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Thanks for all the supportive comments & goodies.

Step by step, I'm continuing to learn how to manage my life. It may be slow but it IS happening. I appreciate all the encouraging words on my page, photos & blogs. Spark friends are great!

"A desire presupposes the possibility of action to achieve it; action presupposes a goal which is worth achieving."-Ayn Rand

You've got to WANT it!

"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out"- Robert Collier

Lastly, I have relearned that: 'the SECOND bite tastes the same' (thanks Pamela from WA) It's really working.

I joined SparkPages in 2007 & was honored to become a Spark's Motivational Member on 8-5-10. Thanks to all my Spark friends who helped make that happen. Wow! I'm overwhelmed by all the support & appreciation. Thanks!

Thanks for the goodies & comments for my being the Motivator of the Day on 5-18-11. What a pleasant surprise, Motivator of the Day again on 9-18-2011!

Sending good thoughts & prayers to all my Spark friends. Injoy:) Carolyn

Don't forget that the scale doesn't always tell the whole story. Have you measured yourself lately??? You may just be amazed at what you discover!

I hope you can keep your flame burning high to reach your designated goals.

Remember when all else fails, persistence prevails!

I accept that I can take the time I need & I can DO IT RIGHT! Focus on HEALTH! Take time to be patient, kind & gentle with my progress.

"The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible". Arthur C. Clarke

"Don't count the steps you've missed, count the steps
you've made." Unknown

"The Six W's: Work will win when wishing won't." - Todd Blackledge

"Life is managed; it is not cured." Learn to take charge of your life and hold on. This is a long ride, and you are the driver every single day." ~ Dr. Phil McGraw

This is a gentle reminder to put myself in the driver seat!

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye." ~ Miss Piggy

Miss Piggy ROCKS!

"I'm not where I need to be but thank God I'm not where I used to be. I'm o.k. and I'm on my way!" - Joyce Meyer

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." - Maria Robinson

"The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination." - Tommy Lasorda

"We can only be said to be alive in those moments when our hearts are conscious of our treasures." - Thornton Wilder

"Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself." - Coco Chanel

I keep an attitude of gratitude daily! I write things for which I'm grateful & store them in my 'gratitude' jar.

I have had six surgeries on my left knee and have 16 inches of titanium above and below my artificial knee. I'm blessed to have a semi-functioning leg. One doctor told me I'd be required to have an amputation when I had the bone infection. I'm so grateful I got a second opinion and found a great orthopedic surgeon and infectious disease specialist. I had bi-lateral total knee replacement years ago and am working to recover strength and full range of motion. I get frustrated because I cannot kneel, or do standard lunges. I have to modify any and all quad exercises. I'm taking it easy with the commitment to the "wall sit" program.

I had bi-lateral rotator cuff repair with a second surgery on my right shoulder a year after. I have to 'baby my shoulders' or I cannot use my arms for a week. I'm continuing too learn the balance of what is 'just enough' and what is 'too much' when using weights, doing push-ups, carrying grocery bags or any other arm/shoulder workout. When I use dance as my aerobic activity if I 'flail' my arms about, I sometimes have to ice my shoulders so I can still have functioning arms the next day.

I have Systemic Lupus which can be debilitating. I look healthy but can be waylaid by excruciating fatigue where I can barely walk or sit up.

"Lupus is a systemic autoimmune disease that occurs when your body's immune system attacks your own tissues and organs. Inflammation caused by lupus can affect many different body systems — including your joints, skin, kidneys, blood cells, brain, heart and lungs. No two cases of lupus are exactly alike. Signs and symptoms may come on suddenly or develop slowly, may be mild or severe, and may be temporary or permanent. Most people with lupus have mild disease characterized by episodes — called flares — when signs and symptoms get worse for a while, then improve or even disappear completely for a time.

The signs and symptoms of lupus that you experience will depend on which body systems are affected by the disease. The most common signs and symptoms include:

Joint pain, stiffness and swelling
Butterfly-shaped rash on the face that covers the cheeks and bridge of the nose or rashes elsewhere on the body
Skin lesions that appear or worsen with sun exposure (photosensitivity)
Fingers and toes that turn white or blue when exposed to cold or during stressful periods (Raynaud's phenomenon)
Shortness of breath
Chest pain
Dry eyes
Headaches, confusion and memory loss"
The above-quote information is from the Mayo Clinic.

In addition, I have CRPS (Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome) formerly called Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy (RSD) which causes an inordinate amount of pain in different parts of my body. For years I was on long-acting morphine or fentanyl patches and could barely function because of the side effects. I was able to get off all the drugs that are used for pain after a few years. That means that daily I deal with indescribable pain that requires tooth gritting determination to function.

"Complex regional pain syndrome (CRPS), also called reflex sympathetic dystrophy syndrome, is a chronic pain condition in which high levels of nerve impulses are sent to an affected site. Experts believe that CRPS occurs as a result of dysfunction in the central or peripheral nervous systems. There is no cure for CRPS."


