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4/12/14, 260lbs, tulip festival





Words can't really describe how much I hate how I look in this picture. (255lbs)



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Who is this strange, fat version of me?

I'm a 28 year old divorced single mom of a six year old son. I'm trained as a middle and high school English teacher, but in summer 2012 I accepted a position as a social worker with a nonprofit mental health agency and I'm loving it. The HUGE downside? I sit at a desk for 6-8 hours a day, and yet when I get home I feel exhausted, so then I sit at home all evening. And don't go to the gym. And snack mindlessly on whatever I can get my hands on. Ugh....

As of Sept 2014 I was at my ...
I'm a 28 year old divorced single mom of a six year old son. I'm trained as a middle and high school English teacher, but in summer 2012 I accepted a position as a social worker with a nonprofit mental health agency and I'm loving it. The HUGE downside? I sit at a desk for 6-8 hours a day, and yet when I get home I feel exhausted, so then I sit at home all evening. And don't go to the gym. And snack mindlessly on whatever I can get my hands on. Ugh....

As of Sept 2014 I was at my heaviest weight ever, 268-269lbs. Sigh. I look back at photos of myself at 190, 200, 210 pounds and remember how much I wanted to lose weight even then. I am disgusted with my own laziness and lack of self control. My weakness is food. I not only love food for the taste, texture, pleasure and social aspects of it, but I also eat compulsively when I'm bored, sad, and sometimes for seemingly no reason at all. I've come to mistrust myself. I told myself I'd never get to 200lbs, and then I did. Then I told myself I wouldn't get over 220, and then I did...and so on and so forth.

This is not the story I want to live. It's time for action. Time for hope. Time for kicking my own ass.

Thinking about the huge amount I need to lose feels scary, but a "10lbs at a time" mindset makes me feel less anxious....so here I go, focusing on the pennies and hoping the dollars will take care of themselves, so to speak.

A history of my weight:
10/15/14: 262-263 (woo, going down!)
9/25/14: 268-269
4/18/14: 260
11/8/13: 250
3/2013: 240ish
8/2012: 235ish
8/2011: 230ish
5/2010: 215ish
6/2008: 215ish
12/2007: 233 (9mo pregnant w/my son)
03/2007: 205 (right before getting pregnant)
05/2006: 190
06/2004: 180ish (at HS graduation, age 17)
06/2002: 175ish (mid-HS, nearly 16, same height I am now)
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Member Since: 1/13/2006

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My Goals:
Learn to manage my compulsive/emotional eating.

Have more energy to play with my son.

Feel like I look sexy. No more feeling like I have to suck in my gut throughout the day. No more cringing at photos taken of me.

Goal by 8/11/15 (29th bday): Under 200!

Goal by 8/11/16 (30th bday!): Under 170!

My Program:
Getting my emotional/addictive eating habits under control is priority #1.

Lots of walking, especially as an excuse to escape my gloomy office and desk at work for 15-20 minutes at a time.

Once I get to about 230lbs I may try the couch to 5k program again. I have found that no matter what shoes I have, surface I run on, and how much stretching/icing/resting I do, I get BAD shin splints when I try to run at higher than 230lbs.

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COUCH2ROAD_LIZ
10/16/2014 2:12:05 PM

Thank you!!

It has been one crazy journey getting to this point. I wish you luck..and you CAN do this!!

If you ever need to chat, message me!

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COUCH2ROAD_LIZ
4/30/2014 9:28:31 AM

You can do this! emoticon



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SKBLOVESCARDS
4/20/2014 8:58:16 PM

Hey! I'm happy to hear that my journey has helped you relate and maybe inspire you a little along the way. Keep your head up and always remember why you are trying to be healthier. The thing that helped me the most was to find a mix of balance and knowing I wasn't going to be perfect.



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ADARKARA
4/18/2014 8:30:15 PM

The small things absoLUTELY count! =)



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CAREN_BLUEJEANS
1/17/2014 2:36:20 PM

Thank you for the nice comment on my photo. Yes, I'm 53! But I was 46 in the photo. and about 12 pounds lighter.



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