July 7, 2013 about 192 lb
12/4/10 - At my heaviest 197.
11/12/05 - My healthiest - 141. I saw myself as overweight at this time.
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My Story Goes Something Like This:
I've always seen myself as fat, as doomed to be obese. My mother and aunts were proof that that's what life held for me. I was always a little bigger than the other girls, but never realized I was volumptuous and attractive, I thought I was pudgy but in reality I was the real-deal, the "hour-glass." Because I had wider hips I was "Fat." The physical reality was so much different than my emotional reality. The only thing wrong with me was my incredibly low self-esteem.
Even in 2005, jogging regularly, riding my bicycle to the grocery store and around town, weight-training - I thought I was fat. (see wedding pic.)
Then I got a job sitting in a medical office all day with people bring free food, donuts, cookies to try to get the doctors to peddle their drugs. I gained 30 lbs in 2 years. My pants actually ripped at work one day. But I didn't do anything about it. I always felt hopeless. I had a victim mentality. I was defeated.
I found sparkpeople through my cousin. I found positive mental attitude through the book list of Britt World Wide. I dare sare I found my spark. I don't know what happened, I don't know why but in January 2011 I decided I was done. Done being mediocre physically, spiritually, and personally. I told my husband I was going back to school to be a nurse so I could travel to orphanages around the world and help the kids there. (A couple times a year, not all year.) I told my husband he wasn't going to stop me. Then I realized I didn't have to fight him, he wasn't holding me back or stopping me from anything. Only I was.
So here I am. Using the success stories on sparkpeople, the nutrition tracker, the positive flow and wealth of resources. And I am no longer defeated. I am choosing victory. The past is the past. Today is what I make of it.
January 2011 I just decided I was done. Done not chasing after my dreams, done being unhealthy. I decided to go to nursing school - to follow my dream of traveling the world helping others. I decided to lose the weight and eat NUTRITIOUS food. So back to spin class I went.
Be a healthy mama and wife in mind, body and spirit.
Exercise 4+ x's/wk
Journal 1+ x/wk
Eat real food, lots of veggies.
I quit my FT job to be a SAHM and it is better than I imagined! I have 2 young daughters (3 and 11 wks as of 7/18/13) and am blessed with a supportive hubby who puts his family first. I am blessed! Even the hard days are "good" because I trust God at His Word to always take care of everyone who seeks Him.
God loves you. Period, end of story. No matter who you are, sexual orientation, lifestyle, addictions, fears. GOD LOVES YOU!
| current weight: 195.0