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"A solitary maiden, whose only friends were birds and flowers; and her companions- books."

"I drink to remember, I smoke to forget
Some things to be proud of some stuff to regret
Run down some dark alleys in my own head
Something is changing, changing, changing

So I kiss goodbye to every little ounce of pain
Light a cigarette and wish the world away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay
So I hold two fingers up to yesterday
Light a cigarette and smoke it all away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here ...
"I drink to remember, I smoke to forget
Some things to be proud of some stuff to regret
Run down some dark alleys in my own head
Something is changing, changing, changing

So I kiss goodbye to every little ounce of pain
Light a cigarette and wish the world away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay
So I hold two fingers up to yesterday
Light a cigarette and smoke it all away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay

There's a story for every corner of this place
Running so hard you got out but your knees got grazed
I'm an old dog but I learned some new tricks yeah

Hey, hey it's fine
Hey, hey it's fine
Hey, hey it's fine
I left it behind!"

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Oh my friends, where I(t) start and where do I(t) finish?
I'm constantly on the road to make amends. I'm facing my demons one scary sh!t at a time... I wish I got out whole from the fight; I wish there's a self to be found.

My life just can't be about my weight- there's a zillion more things to who I am.

Where I've been: Morbidly obese (BMI:49.5)
Where I am: Overweight (BMI: 30)
Where I'm going: Destination Joanness

Life in numbers: 21 years

I'm Joanna and I'm trying.
Let's see where that'll take me.

Note: See that "Add as Sparkfriend" Button on your right? Please make the while to click on it. I already feel close to you, who knows why. xD

Love you all and love you deeply.



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Member Since: 6/7/2011

SparkPoints: 58,325

Fitness Minutes: 27,714

My Goals:
Goal No1: Become overweight for real: 105 kgs
Reached in Dec 9 2013

Goal No 2: See a 2-digit number on scale: 100 kgs
Reached in March 19 2014

Goal No3: 99 kgs :p
Reached in April (17/4 98.5)

Goal No4: Become overweight in numbers: 95 kgs. Reached in November (28/11 95.2)

Goal No5: Reach 85 kgs.
Goal No6: Reach 80 kgs Wonderland (haven't been there since I was 8 years old-and shorter :D)
Goal Weight: Reach 75 kgs WOWland and see if it's a comfortable and maintainable weight for my kicka$$ body!!! :D :D :D

My Program:
Passionate vegan, for all the right reasons.

Green salads, fruits, whole foods.
Little dessert treats only when I r e a l l y want them.
Yoga instead of strength training because I can really feel my body working hard then; plus it's much more enjoyable :D :D :D
Walk, walk, walk and then walk more. :D
Ballet, contemporary and classical and maybe hitting the gym strictly for some more strength training.
Last but not least: Re-create my mindset towards food and eating.

Other Information:
Things to try as I get thinner (or trying to get thinner ;D) : ballet, yoga, pilates, yogilates, contemporary ballet, running, biking, contortionist performance, archery, fencing horse riding, loose sweaters, skirts, dresses, shorts, skinny jeans, high-waisted shorts, long boots,bralets, rings, waistcoats, wandering around with my bathingsuit in the beach, without feeling I have to cover myself...


You're welcome to give more motivational ideas!!! :D

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SYLPHINPROGRESS
4/20/2015 10:39:57 AM

"sh*theaded stupid motherf7cking b@st@rd"

That is the brilliant, says-it-all cherry on top of your lovely, wise, clear-headed, warm note to our teammate who was so moronically mistreated at the gym.

You rock. emoticon Knock 'em out. Take no guff.

Laurie





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SALAM4545
3/15/2015 3:42:06 AM

Just wanted to stop by and say hello! emoticon



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JDFAN448HS
3/8/2015 10:35:35 PM

emoticon emoticon emoticon HAVE AN AWESOME YEAR!



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MONTANAWALKER
2/10/2015 3:58:37 PM

☆..♥ THE SECRET TO SUCCESS ☆..♥♥

S smile at yourself
E encourage those around you and you will be encouraged
C celebrate your life every day.
R relax the criticism of yourself. You are beautiful and do not forget it!
E enjoy every minute of your life and make the most of it.
T treat yourself better. Take time for you!

Let's meet or exceed our February aspirations!

**HAPPY*VALENTINES*DAY**
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*I copied this from a comment on my Spark Page from the wonderful 1HAPPYSPIRIT. Sharing it with those of you not lucky enough to be on her mailing list!!





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NEVERORNOW
2/9/2015 9:28:20 PM

emoticon Happy belated birthday, Done Girl!! I hope it was awesome!

Karen



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