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Working toward a better me!
This winter has been tough on me. And while I am still waiting for better weather, I can feel the seasons shifting, and it is lifting my spirit. I have a long road back to "healthy", even longer now that I have gained more weight on top of my medical issues. But I want to help myself- I need to, I have to. And so I now embark on the journey to recapture me. There is a smile buried somewhere, and the want to do more than merely survive. I ...
Working toward a better me!
This winter has been tough on me. And while I am still waiting for better weather, I can feel the seasons shifting, and it is lifting my spirit. I have a long road back to "healthy", even longer now that I have gained more weight on top of my medical issues. But I want to help myself- I need to, I have to. And so I now embark on the journey to recapture me. There is a smile buried somewhere, and the want to do more than merely survive. I will find her...
"People take different roads seeking fulfillment & happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost."
- H. Jackson Brown Jr.
“I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
― Gilda Radner
“Do not train a child to learn by force or harshness; but direct them to it by what amuses their minds, so that you may be better able to discover with accuracy the peculiar bent of the genius of each.”
9/11/13: I am working hard toward my goals, and getting things organized, here on SP and at home. I am currently trying to work with the Somersize way of eating plan. It has worked well for me in the past, and I am doing my best to make things start working for me now. I have gained at least 50 lbs in the last several months, and I've had enough. It's time to get a handle on my stress, my time, and my direction. I love my new teams that are in tune with my goals: Challengers of Hogwarts and Biggest Loser Fall Challenge with the Pink Panthers.
6/25/13: I am in week 2 with the Pink Panthers, Biggest Loser Summer Challenge, and shortly beginning the Summer Term with The Challenge of Harry Potter team. I also am looking to resume Peak8 for my fitness plan, and eventually "The Plan" for a dietary plan.
Life is busy for me, and I am juggling many things. I won't go crazy with details, as you all have the same struggles!
I am still in recovery from a bone marrow transplant in July 2011, and hope to get rid of a lot of this fatigue eventually. :)
I participate when I can, and therefore, have had to let go of some of my more challenging, faster-paced teams. I miss my friends very much, but luckily we are still here on Spark!
Have a great summer!! :)
5/2/13: It was time to end my "free eating" and assess the damage to my weight and get back to business. So last week I jumped in (after much research and planning), and I started "The Plan". It begins with a 3 day cleanse to reset your palate, reduce your sodium and sugar, and remove common foods that many people can be sensitive to (wheat, dairy, eggs, etc.).
Following the cleanse you start to introduce foods back into your diet and check if they cause you discomfort or weight gain, indicating that this is a food that you could be reactive to. So you would want to lessen the frequency in which you eat that food.
It is NOT an easy system- probably the most difficult plan I have ever tried. There is a lot of prep, and it has been difficult trying to make my own food outside of the family's. Basically, we all eat something different. (Me, DH, DS) So, I've put a lot of work into this. I am starting day 6 today, down about 10 lbs already, so I have cleared out a good amount of inflammation and water weight and it feels good to be on the downward path again. :) I do hope to determine which foods work against my body in order to lessen the frequency in which I eat them, thereby keeping my body as inflammation free, healthy, and comfortable as possible!
3/14/13: Well, I very nearly went crazy and had to shut down on some things lately. When I was brought to tears on a daily basis, I knew something had to give. Sadly, I removed myself from my challenge teams since I was drowning in the requirements of fulfilling my role as an active, supportive team member. Best regards to True Blue and the Pink Panthers. I wish you girls all the success and happiness you deserve!
Right now I am taking one day at a time, trying to be active in my son's life at school and at home, getting as much rest as I can muster up, and formulating a new plan for my health. I am looking at several ways of eating that seem healthful to me: The Mediterranean, Ketogenic, and Paleo plans. All focus on real food, and I think the key to getting to where I want to be will be eating mainly whole foods, cutting out a lot of "added junk" - preservatives, chemicals, dyes, artificial things, much unnecessary sugar products, and keep a low profile on grains and starches. I also am aiming for 3 ST days per week and 3 days of moderate cardio, not to exceed 45 minutes. (These may overlap.) So that's my general outline, and being a researcher of sorts, I am beginning to read books regarding these dietary plans to formulate my specifics. Carry on, friends! Happy Spring :)
2/3/13: February is here! I have gotten my bearings and am on the downward trend! I have a few food obstacles to overcome, but they are mere blips on the road. I hope to keep this pattern for awhile. My BLC team TRUE BLUE is going great- what an awesome bunch of girls!
1/9/13: Happy New Year! It's been almost a month, and I am on a sinking ship. My life raft has appeared, but I have to swim out to it! Yup, gotta take "the plunge"... literally, a leap in the right direction. A decision. Do I want to succeed, or not? Because doing this 1/2 way (or the other term I prefer better) won't get me to my goal.
