Ha! Resistance to change is a defect in mine as well. I hate hate hate hate hate it! And then I get used to it (like six months later) and then I'm like, okay, that wasn't so bad! ;)
I went for a run today. And started writing down my food choices again. I'm frightened of failing too. But I honestly don't know that I can do that to myself --- I think the biggest thing I'm afraid of is if I fail, I might be like "screw it" and go down the rabbit hole and come out 200 lbs heavier. I know that sounds joky but I swear, I think I'm on the edge.
BUT... I'm not going to fail. Small choices, over time. I know you can do this too.
You and I --- we're struggling too much to find our places.
We gotta CARVE it out ourselves. I know how hard it is - I'm struggling too. I love that you have a restart date for yourself. I am here alone for the holidays so I'm going to try hard with my "free time" off work to find a spot for myself. Going to try to carve that time for exercise.
I hope you're doing okay. I am thinking about you on this journey.
Sounds exhausting - I hope you are taking care of yourself as well. You are so sweet and caring to do so much for the people in your life.
It is Friday, and it's so easy for me to talk myself out of working out. Gotta stay motivated when off of work, on a Friday!, which is tough. I hope you get to your Turbo DVD!!! I'll check in with you tomorrow and see how it's going :)
WHEW girl, sounds like you've had some life changes of your own.
I'm so, so sorry to hear about Ashley and Fluffy. My heart hurts for you and your family -- it's so hard to lose a pet.
And a wedding! And a move! And being a caregiver to your dad! My goodness. I would have stress ate myself out of house and home (and my pants!).
I'm so glad to be back too - I hope we can motivate each other again :)
What's your plan today? Going to get a nice brisk cool walk in today? I am at work now, but am hoping to motivate myself for a short run after work.... I'm holding myself accountable. Hope you're able to get out there!!