I feel for ya regarding the career goals. I am 62 and feel like I've never had a job I really liked. I'm going to retire from public school teaching in June, 2018 and find myself still thinking about what I could do for money then, similar to the questions I had before I surrendered to frustration with searching and got my credential at age 40, even though I won't be poor. I haven't liked my career, but it got me some of the financial security I longed for. But I'd like to think I can make a contribution beyond volunteering my time and expertise.
This painful process may yield benefits you can't see yet. But either way, I affirm your healing!
I feel ya. I have been feeling a lot of failure and confusion in my life, also not over eating. The behaviors I am trying to deal with now are MUCH harder to manage than eating is! Sometimes I see the parallels. I'm always telling people on my teams that the critical things we say to ourselves in bad times are never really true. It was easier to see that when it had to do with eating. When it was about overeating, I was the main person who got hurt by my behavior. At other times, other people are affected, yet I find I do not stop myself. When it was about eating, it was easy to see that the right thing to do was to not binge and wait for the next meal. In my present situation, it is not usually obvious what the best thing to do is.
May we be healed in our difficulties and live compassion and love for ourselves and others together. 574 days ago