I have taken up the Happiness Challenge, and am working on that, prepping myself to move ahead (or rather retrace my steps back to success). I am going to find a way to work past my emotions- the stress, the anger, the sadness, that doesn't include food fixes.
I am starting to get back into regular exercise, whether it be 10 minutes or 60, just as long as it's everyday.
I will keep moving forward!
12/12/12: Nice date. So yeah... starting a big new challenge, smack dab in the middle of the holidays. No time like the present to get serious again!! I will be working with my Pinks to hold off the holidays. GO P*I*N*K * P*A*N*T*H*E*R*S!!
More about me... I am working my way through my "new" life, trying to move on following a bone marrow transplant in July of 2011. Recovery is slow- over a year later, I am still very tired, sometimes in pain, and nauseous. Getting back to the level of health I had prior to the 4 months I spent in the hospital (for leukemia), and 5 rounds of chemo is going to take time, I know that. It just seems sometimes that it isn't happening fast enough!
At some point, I want to move beyond merely surviving life to actively living it. Right now, a good day is when I can get my 6 yr old son dressed, fed, and ready for his day elsewhere, and be awake for a few hours. A lot of extra sleep seems to be my body's priority. My stamina is just not there!
So I continue on... in hope that eventually the healing will occur. :) So make the most of each day that you are able to, as you may find yourself in this position someday and realize you took for granted some of the simplest things in life that are now so difficult for me to manage.
And by the way, I had no symptoms of the disease, it was found on a routine blood test! I had never felt better at the time, having recently dropped 50 lbs during that year. You just never know....
A couple of my favorite quotes, so applicable right now:
"I can't do this, but I'm doing it anyway."
"Don't look back, you're not going that way."
I have a few books I am currently reading to help me move on (the mental aspect is just as bad as the physical). Chemotherapy and the threat of an early death does a real number on the head, as well as months and months on end in the hospital. I pray no one has to go through this and worse terrors. But please feel free to contact me to talk if you need support or prayers for anything at all. It doesn't have to be cancer! We all have our own dragons to fight that are just as big as anyone else's!
Books: Dancing in Limbo, Picking Up The Pieces, & The Anxiety Disease (this one doesn't seem to be applicable, but one of my rather prestigious doctors recommended it to me).
I also read romance novels when I need a break from the "heavy stuff".
((¸¸.♥´ ..·´ ☆** Ursula~Seven **☆.¸¸.♥´
From TWINKS55, thank you....
© Carol Lafreniere
Walking towards a wishful dream,
By your side a crooked stream,
Above, the clouds are fluffy cream,
No longer do you want to scream.
The air it smells so sweet.
The birds go, twitter tweet.
Soft grass to place your feet.
You groove with nature's beat.
Out here, there are no cars.
Out here, there are no bars.
Nighttime brings you Venus, Mars;
Uncountable amounts of stars.
Take it all in friendly stride,
Don't ever feel you have to hide.
This is where you reach inside,
And spread your wings; feel them glide.
Your life is yours, not theirs to take.
Light a fire by the lake.
Always love, with whom you wake,
Never let your friendships break.
Always live without regret.
Don't give up, not now, not yet.
Know the future isn't set.
Appreciate what love you get.
I know that nature's trees are tall,
There's some you cannot climb at all-
Full in Spring ''til Autumn's Fall,
Covered in a winter shawl.
And as the seasons come and go,
You'll see the stream begin to grow.
Filled by your whole life you know,
Carried in the winds that blow.
Listen to the song it sings-
Love and peace is what it brings.
Sharing all the little things,
Smoothing over dents and dings.
That what living's all about.
Never fill it up with doubt.
Look real close to find this out-
Always seek the kinder route.
And you will see, my oldest friend,
This dreamy life, it has no end.
There's always more beyond the bend,
Nature's hand, a limb, to lend.
| Pounds lost: 2.0
Member Since: 1/22/2008
Fitness Minutes: 27,384
Regain my health, and enjoy my life, through study, reflection, activity, and interaction with family and friends.
Keep my stress down!
Steer clear of manipulative people.
I am striving everyday to find a balance between making a good life and living it! I battle MS and was the recipient of a bone marrow transplant in 2011 to put my Leukemia (AML) into remission. I am still recovering, and have a lot of fatigue.
My name is Ursula and I am from Rochester, NY. I have been married for 9 years and have a 8 year old son.
books I have loved:
The Mortal Instruments series
The Infernal Devices series
Harry Potter series
Earth's Children series
The Inheritance Cycle
Poison, Magic, & Fire Study
Storm Glass, Sea Glass, Spy Glass
Hunger Games series