The wake up picture: June 16, 2010 - Me at 281 lbs. holding my granddaughter Leigha Marie.
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HELLO LIFE! DO YOU REMEMBER ME?
My story is a familiar one. I gained a lot of weight during my two pregnancies, losing the weight after the first but unable to lose it after the second one. I tried many diets, lost of few pounds, got bored quickly and gave up. I would regain the weight lost and pack on more pounds until the next diet would come along. Little by little I lost interest in dieting altogether. What was the point? They didn’t work for me and I didn’t work for them! I started isolating myself as I grew ...
My story is a familiar one. I gained a lot of weight during my two pregnancies, losing the weight after the first but unable to lose it after the second one. I tried many diets, lost of few pounds, got bored quickly and gave up. I would regain the weight lost and pack on more pounds until the next diet would come along. Little by little I lost interest in dieting altogether. What was the point? They didn’t work for me and I didn’t work for them! I started isolating myself as I grew bigger, finding any type of excuse to get out of parties, BBQs, reunions (especially reunions,) etc. I let life happened around me and I wasn’t participating.
I retired in the summer 2008 and my lifestyle became more sedentary than ever before. I spent last winter on the couch watching TV, always munching on something and I gained a lot of weight; I could see it and I could feel it. I was too big and too tired to move and I got sick of it! I asked myself, “Is that how it is going to be until I die? How long will I live if I stay this way?” I didn't want to spend the rest of my life wishing I was someone else, someone who looks good and fit, someone glowing with self-confidence, someone who enjoys shopping for new clothes instead of leaving stores holding back tears, disgusted and depressed. I didn't want to be the fattest lady in the building anymore – not that I ever wanted to be! And I wanted to be able to play with my grandchildren, chase them around, roll on the grass, play games on the floor; but that was out because I couldn’t get off the floor on my own.
With this in my head, I saw an ad for SlimBand and inquired about it. As it turned out, it would cost me $16K to have that surgery and it is not covered by our health plan because that surgery is reversible. That's too dear for my purse so that was out. I didn't like to idea of going back to WW. I've done that so many times in the past and never lasted more than a month or two.
A couple of days after her birth, DH and I met our new granddaughter. She was so very beautiful! Looking very much like her big brother but already displaying diva qualities (oh dear!) It was a hot day and the sweat was pouring off my head and face (that had been a problem for the last six months... wonder why!) Of course, pictures were taken. It's when I saw those pictures afterward that I had my "Ah-ha" moment (actually, it was more like a "Oh-oh" moment.) I couldn't believe how puffy I was all over! That was it! Time for action has arrived! For much too long my size has been stopping me from enjoying life. I have to make some changes and make them in a hurry. It is time to get my life back…FINALLY!
I made an appointment with my GP for a check up. I fully intended to beg her to recommend me for gastric by-pass surgery. I had rehearsed my speech quite well. When I got there, she put me on the scale and, as I suspected, I had gained another 20 lbs, actually it was 21 lbs, since January 2010. Once in the office, I started giving her my little schpeal but, incredibly, I changed my mind about the surgery at the very last moment. Completely astonished, I heard myself telling her that I wanted to give it one more try; I wanted to do it on my own. (What the heck! What’s wrong with me? She was starting to come around!) I don't know why I felt so strongly about it considering I failed so many times before but I couldn’t get out of her office fast enough and ‘get cracking’. On my way home, I stopped by the Dollar Store and picked up a spiral notebook to be used as a food diary, got home, took my measurements, threw away my favorite jujubes and started looking at what I can prepare for dinner, one for DH and a diet one for me. I was on my way!
A few days later, a friend of mine from work phoned to bring me up to speed on news since I retired. She had had the gastric by-pass three weeks before and had no regrets considering her health issues. Then I told her about me incredibly telling my GP that I was not yet ready for such a step and that I started dieting – again – on my own. That’s when she told me about SparkPeople. Her own surgeon told her to check it out, so I figured it must be OK. I went on the internet as soon as my friend hung up and what a surprise! I found the total package, all of it free! I signed up that day. Thank you to the wonderful team of people who have thought of putting this program together and of offering it free for anyone looking for a lifeline.
