easier this week to eat what I am suppose to so that is good. I haven't been eating junk like candy bars and chips so I am certainly going in the right direction. Each day I have been being more active as well. I am struggling along and I know I will succeed.



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7/31/12 11:44 A

So here is my 19th post. I have had a really good two days. I am not eating any bread products and I am not drinking sodas well they are extremely limited and if I drink one soda I am drinking two cups of water after it. I have been doing some excercise but I am working on increasing to thirty minutes a day. I am feeling better and I know that the more I lose and the more excercise I do the better I will feel. I am hanging in there I have had bad days and great days i just work through the tough ones. If i fall of the wagon so to say I just get back up and dust myself off and start fresh the next day. I will weigh today or tomorrow to see if I have lost anything at all. If it is just a pound I will be so happy. If I do not lose anything at all I will even be ok as long as I am not gaining that is a plus. Salad for lunch today lots of protein during other meals. I had 2 egg whites and 1 egg with 3 sausage links for breakfast it keeps me full until lunch time I did slip a banana in for a snack since I need my fruits. Overall I am doing good and staying on track. Ramblings of a overwieight woman is what this blog should be called. LOL anyways I will be posting often to help keep me focused.



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7/30/12 2:58 P

Here I am. I had a wonderful weekend with the family rode a lot of fun rides did a ton of walking. I rode rollercoaster that I hadn't been on in years. My oldest daughter rode her first wooden roller coaster withme. We watched sugarland and laura alana. We had a blast and I did not eat a bunch of junk food. We split a foot long hot dog and some chips. we are a litte cotton candy but not much at all. It was a great weekend and can't wait to do it again sometime. I even went in the water park This time next year though I want to be 50 pounds lighter. I am still here and still going strong. I am dealing with the hard days and celebrating and rejoicinig in the easy ones. Everyday it gets a little better.



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7/26/12 2:39 P

Well I finally did it. Yesterday was day one of excercise. I did 2 miles to Walk away the pounds. Felt great after I got it done. Planning on doing it again this afternoon. Breakfast I had 2 egg whites and 1 whole egg with a chicken pattie. Lots of protein there. Lunch I had eggplant yummy. no snacks today because I haven't felt hungry. Played outside with Megan some yesterday she was in her little pool man was it hot. I am very full from lunch probably could have ate less eggplant. I have got to learn to stop when I am full instead of fitting in them last couple of pieces. My sister is working with me to lose weight so we are trying to keep each other on track weigh in day is tuesday to see if we have lost anything. We are making it a game see who loses the most each week. I think she was a little shocked to see that my waist is only 3 inches bigger than hers. but my stomach is larger and hangs lower. I can't believe I let her measure and weigh me that was a first. I am trying to put more protein in my diet so I stay full longer. She has given up bread and that just seems so hard to committ to. I love me some bread products. But I am trying to at least reduce the amount of bread I eat. I am still here and I am still kicking.



TASHASWH
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7/24/12 3:42 P

Ok well doing good today. I hope this post finds everyone having a great Tuesday. I am just ready to go home. I have two assignments due tonight for school. Almost done with my first two classes since I have been back in. 97 credits down. 83 more to go well at least for 3 more weeks then it is there are only 71 more to go. It is going pretty good I had a melt down the second week but I have recovered and I am doing good. Business math and Microeconomics is up next I hope they will not be too stressful. I then have two more math classes that I have to have. Accounting and something else that pertains to accounting. I know I can do it just have to take it one day at a time like my weight. 5 pounds not so bad if I can keep it up it will turn into 10 then 20 and so on and on. I want to lose all together 100 this would put me around 150. which I believe will be a good weight for me. Me and my sister are working on getting a room together so we can excercise we have to get some equipment up. We have a few things we can use so that is a start. It has been so hot outside can not seem to make myself walk because of the heat however there is no excuse but laziness when it comes to walking inside in the air. I am trying the motivation just hasn't come to me yet. I feel good and I am still trying which beats giving up and failing any day. I know I sound like a crazy lady in some of my post they just seem to help so much. I want to change my ticker but it will not let me keeps saying I have to have a current weight and a goal weight. They are in here I swear but it will not change so I just took it off all together. Well that is enough for the day.



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7/23/12 4:52 P

Just wanted to report I have lost 5 pounds this months so far.



