Hello...While I don't feel qualified to provide you with advice (I just started SparkPeople a little over a week ago), I wanted to comment on the statement that you made about taking care of people that are "dying of the bad habits that I have."
I am watching my mother--who has been morbidly obese for many, many years--die of congestive heart failure (among a myriad of other complications). It is heartbreaking. And particularly so because there's always that thought in the back of your mind..."if only she had eaten well and exercised..."
My two oldest sons are RN's in "extended care facilities" and both of them talk about how many of the patients are there primarily due to their unhealthy lifestyles.
Anyway, thank you again for that comment and best wishes as you begin your journey with SparkPeople.
BTW...your comments really moved me. This is the first post I have ever made.) 2204 days ago