My father had cancer last year, and we had to spend Christmas not knowing if he had it for sure or not yet.
So while I don't know what you're personally going through, I have a sense of how hard it is.
Sometimes I don't think doctors understand how hard it is to not know the status of your health. Just please try to stay positive and stay away from the internet cause it will scare you to death when researching health problems! One of the rules my dad & I had, was that we wouldn't research his type of cancer at all in case it would scare us. He is cancer free now and I hope and pray that you will receive good news as well. God bless!