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7/23/12 4:51 P

Monday is here and almost gone we had our employee recognition today. I had to stand up and recognize some employees today. I did it but didn't feel good standing in front of everyone. I am trying to stay motivated to keep it up I have days that i slip. I just have to keep trying sticking with the program. Some days are better than others. I am working with my sister on starting a excercise program were we support each other and try to keep each other motivated. She is not as big as me but she could lose some weight to be healthier and she wants to feel better about herself. I have been getting some healthier recipes off line here from sparkpeople and hungry-girl.com. I am working on eating better and introducing my kids to a healthier menu as well. Megan is 2 so she is actually more receptive than my 9 year old who appears to not like any fuit or veggies. How can you not like fruit but she doesn't not at all. She will drink juice but not eat fruit it has me baffled. I love fruit and most veggies I have been seeing recipes for like mac and cheese and mashed potatoes that uses cauliflour as the main ingredient I am going to give it a try and see what it is all about. I just have to start buying fat free or low fat things like cheese and other dairy. I already buy 1% or 2% milk might try fat free just to see how it goes over with us. All in all it was not that bad of a weekend. We went swimming for few hours Saturday and with this heat we have been having a may become a everyday thing which beats sitting at the house watching tv and munching on junk food. I am almost thru with my current classes in school and will be starting business math Microeconomics. FUN. I have 97 of my credits to get my degree so I have 83 more to go as soon as I am through with my currrent class I will have 72 more so they are counting down. I will have my degree before I know it. I really want to lose a lot of weight before my graduation day so I can feel really good about going up there and getting my diploma. One day at a time is my journey. My struggles, happiness, good days, terrible days and everything inbetween is what is going to make me strong and I know I will accomplish all of my goals. Everyone on this site is supportive and helpful and I appreciate all comments. Thank you so much for understanding what I am going through and being the backbone to keep me moving on toward a happier and healthier me.



TASHASWH
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7/20/12 3:14 P

Well it has been a few days since I have posted but I am still kicking. I have lost 5 pounds this month so far so I am feeling good about the work I have been doing. I have a few sodas but not to bad. I want to change my ticker to my weight loss but it will not let me it keeps telling me to put in my weight and my goal weight and I have. My days have been very busy lately. Fulltime job fulltime school and fulltime single mom keep me moving to say the least. I have had my struggles with eating but I am doing better than I was. It is so hard to get it under control and when you do just one slip up can through you off track. At least with me any way. I will be posting when i can It really helps me to keep focus but as you can see I have not been able to post everyday. One one of my teams we are doing a lose 7 pounds in July challenge and I am two pounds away from making my goal. As of today I weighed 253 down from 258. I am still just doing it a day at a time. I have been getting outside with my kids more in the evenings. Just playing and walking around at least when it isn't 103 degress outside. We have been having some rainy afternoons and it has helped drastically with the heat. I really wish I had someone near by that could help me get more motivated to excercise. I want to start my morning routine again but it is just so hard to make myself get up I set the alarm but when it goes off I end up resetting to my normal time to get up. I will eventually get there it is just part of my struggles. I have also been having to handle loneliness here lately. With my busy life you would think that I would never get lonely but I do. I want to focus on me though I know I have to be happy with myself. It has been right at a year since I have been in a relationship and I miss the companionship having someone to talk to or just spend time with. Lets face it I love my kids but they can't fill that part of my life. Even though i suspect that my 9 year old would be happy if I never even dated again. It would certainly be something different for her.I have seen or dated a couple of people since I divorced but mainly on weekends when the kids weren't home so she hasn't really seen me in a realationship with anyone other than her dad. However he has been living with someone else since we split up. I want to handle the whole situation right on my part though. I do not want to put them trough to much.



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7/12/12 9:46 P

Keep up the good work Natasha, pretty soon it wont be a struggle it will be a way of life emoticon



TASHASWH
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7/12/12 3:51 P

Dang it is Thursday already where does the time go. I have been having a good week. I have been out walking some in the afternoons while it hasn't been so hot and I feel good. I am sticking with it. I may not do great all the time but I am making better decisions. I had grapes for my snack today. I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for lunch and a orange for my afternoon snack. I shared a bowl of cereal with Megan this morning. I am working on it.



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7/9/12 7:19 P

Hugs.



