I am also getting married next year. I have been with the love of my life for over 3 years and in that time we had two beautiful children. I was really fit when we met but having 2 kids in 2 and a half years led me to gaining 80lbs! I also continued eating as if I was pregnant until my son was about 8 months. I saw a picture of myself and was shocked, I didn't even recognize myself. I have started eating healthy, watching calories, portions and exercising and have lost 46 lbs since december. However, motivation is really an issue for me lately. We are on a major budget and I feel soo guilty buying fresh, healthier foods and making seperate dinners for myself. My fiancee does not like the healthy foods I eat. I even had him go through about 40 recipes from sparkrecipes with me to find stuff he would eat and out of those there were 2 that he said he might try! Its really hard sometimes but I have to remember that I have always been a healthy active person and now that I have two children I need to incorporate this part of me with them. I want to be a positive role model. I really want to be the beautiful bride that I know I can be. Right now it's hard to look at myself in the mirror past my neck. ugh!