The day of our marital covenant, March 21st, 2010
Shared Food Tracker
My name is Buffy, and I joined spark to get assistance in developing healthy eating and living habits that will potentially lead to weight loss and a more healthier, confident me.
All my life I've struggled with obesity. Since I was a small child I've gone through ridicule from family and peers about my weight. This eventually led into poor self image, low confidence, and whatever else follows a young girl who doesn't know or love herself for who she is instead of what the world demands her to be. This I've sunk deep in for years occasionally reaching the surface for a breath of air before receding back to the depths. And don't get the idea I'm some "sad fat girl," this was more of an internal struggle.
Time to overcome...admit my flaws, accept the past and what I cannot change....everything said and done in response...grasp what I can change (through God's power and love), and not let the way I look determine my feelings and image of myself. No more excuses, moaning, groaning, blaming, or feeling sorry for myself....taking responsibilty, believing in myself that I CAN DO THIS.
Now, a college grad, newlywed, loving my job, and preparing for gradschool, I know God has a purpose for my life...and drives me even more to want to make wise choices about my health so I may please him and be there longer for my family.
I'm doing this for me, my God, my family, my friends, and for everyone who's ever said over and over..."i just can't do it."
So that's me in a longer than brief intro...feel free to add me as a friend...I'm looking give and receive encouragement, motivation, or just a bit o' love in a life today.
~Lose 50lbs by July
~Gain more confidence and self-outlook
~Evaluate before eating if I'm actually hungry or craving
~Not letting myself become too full or ravenously hungry
~Consider the after effects of the foods I choose leading me to make healthier choices
~Drink more water
Loves- Jesus, my husband, my fam/friends, history, religion, theology, different cultures, missions, cooking, entertaining, purple, and just being me!
| current weight: 335.0
Saw you tracked some fitness minutes in 2016.
Hope to see more of that!
149 days ago
Welcome thanks for the add
822 days ago
Great blog! Thanks for sharing. Yes and no are quite the battle when trying to become healthy! May God bless your journey!
837 days ago
Thank you Buffy for sharing your insight with us. Its right on ! I will be praying on this new way of observing what I put in my mouth & why. My deepest prayer is Lord, make me into the person you created me to be.
Thanks again for sharing.
838 days ago
I just read your info about your self here on your Spark Page. As I said about your blog, I could have written that as well.
I am so very happy to see you dealing with these issues at a young age.
I am 64 years old, and I began dealing with them over 6 years ago. The longer you have the bad habit, the easier it is to fall back into it.
I am glad that you see that your self esteem is all important. Treat yourself well, when you listen for, and hear those negative thoughts you have carried around with you, take them out, examine them, and realize that they are really lies, untruths.
You deserve to be happy and healthy. I began this journey at 333 pounds. I have suffered with a terrible back and bad knees for many years. In Oct of 2011, I had a 6 hour back surgery, and my back is very much better. In Aug last year, I had a total knee replacement of my left knee, and in Oct a total knee on my right knee. I am getting better, and am going to be able to do so much more now that I have had the bad part fixed!
With all of these physical issues, my weight has fluctuated up and down. Right now I am having some trouble, but am getting myself back in the game.
This is one of the reasons I am glad to see you doing this as a younger person. Your thoughts are in a good place. Just remember that you do not have to be perfect, and that you only have to do this, one day at a time. I also say, one small change at a time, sometimes, even one minute at a time.
Good luck on your journey. God Bless
838 days ago