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Well, Three weeks in and I feel for the first time in my life I will be making changes in my lifestyle to a healthier one. I am motivated to continue. I know I could not do this on my own. I have my sister, we are encouraging each other to stay motivated, think that is a big difference from the past, & I so appreciate everything she does for me, she is a great support. Also having the tools from Sparkpeople has been part of my firm foundation in this change. I soo appreciate the support, the tools, the inspiration stories, (congrats to all, Great Job!) & the tons of information. I did my motivation page, I was suppose to do it with my sister (&I apologize) but I don't think it would have been the same experience (it would have been fun though), due to the fact that it was a process that I reached deep down in myself to see why I was really making changes in my life. From the start it was because of my health, having high blood pressure and just losing my Mom whose health was terriable & weight & wrong eating was a big contribution to it. I would like to get off my BP pills. Then there is my self confidence that I want, I want to help myself emotionally also & I feel this is the right step. I want to be able to look in the mirror and not cringe & hate the person staring back at me. I want to have a positive image of myself & I know it is more than losing weight, it is a process emotionally too. I want to be able do more with my daughter, she loves tennis, & I want to be there for her, she is growing so fast,today I felt the pain of a child becoming independent, don't like it at all, especially when you are a single parent. Also with the confidence I want to accomplish the two personal goals I really want to do which I feel that weight has put a halt on it & they are belly dancing & horseback riding. These are two activities that I will award myself with. With all this weight lost & confidence gain I hope to find love, with a new love for myself then I will be able to share the love. I'm a firm believer you can't love someone or give yourself to someone unless you can love & do for yourself. I started out today feeling sad, & lost. After doing my Motivation page and listen to some good ole Motown it has helped me with dealing with my feelings. You know that shows that sometimes the best company is yourself. I look forward to getting to know & appreciate who I am.:)
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Please Give Me the Push......Help!
Don't Know what to add, just thoroughly disgusted with myself. I don't seem to care anymore. I don't want to get on the scale due to I'm too scared to face the big number that would look back at me & become a nightmare, start stressing more than turn to food. It's not even about looks anymore, I am so tired of feeling sick or not abled to do something or have a hard time doing a simple task like clip my toe nails. I am at a point of sink or swim. I tried Sparks before and never ever commited myself to it, maybe this time I will be more commited to myself, my health. Only time will tell.
| Pounds lost: 16.0