Cynthia, I lost my mother last year. She had lived with us for 11 years and we had to watch her succumb to bowel cancer. Thus I can really empathise with what you are going through right now. Time is a healer and you will get over this but you will never forget. Next week I am taking our church service and my theme is the journey to God. One of the readings is the whole of Revelation 21, and no doubt you will be familiar with it. Now your mother is with God and in the new heaven and on the new earth. As with my mother and years ago, my father, we can, a least, be thankful for that. God bless you Cynthia..