Reuben and me enjoying the woods!
Me on my way to 318lbs
If I can't do it for me, I HAVE to do it for him.
So far across my 32 years on this Earth, I have procrastinated about everything and I mean everything. When the ex wife asked me to do something, "Yeah, in a minute hun", when my son asks me to play football, "Yeah, in a minute son". I swear my epitaph will say "Finally did something".
There have been many times where I have made the decision to diet but it always started on Monday, i'd pig out all weekend and have my 'Last Supper' but then maybe at most, 1 week later of healthier eating i'd be back off the wagon and gain even more weight.
To be fair, I used to be slim but then I was exercising a lot doing such things as playing football, going to football training, playing hockey, going to hockey training, I joined the TA so there was plenty to be done there and I also loved walking in the hills as well as jogging. All this meant I never really paid much attention to my diet and when I started work from leaving college things were even worse dietery wise.
I eventually got a job working as a bakery manager for a leading supermarket chain and in the space of 10 months I had gained a whopping 7st. I put this down not to the amount of cakes and pastries I was working through but more to do with the fact I was now a happy man who was 'contented' and not to do with the fact that with all the crap I was eating, I wasn't doing ANY exercise. I'd left the TA, relocated to a new job 160 miles away and to live with my fiance and therefore hadn't bothered to find a new football or hockey club. Needless to say I wasn't jogging anywhere and my poor diet had caught me up.
Looking back I realise what a plonker I was but I still don't have that 4am moment. You know the one..... the one where people say they woke up in the early hours with the aching realisation they were going to die young. Then you hear of other things from people about the time they looked at a holiday photo, had a nasty comment made about them or even said TO them. Well, I have had all of those things said to me, even my ex wife had asked me to slim down as she was worried about my health, my son asks me why I am fat. Yet, I do nothing. I can see my pictures, I see myself in the mirror and feel disgusted but yet, I still do nothing.
The first thing I do when I receive my copy of Men's Health in the post is to check out the bloke who has lost a load of weight and hope I get hit by a spark of inspiration, a sense that I may even be able to achieve that but it never comes. At most i'll say that i'll start on Monday but it's a cycle I know well.
I'm starting at 22st 13lbs... 146KG.....318lbs whichever way you look at it, i'm huge. It's a miracle I have not dropped dead from a heart attack or stroke, developed diabetes or something similar. At worst I have an annoying varicose vein in my left thigh. I can't afford a gym membership which is a good thing because I probably wouldn't go. I do have a set of weights, a home gym and a punch bag in my garage but I don't use them.
The roads are free to run on but I am a little bit shy and don't like people seeing my moobs bouncing up and down whilst I am making a half-arsed effort to lose weight. I HATE sweating in public because I know people will be looking at me and talking about 'that fat sod sweating like a pig in a slaughterhouse' so I just don't do it.
I need to do something and now.
Challenges and goals:
To weigh 300lbs
To weigh 250lbs
To fit in 38" jeans
To run 1 mile without stopping
To run 2 miles without stopping
To run 3 miles without stopping
Enter my first 10K and finish it
I want to lose as close to 150lbs as possible (about 10st 10lbs). I want to see a decrease in my waist and chest because boy, do I have some moobs!! Not a good look on a man. Fitness wise I am aiming for more stamina and lots of energy.
Well, i'm a left brainer and we tend to make lists. It just so happens I am a procrastinator as well so I make lists and then mean to get round to doing what's on them! I'm really going to have to push myself to even go to the gym or pool etc. Watch this space.
I'm Jason and i'm an eat-aholic. I'm 32 (years not stone) and dad to Reuben who is 12. I am from Middlesbrough. Life aim is to qualify as a nurse and lose this weight.
I play field hockey and would rather play in midfield but my fitness is so bad I play in defence. I love reading and really enjoy Terry Pratchett and his Discworld novels.
| current weight: 311.0