My name is Movin4ward and I am a sugar addict. A little history on myself, I have been addicted to sugar as far back as I can remember. I remember being two/three and wishing I could have two ice cream cones instead of one. I regularly snacked on sweets and could care less about meal time. Believe me, my parents put up a good fight, but I'd sit at the table for hours without touching my food.
So fast forward to age 33, I get preggers and gain 60lbs with my first kiddo. Went from 127-187. Somehow miraculously I lost it all, with tracking food and working out. Still having way too many sweets tho. Then at age 36 I have baby #2, and gain 55lbs (hey it was less than the first-ha) and have lost it all again. But I have the worst cellulite on my booty and upper thighs.
So I have come this far! I want to get to 120 if not 115. I haven't been able to lose a single pound in a year (haven't gained either I guess).
Here is how bad my addiction is. In the morning I love candy bars and Diet Coke! It is my coffee of the am (I don't like coffee, wish I would). I feel normal and grounded when I have a sweet treat at my disposal, it helps me deal with life I guess.
I don't know what will motivate me to stop. My husband is 100% supportive, will watch the kids while I excercise, will eat whatever it takes to keep us healthy, will literally slap a candy bar out of my hand, will clean the house do dishes, WHATEVER I ask for so I can work out.
I pay a personal trainer (who has given me numerous food plans), have had abdominoplasty (got me some amazing flat abs now), am even getting boobs next month to update my mommy boobs. We have a lake place in the summer so I have so many reasons to want to put the sugar down and I seem to "NEED" it. If I could overcome this addiction, I would meet my goal in probably two months-ha! But it has a control over me like nothing else.
I don't overeat anything else. I should be on that show, weird eaters (or whatever its called)...if I had some candy bars, chips/salsa and Diet Coke that's all I'd need.
I feel like an alcoholic or drug addict, waiting for my next hit. I'm a "fat" skinny girl