Me on the left, my younger sister, & my mom (March 2008)
Hi! I'm Bethany. I live in South Carolina. I've been a Spark member since Spring 2008 when a friend turned me onto this awesome site.
I'd always been thin until the summer before freshman year of high school when I put on 30 lbs!!! Yikes, I still don't know how that happened to this day. It seemed like I gained 10 lbs more each year of high school, and then when I hit college, the weight very slowly began to come off. I think I was around 175 lbs at my heaviest.
Once out of college, I got into real estate & starting working out. I hired a personal trainer and lost a good bit of weight & learned about healthy eating & how to exercise. After reaching my goal weight of 140lbs a little over 3 years ago, I've yoyo'd over the last 2 years, between 145 & 155 lbs, and I've recently found myself up to 165. I've not been happy with my yoyoing up and down and have been dissatisfied with my appearance during the process. I know why, & I've wanted to do something about it for a long time now. I am a work in progress, and I am hoping that with each day I find new motivation and desire to carve a new path for myself. I get down just like anyone on this journey. I put my own obstacles up and allow them to set me off course. I forget about my goals, and then there are times where my motivation is so fierce I take the extreme path and actually achieve something.
Food and eating have always been my issues. Exercise is a pleasure for me, but it is food that is my comfort and main form of expression of everything. I am working towards finding other outlets for my feelings and emotions, thoughts, dreams, fears, and motivation and desire. It's a journey. I hope that the journey will allow me to better appreciate where I am and all that I've achieved when I get there. I want to love myself more than I love anything and anyone (except God), and be fearless enough to achieve my goal.
I'M DONE, y'all. DONE yoyo-ing & feeling upset with myself for having to lose the same weight I've lost how many times now? I know I can do this, & I'm here committed to it & ready to find the support I need from within myself and wherever I may find it and create it.
30 POUND WEIGHT LOSS GOAL
170 lbs - 5/22/2010
165 lbs - 7/17/2010
163 lbs - 7/24/2010
161 lbs = 8/6/2010
160 lbs - 8/28/2010 (10 LBS lost - 20 to go!!!)
My main goal is to be happy with my body & my daily lifestyle choices. I'm not expecting or looking for perfection.
* 140 lbs
* No middle of the night snacking
* No emotional eating
* Eat only when hungry & to satisfy my body's needs
I never need motivation to workout. I LOVE hitting the gym & go about 5 days/week. I do it all... freeweights, running, elliptical, stepmill, yoga, classes. I enjoy it all.
I work with weights about 4-5x/week for anywhere from 30 mins - 1 hr, depending on what I'm doing.
Cardio 5x/week for 30 mins - 1 hr, depending on my mood, schedule, & how long I plan to lift weights.
I am a super ecclectic person when it comes to my interests. I'm into all sorts of different things. I love all spicy & ethnic food! I'm a lover of all things international: travel, food, wine, languages, culture, history.
I really enjoy college sports (I'm a Carolina Gamecock in case you're wondering), & MLB has caught my eye this year... just in time for the World Series!
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Hey girl good to see ya again :)
2082 days ago
Hi! Thanks for your ecouragement in my blog! I am STUNNED by the results of the plan I'm on, and just delighted that we finally worked out all the supply and body issues so we can get "down" to the biz of that scale going "down" ! ha ha
Love you mindset, really great. We too love everything International! Even attending the International Living Conference in Sept in Vegas to find out more about becoming part-time expats. You know, they walk more in other countries, less processed food around... I'm thinking natural maintenance program for a lower weight ;-)
Keep up the great dedication. Here's to DONE WITH YOYO DIETING!
2157 days ago
I've kept meaning to drop by and say how interesting it was to me to read that you are very tidy. I guess I always thought that my eating was part of procrastinating on all kinds of things, including housework. It is for me, but I mean I guess I thought all overeaters had messy houses, too. NOT!
Gosh, you've accomplished a lot!
2212 days ago
It's tough dealing with moms or any others, but they can help us see ourselves. My mom has passed now, but I remember trying to convince her to do more weight bearing exercise. I told her the less she did, the weaker she would feel, but that was the very reason to do more. Now I think about that at night when i come home for work and can't get myself to do even 5 minutes of weights or squats or anything.
I think the Biggest Loser has led people to expect incredible results. Besides, aren't we going to have to keep doing this forever anyway? Will we stop trying to eat sanely and exercise the way our body needs even if we are never thin? but it's so much easier to say it than to do it, huh?
I think you've made strides even since I started reading your posts. congrats!
2261 days ago
Comment edited on: 4/20/2010 5:30:48 PM
Hahah thanks! I would totally pull your wheel chair :)
I also just posted... I didn't realize you couldn't do yoga even! I didn't mean to rub it in. I know I'd be so frustrated... You sound like you're really doing well with it mentally. Thanks for the motivation!
2292 days ago