TASHASWH
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7/9/12 3:46 P

Well it is Monday. Didn't do that great this weekend. But not horrible either. I have had a good day I am in range I haven't had all my water yet but I am working on it. NO soda today so that is good. I feel good. I haven't weighed yet this week but I am going to. I have been so busy with work and school and spending time with the girls that I am still struggling to eat right but what matters is that I am still working on it. Just continuing to take one day at a time and I will eventually get my eating under control. I have been out walking a little and push mowed some of the grass yesterday. I really sweated up a storm doing that. I know I need to increase my excercise I just can't seem to make myself get out of bed in the mornings to do it. I have to say I am a work in progress. I think once it becomes a routine it will be a little easier to stay on track. I did buy more fruit than usual. I have oranges, grapes, banana's I also bought some summer squash and hve been looking up recipes to cook it. Well anyway's thats all for now.



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7/6/12 11:42 A

Well I am still here and still kicking. I have found that on the days I do not post I do worse than on the days that I actually get on here and vent. I haven't had any water yet today but I am fixing to head to the cafeteria and get me a 16 oz cup of ice water to get me started for the day. I have already had a couple of them I could just give up moments over the last two weeks but I keep picking myself up and dusting myself off and saying it will be alright I will get the hang of it and keep on track. IT IS SO HARD. I knew it would take some time to get my eating under control it always does..I just have to stick with it and eventually everything will fall into place. I am going to try my best to get on here everyday and post everything I slacked off a little for a couple days. But I am still here and I and still working on it.



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7/3/12 10:15 A

It has been a couple days since I posted but don't worry I have been doing pretty good. I have had 2 diet sodas in the last two weeks. I have done pretty good I did have a couple of cookies sunday. I am doing my best to change the way I buy snacks for the girls. More fruit and veggies. I really like the fruit some of the veggies I am getting use too. I missed posting over the last few days I had some internet issues with my verizon I just could not get logged on good. but I did write down all of my food so I could transfer it here. Saturday night out with the girls was fun. We watched Magic Mike and went to the Olive garden i ended up with an appetizer for my meal which was stuffed mushrooms and chicken strips 2 and fried raveollie which I did not eat it was to hard. Water to drink a little salad and one breadstick.So overall not to bad I did not eat breakfast so that helped me stay in range. I will be posting more soon I will probably weigh in Friday to see if anything has happened. I am struggling to get back into my excercise routine I am just going to have to make myself do it



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6/29/12 6:17 P

Hmmm, I would have thought there was a grilled chicken breast on the menu - oh well!! I'd say, you've looked it over & knowing what you can eat on Phase 2, you'll make the right choice!!!! Enjoy!

Good idea staying busy with the kids gone - there are nights that I find myself alone too & I usually plan a project to work on something - I'll clean out drawers , rearrange cabinets - do laundry, fold laundry. You know, the things we all need to do anyway. Have a good evening!

Good luck on the yard sale looking! Hope you find what you need.

Have a good evening!!!



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6/29/12 3:51 P

I did what you suggested and I have looked up their website. I have found somethings that I like and there calories.
1 Bread stick 140 (i am going to try and avoid these)
Salad without dressing 120 (with is 350 Ill eat without)
Seafood Alfredo 1020 (Kind of High)
Chicken Marsala 770
Shrimp Primavera 706
Shrimp Scampi 1020
Ravioli di Porobello 610

I am not sure what I will get my sister is going with me and we usually split an entree' which will help I absolutely love their stuffed mushrooms but they are small and you only get six for 386 calories so I don't know if it is worth it. I don't usually put dressing on my salads anyways so I am not worried about that. I don't think I will eat any bread that is unessary calories. I have finised my water for the day and had an afternoon snack. I am eating at home this evening. Egg sandwiches is what I want. I think I am just going to watch a movie and play on spark people to keep me entertained since the girls won't be there and when the heat subsides a little I am planning on going for a walk. Yardsales first thing in the morning there are a few things I need for the house and I don't have the money to buy them new. A grill would be great a lawnmower (push) is good for me a reason to excercise more. Knifes, fans, things like that maybe I can find some good deals there are 10 yardsales in town tomorrow. I might just find the things that I need. Work is really slow this afternoon I would so much rather be busy it makes the time go by fast.



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6/29/12 1:24 P

Good job today on avoiding the temptation AND on getting so much water consumed so early.

I'd suggest you go to the Olive Garden website (type Olive Garden Nutrtionals into google) and it will bring up their menu options. Also remember it's OK to go & have a good time - just plan ahead. The salad may be a good choice, but with their dressing on it - it may not be. OR you could eat a light breakfast & lunch AND then have something you want. Be sure you know how much each bread stick is, etc. Just go prepared & you'll do fine.

I do that EVERYTIME I go out to eat - I plan ahead & check the menu walking in there knowing what I'm going to have. It really helps me NOT to get something that seems like it should be OK & discover it's not.

