our last family portrait with our little Ila Jean- December 2011
Family photo fall 2014 - Healing & Hope weekend
I am not new here, but haven't ever stayed too long. It's been a rollercoaster for me for a while now. I have had many things going on in my personal life to distract me from focusing on me. Although I have tried to, many times on here, over the years, with some temporary successes. Unfortunately, along the way, the weight has come back each time and more of it, along with more health problems. For the first time in a very long time, I have the ability to focus on me and my weight problem 100%. It is front and center in my life now and must be taken care of. After years of successful and failed attemps to lose the weight, I have decided to have the vertical sleeve surgery. I had my first appointment a week ago and I'm getting excited to start this next journey in my life.
If your wondering what kind of distractions I've had, well read on...
I first joined here during my daughter's illness, when she was doing well. She had been diagnosed with cancer when she was a baby in 2006 and she fought for a very long time. She became disease free in 2008 but in 2011 she relapsed. We thought we got her back finding she was disease free later that year at Thanksgiving time. One month later, just 3 days before Christmas, she relapsed again. By the end of January, we found her cancer to be very aggressive and progressing through treatments. We tried a clinical trial, but it did not work and we took her home. She was completely healed in the kingdom of heaven on April 15, 2012. To say our hearts are broken doesn't come close to the way we feel. With our faith we live on for her.
Back in 201o I had just graduated from nursing school, achieving my LPN, having been inspired by my baby girl. That August, I was diagnosed with Chiari Malformation. Basically my skull is too small for my brain causing my brain to push down into my spinal canal alongside my brain stem. I had been keeping my symptoms under control with medication. Only dealing with terrible headaches and dizziness once in a while. I started a new job in August of 2012 as a dialysis nurse. This past January, I suddenly was struck with a terrible headache and severe vertigo at work. Within 3 days, I was having difficulty walking. I went out of work on disability and went through a lot of testing to figure out if I would need surgery. I ended up at a specialist on Long Island and had surgery on May 1, 2013. While waiting to go into surgery to have my cerebellum tonsils removed, I was told that I actually needed more surgery. My C1-C2 vertebrae were leaning back pressing against the front of my brainstem. I had the option to do two surgeries or get it all done at once. I chose to go for it and not have my head cut open twice. So I went from a 4 hour surgery with an 8 week recovery to a 12 hour surgery and 5 month recovery.
I wore a hard cervical collar for five months. It took me a few month to get my neck moving again and I still have much less movement than I used to. I went back to work Thanksgiving of 2013 part time. A little too soon, I think. I ended up finding a less strenuous full time job in march 2014 which I still have and absolutely love! The stress of things got o me in late spring last year however and I did have a short "flare up" with my Chiari and wasn't able to walk well again. Fortunately it only lasted a week and I recovered very quickly. I learned that stress needs to not be a part of my life, so I am now careful to monitor that aspect of my life.
Over the summer I was diagnosed with Diabetes TypeII. Finally. I knew it was coming for a long time. Just had too many other things going on to do anything about it. So that was another reason I decided on surgery. My heart health is also a priority. I developed a ventricular arrhythmia in 2011. My dad was 45 when he had a heart attack and 47 when he suffered a stroke. Being 43 this year, I am getting nervous.
On top of all this, I need to set an example for my other two children who are both overweight as well. This is a family affair. Together we can do this.
I want to play WITH my kids, not WATCH them play!
I want to live healthy to see my grandchildren grow up unlike my mom who passed away at 60.
I am working on learning to eat healthier and get in exercise whenever I can.
My name is Jenny and I am from Upstate NY.
Mom of three, Howie, Monica and my angel in heaven, Ila Jean
Wife to my wonderful husband, John. Together since 1992.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
"Believe in the Unbelievable" - 8 yr old cancer patient who lost his battle
| Pounds lost: 94.0