August 2010: I started slowly by making some changes to my daily routine, i.e. drinking water and journalling every day. The journal is the best eye opener ever; it doesn’t take long before you think twice about putting food in your mouth. Then I added the exercises. That was the biggest change for me. You see, I didn't think I could move as I was riddled with aches and pains in my lower body. But I started by using some of the exercises shown under the Fitness tab and modified them enough that I could do them, even if it meant lifting my leg only one inch from the floor. Then I started walking but had to give that up because of a bad case of heel spurs. Instead, I turned to my old rusty stationary bike for cardio exercises. It’s so old I had to put oil on the chain to get it moving but I like that the handles move as you use the pedals; this way, you get an upper body workout as well. I'm doing much better now compared to when I started but I wouldn't make my own fitness video just yet (kidding!)
I have a long way to go before reaching my final goal. I originally intended to lose 131 lbs by Xmas 2011; that would bring me down to a reasonable 150 lbs. However, I lose rather slowly and I must re-evaluate my deadline. After reading some of the material about goal setting, I learned that it is better to divide long-term goals into smaller, more achievable short-term ones. Experts tell us to try losing 10% of body weight at a time; this way, chances that I will meet those targets are much improved. At this point, I don’t really care what they say. If I miss my deadline, so be it! And boy! Did I miss my deadlineS...
After a few months on SP, I lost 40 lbs. At about XMas time, I started to stall, regardless of keeping my journal, exercising and changing my routines, I had been losing and gaining the same 4-5 pounds and this had been going on for over three months. I kept putting blogs out to encourage others while I was feeling so discouraged myself; and soon, I felt like a fraud. I needed a break from all of this. It was taking a lot of my time and I didn't get the will to commit any longer. Finally, late in the spring 2011, my plantar fasciitis and back problems returned at the same time, and that, my friends, was for me what they call "the straw that broke the camel's back". Deflated (spiritually and emotionally), I let it go. BIG MISTAKE! Gradually, I gained the weight back, all but 3 lbs!!! All this hard work, all the successes, gone. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????
May 2013: Back to the starting line, feeling lousy, uncomfortable, ugly, etc., etc., I decide to try Weight Watchers again after talking to a few friends who have got good results with the new program. So, here I am again, trying to get my eating normalized (note I didn't say "diet" or "lifestyle change") and slowly getting back to exercising. I also decided to get back to Sparking... a little. The fitness program here is so versatile that I rely on it for my favorite routines.
Feb 2014: It's a hard time of the year for me as I tend to give up gradually. I've lost 35 lbs since last may and I've been 'coasting' since December. Unfortunately, I've miss a few WW meetings because of the weather and I feel frustrated because this is when I need support most. But still, I hope I can break the cycle this year and get my 'mojo' back soon.
I will continue on my course, make whatever adjustments I need to make to lose those 131 lbs. I look forward to the next goal of 227.6. Slowly but surely. I will reach my goal whenever but I will reach it, and you, beautiful SPARKERS, will help me along the way.
Ever so grateful, Diane : )
| current weight: 245.8
Member Since: 7/29/2010
Fitness Minutes: 25,218
Losing 131 lbs.
Weight Date achieved
252.9 lbs: 14 XI 2010
Staying real - life happens no matter what.
Following SP program:
-Drink 8 glasses water/day
-Food tracking daily
-Exercise 3 times/wk
-Cardio 5 times/wk
-Educate yourself continuously
-Seek support when needed
-Give support when needed
I am 60, retired, married, 2 boys, 2 grandchildren.
“There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results.”
Favorite movies: -Shawshank Redemption.
-It's a Wonderful Life.