Congrats on losing 2 pounds, that's GREAT! Keep up the good work

Sherli



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6/29/12 1:00 P

Thank you Shermor13 for your advice. NO I didn't have a plan for dinner last night which was why I think I ended up going into Captain D's. I do have to start planning better I am most certainly working on it. I was proud of myself today the cafeteria here at work cook hamburgers and fries and I was tempted but I didn't I stuck to what I had brought for lunch and ate my Banana sandwich and some Special K cracker chips oh and 1 cup of grapes. I have done really good with my water today also I am on my 7th cup so only 2 away from goal. Venting through my blogs is really good therapy and I welcome any comments or suggestions that may help me on my way. This weekend will be a big challenge both of the girls will be gone to their dads and I will be alone plus tomorrow we are having a girls day out with some friends. We are going to watch magic mike and dinner at Olive Garden so if anyone has some good advice on what I should eat at the olive Garden let me know. I know I love their salad. I am just working on starting new habits so this is day 5 with my 8 cups of water and no sodas since Monday. Yeah Me. I weighed to day and was 256 which is two pounds less than when I started. So progress!!!! I know I will have good and bad days I just have to keep picking myself up and dusting myself off until I get it completely under control. I really appreciate the support I am getting from Spark I have been a member for years but have never utilized the blogs and message boards and people to my best advantage. So I have made it my mission to talk and post as often as possible to help keep myself motivated. As in previous post some may be random and crazy but they help me to keep my eyes on my goal and stay focused in what my goals are and how to reach them. I also enjoy reading the success stories they are so wonderful the difference in how people look and the way they talk about how they feel I want to be there one day. This was day 5 and counting.



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6/29/12 6:42 A

Natasha - let me first of all say how sorry I am about the loss of your Mom. That's a major hit in our lives; some of us eat everything in sight; some of us don't eat at all. (Me? I eat everything in sight until I have the ""umph" to get myself under control). Grief brings another entire dimension to our lives.

I lost my last sibling last summer (actually a year ago yesterday) from bone cancer & it was such a huge loss for me. I gained SO much weight & I have to say that all the eating really didn't help my pain - i was actually so miserable the heavier I got.

I did go for counseling & it helped SO much - so IF you haven't gone for grief counseling, think about it. It helped me greatly.

NOW about yesterday....you drank your water AND even though you did Capt D's you stayed w/in your range - so don't beat yourself up too much.

I know for me that I just don't STOP at fast food places - even IF there's something on the menu that is healthy, that's usually NOT what I want! LOL! So I've just stopped - I try to eat & cook at home as much as possible. For me I like knowing exactly what's gone into my foods, so IF I cook from scratch, that allow me to do that.

Hang in there - you can do this! Could it be yesterday that you made a plan for dinner & then changed your mind twice? I noticed you said that you'd decided to cook at home, but did you plan what you were going to fix?? I know I get into trouble IF I don't have a plan on what to cook - because it seems just as soon as I don't really plan ahead, nothings thawed out; fresh or good to be prepared. I often cook up several things at one time that can be used a variety of ways - chicken breasts grilled; used a couple of times as a meal with veggies; diced & used for salads; shredded & used in a roll-up!

Don't give up - keep on your journey!!! AND keep coming here to express yourself & get input!

Sherli



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6/28/12 6:52 P

Why are the evenings so hard. I did so good all day today and this evening as I am driving home I see fast food and in we go. Captain D's the good new is I stayed in my range the very top end of it though. I don't know what is wrong with me to want something so bad and have such a little will power. I did order less than usual and I split it with megan so that was better than I usually would but I have to be strong the rest of the night or I will go over my goal. I know It is going to be hard and I know I have to be strong but it can be so frustrating. I have to deal with my food addiction and it is going to be a difficult thing to concur. I wish is wasn't so hot outside I would go for a walk but the heat just takes your breath away. excuses excuses I know I am trying to get myself motivated to at least walk 1 mile tonight. It would make me feel better after consumming that large dinner. I did reach my water goal today and that is good. I have to keep up with the small goals to start breaking old habits. I haven't had a soda since I began so that is also good. I am going to keep focusing on completeing them goals so that I don't beat myself up when I slip.



