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"A solitary maiden, whose only friends were birds and flowers; and her companions- books."

"I drink to remember, I smoke to forget
Some things to be proud of some stuff to regret
Run down some dark alleys in my own head
Something is changing, changing, changing

So I kiss goodbye to every little ounce of pain
Light a cigarette and wish the world away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay
So I hold two fingers up to yesterday
Light a cigarette and smoke it all away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here ...
"I drink to remember, I smoke to forget
Some things to be proud of some stuff to regret
Run down some dark alleys in my own head
Something is changing, changing, changing

So I kiss goodbye to every little ounce of pain
Light a cigarette and wish the world away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay
So I hold two fingers up to yesterday
Light a cigarette and smoke it all away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay

There's a story for every corner of this place
Running so hard you got out but your knees got grazed
I'm an old dog but I learned some new tricks yeah

Hey, hey it's fine
Hey, hey it's fine
Hey, hey it's fine
I left it behind!"

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Oh my friends, where I(t) start and where do I(t) finish?
I'm constantly on the road to make amends. I'm facing my demons one scary sh!t at a time... I wish I got out whole from the fight; I wish there's a self to be found.

My life just can't be about my weight- there's a zillion more things to who I am.

Where I've been: Morbidly obese (BMI:49.5)
Where I am: Overweight (BMI: 30)
Where I'm going: Destination Joanness

Life in numbers: 21 years

I'm Joanna and I'm trying.
Let's see where that'll take me.

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Love you all and love you deeply.



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Member Since: 6/7/2011

SparkPoints: 52,599

Fitness Minutes: 24,814

My Goals:
Goal No1: Become overweight for real: 105 kgs
Reached in Dec 9 2013

Goal No 2: See a 2-digit number on scale: 100 kgs
Reached in March 19 2014

Goal No3: 99 kgs :p
Reached in April (17/4 98.5)

Goal No4: Become overweight in numbers: 95 kgs. Reached in November (28/11 95.2)

Goal No5: Reach 85 kgs.
Goal No6: Reach 80 kgs Wonderland (haven't been there since I was 8 years old-and shorter :D)
Goal Weight: Reach 75 kgs WOWland and see if it's a comfortable and maintainable weight for my kicka$$ body!!! :D :D :D

My Program:
Passionate vegan, for all the right reasons.

Green salads, fruits, whole foods.
Little dessert treats only when I r e a l l y want them.
Yoga instead of strength training because I can really feel my body working hard then; plus it's much more enjoyable :D :D :D
Walk, walk, walk and then walk more. :D
Ballet, contemporary and classical and maybe hitting the gym strictly for some more strength training.
Last but not least: Re-create my mindset towards food and eating.

Other Information:
Things to try as I get thinner (or trying to get thinner ;D) : ballet, yoga, pilates, yogilates, contemporary ballet, running, biking, contortionist performance, archery, fencing horse riding, loose sweaters, skirts, dresses, shorts, skinny jeans, high-waisted shorts, long boots,bralets, rings, waistcoats, wandering around with my bathingsuit in the beach, without feeling I have to cover myself...


You're welcome to give more motivational ideas!!! :D

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LUMYRAINSTAR
1/19/2015 7:09:43 AM

Them. They do not currently have an endo that works with them. Getting blood drawn. Checking for cushings. If negative I have to get a mri.check for multiple sclerosis.



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LUMYRAINSTAR
1/19/2015 7:07:42 AM

Thank you so much for replying to my intro post. I don't think you're weird. Its nice to see that I am not alone. The reason I have not seen an endo is bc I do not have insurance. I go through a free non profit clinic who gets services donated to



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ROSALIEESTHER
1/11/2015 6:28:34 PM

Thank you so much for the warm welcome to being the new McDougall leader. Please feel free to start threads whenever you want and please let me know if there is anything that I can do to help you on your road to Paradise Health!

By the way, Kim, aka DS9KIE, has been gracious enough to join me as co-leader. We'll announce it as soon as it's official!

Have added you as a friend. Thanks again. Rosalie



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IYA_EKUNDAYO
1/10/2015 7:57:46 PM


Just wanted to pass by to say hello, wish you a happy New Year.
I hope you are doing well.
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NATURALLYME126
1/1/2015 10:46:52 PM

Happy New Year!



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