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This is the story of a girl...

cried a river and drowned the whole world - and while she looked so sad in photographs i absolutely love her...when she smiles.

I thought I had it all together when I first joined spark in 2006. I was on a roll and nothing was going to stop me. I went from 210 to 147 in 10 months - size 20w to size 10/12. In rereading my blogs of early on, I thought I had discovered the secret, the balance, the emotional fortitude to deal with ...

This is the story of a girl...

cried a river and drowned the whole world - and while she looked so sad in photographs i absolutely love her...when she smiles.

I thought I had it all together when I first joined spark in 2006. I was on a roll and nothing was going to stop me. I went from 210 to 147 in 10 months - size 20w to size 10/12. In rereading my blogs of early on, I thought I had discovered the secret, the balance, the emotional fortitude to deal with life on life's terms and not drown myself in carbs and calories. (see sparkpage lelliegirl) I was in the best physical shape ever feeling like I could take on the world. I sustained a pretty nasty knee injury 11 months in and that coupled with junk, embarked on a major pity party for the next while.

I have always been chunky, leaving the womb at 9 pounds 8 ounces, but it seems when you are younger, it takes fewer pounds to view yourself as obese. My first year in college, I weighed in the 150s and dropped into the 140s briefly. I thought I was huge and because I viewed myself that way, I guess others did, too. I never held my head up as I walked around. My head was always to the ground and I would never speak unless spoken to. Never had a real date in HS and of course in my mind it was the weight. I hated myself and just knew everyone else did, too. Weight was my excuse for a lot of things I did and didn't do - a lot of choices I made and didn't make. I have so many regrets and the weight compounds those feelings in an odd sort of way.


Here I am again after having licked my wounds long enough...too long. I am 17 pounds heavier than my first start weight, have aching joints, reflux, am tired all the time and finding myself at another emotional low. I continue to spiral downward but something must stop or I will die by way of spoon and fork.

It isn't easy retracing the journey but I have no other choice.

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KPACE7
4/15/2014 10:05:26 PM

Hello, emoticon Welcome to the BLC25 challenge. Do not forget weigh-in Wednesday is tomorrow. emoticon Stop by your original tracker post, and edit to add tomorrows weight. If you need any help, drop by my page or send me a sparkmail, I will be glad to help. emoticon

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MURPHI13
4/14/2014 12:48:57 PM

Hi Ellen,

I haven't done much. I've actually put some weight back on since leaving the BLC round a couple rounds ago. Hoping to knock off the little bit I gained and get back to reaching onederland this round.

Murphi



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MURPHI13
4/12/2014 9:57:45 AM

Hi Ellen!

I saw you register for BLC 25 and wanted to stop by and say hello and hope you're doing well. Maybe we'll end up on the same team again

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Murphi



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2/1/2014 8:06:01 PM

Welcome to Striving to be Trim and Healthy!
I believe there are only three of us active on the team but I am here to encourage and support you!



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KATESQUEST
9/29/2013 9:55:53 PM

Thanks for reading and commenting on my blog! Hang in there with BLC23! You CAN do this! You KNOW it deep down!



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