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6/28/12 9:36 A

8:34 am I had a well rounded breakfast well in my limit for this morning. I am feeling good. I have had two cups of water so far. My lunch is fixed and packed and with in my range. I think I am having a subway for dinner not postive yet. Feeling really positive today. 11:44 changed my mind on the subway. I am going to cook something just do not know what yet. The day is going really good. I have been keeping busy I did stop earlier for a granola bar and I have had 4 cups of water just 4 more to go to reach my goal for the day. And just to recap if anyone starts reading my blogs they are just a way to keep me on track and doing good. Ihave found that posting like this really keeps my mind on doing what I need to do to stay on track. Just getting out how I feel keeps me from bottling it up and regretting the overindulgence that comes later. I have been dealing with a lot inside and I am trying to let go of the past and start fresh. I know what has cause my last weight gain and I am working on dealing with my pain to be able to move on with my life and be a happier healthier me. My mom passed away the day after Christmas and dealing with my divorce being final have really had their impact on me. I know I can work through these things with time. I have dealt with the divorce and I am in a good place with it. It is just what I hid behind during the last weight gain over this last year. My mothers death hasn't been easy but I am coping food was a comfort but I am making the changes I need to keep going. So expect more random post from me on a daily basis sometimes more than once or even twice a day.

Edited by: TASHASWH at: 6/28/2012 (12:50)


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6/27/12 10:57 P

Well it is about 10:00 pm almost time for bed. Just finishing up a seminar for school. Megan is asleep. I feel like I did pretty good this afternoon. I was full after dinner. I fit in squash and onions. I had some watermelon and with my lunch salad that is 2 veggies and 1 fruit. So that is a start. I had a sucker which was better than a snack cake and it kept me from raiding the cabinets and fridge. I played with Megan and did some school work. I am ready for bed and wil post again soon.



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6/27/12 5:06 P

Well the end of the work day is here and it is time to go home. There will be many random post from me because I am finding this very helpful to just type how I feel down and this is keeping me busy as well. Any thing that will help me stay in control of what I am eating will be what I do to stay on track especially these first weeks maybe even months. I have to get my routine down so that it is more normal to do these things than it is not to do. I will be posting often hopefully several times aday especially as long as it helps me. The beginnig is the hardest for me and I will probably repeat myself many many times. So just ignore the repeated post. Right now I am just rambling because I am nervous about going home I do not want to over eat. I have had a very good day. I have had 9 cups of water and I ate salad for lunch breakfast was mulit grain cheerios. So I just have to keep it up.



TASHASWH
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6/27/12 9:06 A

Well yesterday was my first day back on Sparkpeople in a while. Today is day 1 of a long journey to a better life. I actually got outside with my daughter yesterday. I didn't do a whole lot but I did something different instead of sitting in front of the tv. I also drank my 8 8oz cups of water yesterday so that is a good start. One of my first goals is to go without any sodas. I usually only drink diet but I know they are not really good for you. I ate multi grain cheerios for breakfast and I am planning on a chicken tender salad at lunch. Instead of fried chicken strips at dinner last night I had a grilled chicken wrap. It was very good. I am just in the process of making small changes. Excersise seems like it is going to be my biggest challenge. I use to get up an hour early every morning to do Walk away the pounds I got out of the habit now it seems almost impossible to start again. I know I am on one of the hardest journeys I have ever been on but reading the success stories are really motivating. The before and after pictures are amazing. So here I am at the offical day one weighing 258 pounds the heaviest I have ever been when I wasn't pregnant anyways. 28 of them pounds was packed on since my divorce was finalized a little under a year ago. I have been hiding behind my weight and I am tired of that. I want to be healthier for my girls and myself. So this completes the second post of many to come. Have a great day and may all of us be able to reach our goals and live a healthier lifestyle.



TASHASWH
SparkPoints: (16,729)
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Posts: 1,978
6/26/12 4:05 P

I am a single mom of 2 beautiful girls, I am also a full time student (online) and I work full time. I am obese and very concerned about future health problems. I have tried to lose weight so many times and I always seem to fail. I really want to lose weight so I can be healthy and live to see grand children and maybe even great grand children. These are a long way off. My girls are 9 and 2. I tell myself that I am ready but I have failed so many times. Times when I said I was ready. So I have the tools I have the support I just have to do it. I know that it won't just fall off but I get so discouraged so fast. I also think I might have an addiction to food. How do you get over a food addiction. I eat when I am not hungry. I eat because I am bored, sometimes when I am upset, sometimes when I don't have anything better to do. I know I have to fix a lot of bad habits but how do you make new habits stick? Any advice, comments, suggestions, general support will be much appreciated. I know losing weight will help me stay healthy and I am tired of going to bed at night thinking about not waking up because i weigh to much. I don't want to leave my girls without a mommy.



 
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