ROCK CHALK JAYHAWK!
The Great Wall of China
I'm Beth. I'm a nurse navigator at a large community hospital and have the privilege to work with women with breast cancer. I have so many blessings in my life... my family, friends my work, and the faith that God has much more in store for me than I can even imagine.
I have been obsessed by weight loss, or, perhaps more accurately, by my failure to succeed at weight loss, for almost 40 years. What a waste of time, energy, and happiness that has been.
Somehow over the past year or so I have acknowledged the fact that I am going to die. Ok, probably not this week, or this month. With any luck at all, not this year or even this decade. But it's going to happen. And it's going to happen to me. I'm in my early sixties, so I am significantly closer to the end than to the beginning.
I hope you don't think I'm being morbid or self-pitying. On the contrary. Accepting this truth has given me an overwhelming sense of peace and joy. It has made me braver, more willing to take risks, less concerned with the opinions of others. And I have also found a new definition of success.
I cut myself some slack on this "losing weight" obsession. It is so much more important that my seven grandchildren remember me for my unconditional love, abundant laughter, and enthusiasm for life than for a skinny butt or firm thighs. I mean, really, that's just weird.
Life loves irony. Once I stopped beating myself up over my weight, it became a non-issue. I like feeling good, so I eat a healthier diet because it makes me feel good. I have an indulgence when I want one, but I don't feel a need to hide it or justify it. And I've lost weight. LIGHT BULB MOMENT.
Do I want to lose more weight? Of course! It felt better than wonderful to have my family doctor of 16 years comment that this was the first time she had ever seen me under 200 pounds. One of my goals, but NOT my most important goal, is to shed another 50 pounds. I think I can do it, but it doesn't define me as a success or a failure.
Life is a challenge. But there is so much that is beautiful, so much that is joyous in this journey we are on. And I intend to enjoy myself.
To wake up in the morning with energy and enthusiasm.
To live my life according to the values and beliefs I cherish.
To walk a 5K without collapsing.
To try a new healthy recipe at least every couple of weeks.
To see the Grand Canyon. (BUCKET LIST)
I am following Weight Watchers, but I'm not a fanatic.
Trying to drink more water.
Wearing my Fit Bit and setting goals to increase activity.
My husband Mike and I have been married more than. We live in Central Florida. We have three adult children, seven perfectly gorgeous grandchildren, and one obnoxious cat.
I love to travel. My favorite trips were to China and to Denmark. I've never seen the Grand Canyon, and that's next on my Bucket List.
I've been a bookworm since I was five. My Book Club is one of the nicest things I do for myself.
| current weight: 184.8