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"Fat Ash" no more!

From the title above one might conclude that my name is Ashley. Indeed, this is correct. And while my inner analyst/feminist/intellectual bristled at the scoff-worthy concept of creating a username that sounds much like the ever derogatory “fat ass,” I decided to keep it as is. The truth is, there really is a war waging between what we know and what we feel. Am I over-weight? Yes. I know that. Am I all of the things that the word “fat” has come to stand for (dirty, lazy, ugly, and unlovable)? ...
From the title above one might conclude that my name is Ashley. Indeed, this is correct. And while my inner analyst/feminist/intellectual bristled at the scoff-worthy concept of creating a username that sounds much like the ever derogatory “fat ass,” I decided to keep it as is. The truth is, there really is a war waging between what we know and what we feel. Am I over-weight? Yes. I know that. Am I all of the things that the word “fat” has come to stand for (dirty, lazy, ugly, and unlovable)? No. I know that, too. But unfortunately sometimes I still feel like crap because of what I weigh. So when I say “Fat Ash No More” I mean I want to lose weight, of course, but regain something far more valuable in the process- a new mentality. (Besides, it's also kind of an oxymoron given that no matter how big I get, the butt of my jeans will always be baggy. My fat thinks it needs to take a detour and heads straight for my stomach. My body type is not Apple, nor Pear, nor Hourglass. Alas, it is Marshmallow-On-A-Stick!)

I have weighed 286 pounds, 164 pounds, (and it goes without saying) everything in between. I lost 126, regained 45, and am finally creating a new Spark People profile because I am finding it difficult to quiet the deafening shame fest in my head. I am searching for accepting, optimistic, supportive, and altogether uplifting weight loss friends whose clamor will perhaps be more positive.

Albert Einstein once said, “We can not solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.” My mentality as of late has been rather backwards. I keep telling myself I will approve of myself when I get “there,” wherever the hell “there” is. In reality, I will continue to go nowhere (and possibly even go backwards) until I give myself some of that unconditional love stuff. Needless to say, Mr. Einstein would be mortified.

So no more compulsive overeating, fat-shaming, and self-doubting and/or loathing. It’s depressing and unproductive. Sooooo let the body acceptance, health, and blogging begin. :)
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Member Since: 6/8/2013

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My Goals:
High Weight: 286 lbs.
Low Weight: 164 lbs.

8 Week Weight Loss Challenge has begun!

Start Date: 05/28/14
End Date: 07/23/14

Week 1: 234 lbs.
Week 2: 224.8 lbs.
Week 3: 223.2 lbs.
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My Program:
-Get 6 - 8 hours of sleep/night
-Drink 8+ glasses of water on a daily basis
-Eat approx. 1500 calories a day
-Prepare meals at home
-Write down food regularly
-Update "Fitness" playlist bi-weekly



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"Don't do nothing just because you can't do everything." -Colleen Patrick

A winner is just a loser who tried one more time.


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MYYEAR13
8/7/2014 9:01:44 PM

Just wanted to drop in and say Hi! It's been a while, but I'm back and hope to make some progress! :) Hope that you are doing great with your goals!



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CORKYTHEMOM1
7/9/2014 10:27:31 AM

Ashley, I didn't know if you heard about the head-on collision accident that I was in. I posted an updated blog about my current injuries. I'm so proud of you for making daily healthy choices and permanent lifestyle changes, resulting in fulfilling positive results! I'm giving you a STANDING OVATION for the goals you have achieved and the progress you continue to make! You are:


emoticon * S * P * A * R * K * T * A * C * U * L * A * R * emoticon


S = Set goals! Develop plans! Take action! Make progress! See results!
P = Promote regular medical checkups to achieve optimum health!
A = Approach each goal with optimism, dedication and completion!
R = Reduce stress! Eat healthy! Drink water! Exercise regularly! Sleep better! Have fun!
K = Keep track of nutrition intakes, fitness minutes, weigh-ins and body measurements!
T = Trust your choices, decisions and actions in all that you do!
A = Add variety to nutrition plan, fitness activities and personal well-being goals!
C = Create a non-food reward system for working hard to achieve healthy results!
U = Utilize behavior modification to break bad habits and challenge yourself to change!
L = Live life embracing healthy choices, positive changes and individual growth!
A = Assemble a support system to help one another stay on track!
R = Record emotions, setbacks, adjustments, progress and achievements in a journal!


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MYLOVELYCURVES
6/26/2014 6:11:54 PM

Thank you so much for the kind comment you left on my page a while back! I'm really glad you liked it! :) Just hearing my page brought some positivity to your day makes me so happy. It's been a long road from where I started to where I am today when it comes to self-esteem, confidence and self-love. I still struggle but I continue to fight those nasty voices that sometimes try to tell me I'm not good enough. It's not easy but it's worth the fight!

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you I really appreciate your kind words and I wish you best of luck with all your goals :) Keep in touch!



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RED_WRITINGHOOD
6/23/2014 8:15:27 AM

Thank you so much! I am a huge fan of red. Hope you have a wonderful week!



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6/15/2014 1:41:21 PM

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