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Reengineering Bill 2.0

Welcome to my new page. It’s more focused, stronger, faster, sleeker…much like I intend to be. I’ve been a SP member for several years now and had great success, but life changes and my reactions have not all been positive.

Before SP I had success in losing weight on my own, but was turned to SP for a work challenge and fell in love with my ‘friends’ here. At my heaviest I was 535 pounds and there was no end in sight. I can look back now and tell you that most weekends would be ...
Welcome to my new page. It’s more focused, stronger, faster, sleeker…much like I intend to be. I’ve been a SP member for several years now and had great success, but life changes and my reactions have not all been positive.

Before SP I had success in losing weight on my own, but was turned to SP for a work challenge and fell in love with my ‘friends’ here. At my heaviest I was 535 pounds and there was no end in sight. I can look back now and tell you that most weekends would be full of 10,000 calorie days! Full dinner, large popcorn/soda at the movie, dessert on the way home was a normal life. I always hid myself behind the ‘fat funny guy’ stigma, but inside I was a wreck. It wouldn’t be until the last couple years I would finally make the jump and get the bottom of things.

When I met a great many SP friends in the fall of 2009, I was down to 255 pounds and looked great…but still didn’t like myself. People would fawn over my 260# transformation and it was hard to accept. I often came off boisterous or braggart, but I’m pretty much the opposite. I’ve downplayed many of my accomplishments over the years…for whatever reason. Coming into the SP convention I was just off a 100 mile bike ride and had sculpted legs and sinewy arms. I was even wearing some LARGE shirts and a 42” waist…this down from a 6/7XL shirt and 66” waist. I wasn’t running much at this time, but was convinced that would be my next challenge. I’d done a couple 5K’s, but I wanted to be one of THOSE people who were considered runners, albeit a slow one, half marathoners.

That winter I started my training for a spring half marathon. I did quite a bit of it indoors on the local YMCA track or my own treadmill…still too embarrassed to run outside. That spring I ran my first half in a time that baffled many of my thinner friends…2:24 and change. During this time I also started weighing more; potentially muscle from all the training. I switched right over into biking and rode a 2-day 150 mile challenge, weight the same. Right after that I trained for my 2nd half marathon in a condensed plan; faster yet by about 30 seconds…more weight gain. I then took off some time off to rest and gained about 10 pounds during the holidays. Never satisfied, always looking for a larger challenge, I decided that I wanted to do a marathon. By this time I’m around 280-290 pounds, but in the best cardio shape of my life. I train with the great MIT group out of Columbus and make new friends along the way. I’m a role model to the group of newbie’s that are training for their first half-marathons. As I move along I get faster, but still enjoy the camaraderie of my group, so I continue training with them. All of this training requires quite a bit of time and energy; it’s a part time job. The other thing it allows you to do is think…a lot. One thing that I noticed was that when I was out doing this I was happy; otherwise, I was miserable. I had a great home, a beautiful daughter, didn’t really want for much, but my marriage had become toxic. During my journey to health my wife did her best to sabotage my efforts along the way. Shortly after my marathon, (once again downplaying the accomplishment), I left my wife. It’s been a rough way to go with everything; rebuilding myself, forging a new relationship with my daughter, trying to keep the home afloat alone and the various other stressors that go with a bitter (she, not I) divorce.

All of this (including an unmentioned injury during a race) has added exponentially to my weight. I’m now battling the demons of “self love/worth” and trying to fight my way back. I praise finding a good counselor who helps me deal with my thoughts and emotions. With the divorce ending soon, house selling and looking for a new place…I’m finally feeling, almost, free. Free to let go of the excuses. Free to throw my pain into my workouts. Free to keep only the foods around that I want; other than stuff for DD.

I may have stumbled, but I’m not down and out. Much like a Phoenix, I will rise again and be better, physically and emotionally than I ever have been. I hope you’ll join me on the journey.
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Member Since: 2/4/2008

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My Goals:
Regain control of my life and right the ship. Working hard and making small changes to acheive success. I'm NOT the same person I was 2 years ago.

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I'm currently working out with a 'team' and using 2 trainers that kick our @sses! Very much BL style...only we don't get voted out.

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I currently reside in Marion, Ohio. This is about 1 hour north of Columbus (Go Bucks!)

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"I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become."
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SHIMMYHIP
8/6/2014 9:07:44 AM

I hope all is well. Thanks for your honesty. You are very brave. it takes courage to do what is best for you.



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MEGAMITENCHI
4/29/2014 1:58:53 PM

Thanks, Bill! It is SO good to hear from you!!



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LTTLREDCORVETTE
4/1/2014 9:44:32 AM

Never made it to the movies!! Came home from Jergels to take a nap... and I was down for the count until Sunday morning lol. Guess I have some more training to do before my next race haha



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RAVEN_SKY
3/4/2014 11:54:42 PM

Thanks for adding me back. Your story is amazing and so inspiring to see you still going, never giving up and coming back stronger each time, so awesome!



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TIGGER622
3/4/2014 1:52:32 PM

hows logging going? I started yesterday...



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