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My Transforming Journey
January 5, 2009
"THE GREAT START OVER" number 184.
In 2008, I thought I was ready to reach my goal. (see below) Well, by the end of the year and about 30 pounds later, I realized I gained back half of what I lost in 2006. LOTS of reasons. NO excuses. I have a new scale now. An accurate one. It is probably about 10 pounds heavier than my old one was. But, since I really don't know what my start weight was 3 years ago, I can only use what the old scale said, even though I know ...
January 5, 2009
"THE GREAT START OVER" number 184.
In 2008, I thought I was ready to reach my goal. (see below) Well, by the end of the year and about 30 pounds later, I realized I gained back half of what I lost in 2006. LOTS of reasons. NO excuses. I have a new scale now. An accurate one. It is probably about 10 pounds heavier than my old one was. But, since I really don't know what my start weight was 3 years ago, I can only use what the old scale said, even though I know deep down I weighed more than that.
I have a solid plan. Definite, clear goals. And the motivation to lose 80 pounds once again. (See my 01/03/09 blog)
Life is good. It isn't always easy, but it is real, and I treasure every moment....
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2008 start over 183
In 2006 I endured five surgeries. I lost eighty pounds, NOT due to the medical issues, but as a result of eating mindfully and staying within my caloric range. 2006 brought a new appreciation for the many miracles in my life. In my very core, I realized how EVERY day is a blessing, a gift. And I truly believe no one has a better life than I.
2007 was a year of stabilization. I learned what my new body could and could not do and which (minor) limitations are temporary and which ones may be permanent. I discovered inner strengths and hidden flaws. I felt more spiritually in touch and more spiritually disengaged. I loved who I am and struggled with who I am...
Then, little by little, I lost focus and began to relapse. One day recently, I stopped and took a good hard look in the mirror. I was on the verge of becoming one of these negative statistics - a woman to who gained back everything she'd lost... So I made the decision. I am facing it head on. No shame. No guilt. I am just holding myself accountable. l weigh 50 pounds less than I did two years ago, and 60 pounds less than my all time high, but I am not there yet.
I recommitted on 1/3. Relapsed 1/9. Recommitted 2/1. Relapsed 2/4 and so on...and so on...
On my 183rd start over (6/15/08) I again acknowledged my addiction. Food is my drug of choice. I feel strong and successful in so many areas of my life...but with food? Every day presents itself as an opportunity to succeed, or to relapse again. I must keep the vision, the process, and the desire to be at a normal, healthy, body weight at the forefront of my mind.
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I will love myself more than the food.
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"If the only prayer you ever say is 'Thank You', that would suffice."
Meister Eckhart
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"I vow to practice mindful breathing and smiling, looking deeply into things. I vow to understand living things and their suffering, to cultivate compassion and loving kindness, and to practice joy and equanimity." Thich Nhat Hanh
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"Before you speak, it is necessary for you to listen, for God speaks in the silence of the heart."
Mother Teresa
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"It is a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best you very often get it."
W. Somerset Maugham
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"Treat the Earth well. It was not given to you by your parents. It was loaned to you by your children."
Kenyan proverb
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Great start over
02/06..........299
01/05/09...258.2... -41.8
02/02/09...249.4... -49.6
05/27/09...245.4... - 53.6
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Member Since: 2/5/2006
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My Goals:
To change the course of my life. Having realized how short it really is, I am recommitting to a healthy life style. I want to ensure a better quality of life and spend a longer time on this planet Earth.
My Program:
My goal is to eat food free from artificial anything. Whole and natural, preferably local, with high raw intake.
The key to my success will be tracking everything that enters my mouth, and practicing mindful eating.
I am currently walking an average of 2 miles a day, doing qigong several times a week, and dancing whenever I can. I have access to an eliptical and swim during the summer months. I started belly dancing, and will see if my body, can handle yoga (as of 01/08, the movement was too painful on scar tissue)
I walked my first 10K in 2007, and am now shooting for a 1/2 marathon. (NEVER set goals that are too low!)
"To really change my life, I must stay focused on the process, not the pounds. If I do, the pounds take care of themselves."
(That's my own quote!)
Personal Information:
Fourth generation Californian who recently gave up her home on the ocean, and LOVES living near Sacramento!
Other Information:
Humor and prayer/meditation sustain me...what a combo!
I love theater, "fringe" music (opera, trad jazz, folk, Hawaiian falsetto, etc.) I love foriegn films, and "funky" art. I paint, travel, laugh, and talk too much. I think life is an spiritual journey and realize, even at my age, I have only just begun, and am barely scratching the surface of awareness. I never read as much as I would like to, but am in a group that forces me to read at least one book a month...also use audio books on the road. I love my folks, my dear husband, my son, my friends, but most of all my two precious grandbabies.
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