I was bed-ridden for a couple of years following the time of my last knee replacment. My body got very deconditioned and I'm repairing that now. I went twelve weeks WITHOUT a knee and on intravenous antibiotics. I was in a nursing home for a month to help during that recovery period. I was lucky to escape there alive. I use a rolling walker with a seat so when I walk I can rest, if necessary.

This might sound a little like a pity party. It isn't. It is simply recognizing that limitations do exist that can be difficult at times. That being said, I will overcome!

“To hell with circumstances. I create opportunities.” – Bruce Lee

In January 2006 I weighed 406 pounds. In April of 2006 I joined TOPS. In September 2008 I weighed 260 pounds. In June of 2010 I weighed 364. In November of 2017 I weighed 460. You can see the pattern where I gained more than I had lost. That is not an uncommon thing.

I re-lit my incentive spark in November of last year. I had sadly given up and allowed myself to be immobilized by circumstances, health issues, depression and eating more and more was a vicious cycle.

I ate, got depressed and ate more. I stayed home ALL the time, wouldn't talk on the phone, go to church or reach outside of myself for anything or anyone. I imprisoned myself in my dark bedroom, read and ate. It was a totally MISERABLE time that lasted far too long.

I had moved from WA to AZ in November 2008 leaving behind my daughter, son & grandchildren, my church parish & all my TOPS friends. I was lonely and grieving but unwilling (or unable) to reach outside myself to make a change.

When I came to the realization that I had regained ALMOST all the weight I lost, I felt overwhelmed & discouraged beyond measurement.

I wrote a poem the first time in 2006 when I was ready to change my life:

dye-it for the morbidly obese

staggered under a critical wave
of apprehension or sorrow
others bursting with life
while she was stuffed by an
urge of self destruction.

heavy duty recognition skirted around
the edges of consciousness
growth was long, arduous and frustrating.
exercising control of something large
and wild with the strength of her will
untamed, undomesticated.

clinging to restraint and milestones
or brief moments of joy.
something intangible but
indisputably repulsive lurks.

exercising a tight collar of discipline
was the last thing she needed
the small walled-off place which
was an independent mind spoke:

my ears are bad:
something said can't.

copyright 2006 carolyn injoy

Please visit my Facebook page: Joy is a choice! Choose joy moment by moment. Here's the link:

Member Since: 12/28/2009

My Goals:
Keep what works, eliminate what doesn't!

get off couch with rocking to do it, get into truck without shortness of breath, not worrying about chairs with arms & whether I'll fit or being sturdy enough to hold my weight, walking without canes or rolling walker & without gasping for breath, liking my reflection in the mirror or images in photographs, feeling good wearing clothes that fit comfortably.

Learning to measure successful behaviors, not numbers right now. i.e. keeping daily food log on my laptop.

My Program:
Moderation in all things. Use Spark Nutritional & Exercise logging tools. Drink plenty of H20 daily, take daily prescriptions & vitamins, stretch when I wake up & before & after exercise, apply lotion to my skin regularly. Ride my exercycle at least one time a week. Pilates three times a week.

Give myself small non food rewards for following through on weekly commitment.

Treat myself lovingly & be mindful in all my actions.

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Learning to love myself as I proceed on this journey toward my new ending.

I'm counting the steps I've made, not the steps I've missed.

I am learning to increase my SPARK & help ignite other Spark friends.

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Today is the day the Lord has made, rejoice & be glad in it.

"Two men look out the same prison bars; one sees mud and the other stars."- Frederick Langbridge

"Everyone has his burden. What counts is how you carry it." -Merle Miller

"Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together." -Vincent van Gogh

"Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face."~ Victor Hugo

"Close your eyes & imagine the best version of you possible. That's who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn't believe it."-C. Assaad

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    Thank you for the sweet comments and support on my blog and wall. I appreciate you.

    I have a lot of fun with Slightly Off the Wall--it sure is a great place to let our hair down.

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    You have one chance at this beautiful life! Don’t let it slip away with woulda, shoulda, coulda’s. Start TODAY! Dream big! Encourage on another! Love! Laugh! Be fearless. Be beautiful!
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    Never a question "Can you?", it's always a question "Will you?"

    5 hours ago
    Hi, wow, 4 teeth! I hope you feel better soon, I'm not envious of that. You are a fighter and a winner and you will do just great! Praying that the pain isn't to extreme for you. Have a great night my friend!!
    6 hours ago
    Goodmorning my friend. Thank you so much for your kind words and caring thoughts. I really appreciate them. How are you doing? Are you following any kind of plan? Once again thank you so much for reaching out!! Have a great day
    20 hours ago
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    Just as the birds are given what they need, live your life knowing that abundance is already yours. Gail Lynne Goodwin
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