2007 - looks like a cornflake box photo...I'm a size 22/24 here & weighed over 300#
can't have too many dresses
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FUNNINFIT is a SparkPeople Motivator!
Everyone gets 'redo's' until the day we day-let's take 297!!!
1) It took months to lose my first 100# and months to regain half of that, so the journey will be a slow and steady one...
2) Just because I get fit & lose the weight doesn't mean I'm 'cured' from emotional eating-it just means I have great perseverance
3) FOOD/proportions are KEY to losing & maintaining weight loss
4) Exercise is crucial for me to keep the endorphins kicked in and to have the tone to handle the weight loss
5) When I look in the mirror, I want to know I've done my best & accept who I am, for where I am & go from there...
Back to Basics-Take 200???!!!
1) Actually stick with my goals-one meal at a time, one workout at a time...
2) Get back to basics-more calories used than calories taken in...
3) Keep my purpose/goals in mind-and just 'do it'-no excuses...
4) 5% weight loss or 1 dress size-whichever comes first!!!
5) Keep the SP 'friends' I've made & meet/make at least 1 more
Setptember 25, 2010
For those who have had life-long struggles within oneself, you know that overcoming self-esteem issues is crucial to living a healthy, balanced life. I function & appear 'normal' to most & have raised a family, had a long career teaching, and remained married to one person for nearly 30 years, but still 'battle' with confidence & self-worth.
Until I was nearly 30, I maintained a fairly healthy weight, but yo-yo'd with mood swings-hormonal???
Then, after my 2nd child was born & my mother passed away at 59, I began to slide & lose focus & purpose & love for life in general...just like alcoholics or other types of addictions, many of us can function outwardly in society, but inside we are a mess...
When I joined Spark over 2 years ago, it was like coming out of a fog-clarity and purpose had returned & I was finding myself once again & living & loving life. Luckily, I've only had small breaks from this and have 'forged ahead'...thanks to SP & the lessons I've learned here, I also realize that I may have to deal with my deep-seated issues my whole life, but they don't have to control me-I refuse to go down the 'dark path' ever again!!!
So, here's to renewed growth & hope for a healthy life that includes a balance of work, friends, family, exercise & good nutrition...
JUly 25, 2010
OK, after reading over my last posting, I realize that I must have been VERY ready for a change, but didn't really put that desire into ACTION, so here I am, nearly 2 months later, with the same desire, yet will I ACT on that desire NOW??? So much of my life has tied emotions with food, that it is very difficult to untangle the two-it's as if I morph back into my 'pre-healthy' self whenever I'm in certain situations-like I've been transported back in time to the person I was before I joined SP & learned what I need to do to become healthier & happier...the knowledge is all inside me, yet that force of emotional eating triggers remains constant, even if it is dormant for extended periods of time, I find myself thrown back into my 'old habits' so easily!!!
SO, today is a new day, I must realize that I may never become truly 'free' of the triggers that tend to release the voracious, emotional eater within me, but I can certainly try to have more self-control/recognition & have an action plan in place whenever I'm in situations that bring on those tendencies...
I guess emotional eating must be what it's like to be an addict of drugs or alcohol-the dependency on those are no different than that of food-all were meant to be a 'comfort' or social outlet that soon became an unbreakable chain of addiction...here's to breaking or loosening those chains TODAY-AGAIN-no matter how many times/ways it takes to do so!!! I WON"T QUIT, I WON"T GIVE UP, I WILL RELEASE MY INNER HEALTHY ME!!!
June 2, 2010...
Well, after months of yo-yo workouts/eating, I will be jump-starting my journey & for the next 60 days commit to log, workout, and reinvest in my healthy future...Allowing myself to lapse has made me realize I don't really need to emotionally eat any more-it's more of a reflex now & I don't 'gain' anything from it any longer-there's no 'high' or 'release' I get from overindulging or being sedentary-I've actually missed/longed for the consistency that made me lose my first 100#...
Here's to the next 60 days of forging getting back to healthy habits & a happier outlook...
WhooHoo-2/24 I reached my 100# loss-again...lost over 40# before joining SP, then did the last 60# in 6 months...maintained within 10# for the last year, but today I started my downward journey toward my ultimate healthy weight goal of 160#...the math doesn't lie-more calories burned than consumed DOES equal weight loss...now I've got my 1976 class reunion to get ready for this summer!!!
I've been at SP for nearly a year and a half now, and it's made a huge difference in my 'sticking' with my healthy journey...I was always active until after my first child, and then I allowed myself to 'disappear' as I cared for my family-always putting myself last and not recognizing that I needed to take care of myself! So, in 25 years, I doubled in size and weight, but always on the inside I felt like I did when I was 25...something 'clicked' the summer of 2008 and I decided I was tired of being fat and not looking or feeling like I wanted...so with the help of a personal trainer at a local gym and the motivation and inspiration I've found at Spark People, I've managed to lose 60# since July of '08 and maintain that loss for over a year...
Now for the rest of the story...I struggle with depression from time to time and have used food as an 'emotional crutch' for far too long-I'm in the process of peeling back the layers so that I can work on the issues that caused me to overeat in the first place...much is tied to how I view myself, but I'm learning to appreciate who I am much more and value my worth more each day...
Where do I hope to be? Within the next 6 months, I plan to be at my 'goal' weight, and then move from there to living an active lifestyle that will keep me 'kickin' for many more years...I've bee so inspired by the stories of people just like me here at SP-if one day I can be an inspiration to some, that would be great, but for right now, I'm in the learning/baby-stepping mode still, but one day I'll 'run' through my journey!
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