I just wanted to let you know I read your post on the message board "does it get easier with time?" and had to come and check out your page. I don't know what kind of support system you have in your life, but I strongly encourage you to call on them if you can. Get someone you trust to watch your kids, and try to take some time out - even just 20 minutes - every day for YOURSELF. You deserve it, and you will be a better mom for doing it! Trust me. I have 3 little ones, and I was a major stress monkey until I started taking care of myself. Now I'm happy and much more tolerant of the stresses that go along with being a mom. What you do for yourself is entirely up to you, but make sure it's something healthy - like going for a walk or taking a shower. You need to love yourself to succeed, and you ARE loveable!
Hang in there. Keep posting. Keep asking for help. It will get easier!