Hi Everyone. I've been battling my weight since I was a little girl. After succeeding and failing with weight loss, it ends THIS YEAR, will be MY YEAR! For quite some time, I've been very miserable with myself. I feel like an outsider sometimes. But that's just all in my head. It's time to win this battle. I'll be happy with myself overall. I've learned that if you TRULY want something or have a goal in mind, you SET YOUR MIND to it and GO FOR IT! Other goals I can set, I can reach them, but weight loss goals, that's another story. I've had enough of this. I WILL lose this weight. I want to be more than just the pretty face.
The day I realized I needed to change my old habits and form new ones, was ceremony night, at my graduation. The last thing I remember doing that day, was taking pictures, laughing and sharing good times with friends whom I'd never see again and so fourth. But those good times, soon turned bad, when I saw the video tape of my graduation and pictures that family and friends took. When I saw that video tape and all those pictures, I thought to myself, "I look like one huge blueberry!". Of course I couldn't say that out loud! It was a day to remember. So, as always, I just smiled and laughed it off, saying, "You'll have pictures to remember us by". That night, I was in my room crying because I couldn't and didn't want to believe I let myself go. That was the night things changed.
I never counted calories a day in my life. I was the person that ate everything in site, ate what I wanted, when I wanted. There were times where I would wake up at 3am in the morning "scruffing" down a package of Chips Ahoy! or drinking a liter of soda. Fast Forward to now. Since being here on SparkPeople, I've learned so many incredible and intresting things about health and overall happiness. Growing up, I was often teased because of my weight, as a result, I was uphappy with myself. I didn't have any friends. Food was my friend. When I was little, My family would often say, "Oh, honey, one plate is enough". I was always in denial about myself. I knew I had a weight problem, but it really didn't hit me until, I had trouble walking up the stairs. My feet were always swelling and burning. Chest pains every now and then. I'm just tired of all this.
Now, since being on SP, I've learned the necessary steps in order to be healthy.
I've gained the tools needed to have a healthy lifestyle. I've met wonderful people here on SP, who are/were in my footsteps. I'm not alone on this. Yes, I'm still 300+ pounds. But with help from SP, confidence and determination in myself, and postive thoughts, I can become the person I've dreamed of becoming. I don't want to be unhappy anymore. I'm not setting any type of goal range(yet). For now, I just want to have a healthier life. Because, I know for starters, that even the simplest changes like cutting out soda, drinking more water, going out for a 10 min walk, those things, can make a HUGE impact on your journey. So I say to everyone....."Be the best you can be, live your life in happiness".
I come from a long line of people in family, through out a list of generations, you have High Blood Pressure, Diabetes, etc. I want to lose weight not just for myself, but for my family as well. I would like to set an example for my family and tell them, "Hey look, I did it! I can do it, so can you!" My Mother means to world to me and I would do anything for her. In order for her to change, I need to change.
We are all in this together!
We LEARN about ourselves when we try new things.
We LAUGH when times are sad.
We LIVE everyday like it's our last.
Update-5/26/2011.....I joined to DONE team earlier this week and upon joining I wrote some things down in my journal that I'm offically DONE with. So I thought I'd put them down onto my SparkPage as well. OK.....
~ being the FAT girl
~ being uncomfortable in my clothes AND not being able to shop
~ letting food control my life
~ being hard and down on myself
~ procrastinating! Just DO IT already!
~ putting others before myself, (of course I will put my Mother first BEFORE ANYTHING including myself)
~ being sorry for myself
~ I'm just DONE once and for all!
1)To be more Happy
2)Lose the weight!
3)Cut out all junk food and drink MORE water! (Done! 100th day on 6/18/13)
4)Eat more fruits and vegetables
5)Cut out late night eating (Done)
6)To live a healthier life
7)Inspire my family to make healthier choices
8) Quit Procrastinating(Just Do It!) (Done)
9) Get out of the 300s(short term)
10) To be around 120-125lbs (long term and recommend weight)
11) To able to play sports
12) Cut out fast food
Just healthy eating and exercise.
~I'm a bookworm/geek! I love to read.
~Love music & writing.
~I love to expand my mind and horizons and let my mind wander in imagination.
~I love the smell of apples, cinnamon and spices in the Autumn Season, the holiday season approaching ahh! Makes me happy and relaxed!
~I also love Theatre.
~I like Video/Computer Games.
~I've played the clarinet since I was 11. I would like to play Piano, and Guitar.
~Huge Sports Fan!(I love all sports but I mostly like Football, Basketball, Baseball and Volleyball!)
| current weight: 316.0