Thanks for the comment on my blog about Faking it until you make it. Sounds like you are having a difficult time right now. Been there and know how rotten it can feel. Please let me offer some well meaning help. First, you need a ((((HUG)))). Now, didn't that feel good? Dry your tears and know that hope has arrived. The past is just that. It passed behind you and you have a brand new future right in front of you. For the next 15 minutes, just think about how nice it would be to have your life in your own control. If it were true, would you feel safe? Would you be proud of yourself for regaining control? Would you feel hopeful? Would you feel less scared? Would you feel more powerful? At the end of that 15 minutes, look back. Wasn't it awesome to feel that way? Would you like to feel more of that? If you could do it for 15 minutes, do you think you could do it for another 15 minutes? Are you willing to try to feel that way for another 15 minutes? You can string those 15 minutes out for the next 3 hours. But then what? You'll be wanting to eat soon. Don't be afraid. You can do it. You have already done it? What was the last healthy meal you ate that you really enjoyed? Could you make it again? Are you willing to put out some effort to make that happen? Make sure it hss a nice large serving of vegetables or a big salad so you will feel full for a while. If you eat a healthy meal, you will be ready to start buying your life back 15 minutes at a time. You are worth it. You deserve to feel so much better than this. Let this be your new beginning. I hope this advice is helpful. You are not the only one this happens to. This worked for me. I will be pulling for you.