My reward for starting back at SPark!! A labret piercing!! May 2012
My new furbaby - Lakitu
High Peak - Madison, CO - Enjoying the view overlooking Denver. June 2012, ~218 lbs
My name is Kerry and I started SP back in February 2009 at my highest weight of 255. I was recovering from a mental breakdown and an abusive relationship, among major chronic medical issues. I got down to 200 before three surgeries knocked me off my program. I took a break, finished a degree, moved across the country and am trying to establish a new plan for life.
My conditions are complex, chronic and degenerating. They cause massive amounts of pain, drain all my energy and make my day to day life very difficult. All my doctors have run out of options and I'm left circling the drain of pain management. I'm beyond frustrated with them using my weight as an excuse for my medical conditions. Afterall, their medications are what caused a 100lb weight gain in 5 months. However, I recently realized that was over 7 years ago and it's time for me to stop blaming circumstances and close this chapter. The weight needs to come off!! I deserve to be thin & healthy and I don't want any scapegoats for my doctors. I wish they would help me first, so losing weight would be easier, but sometimes you've got to run before you walk.
My life and happiness is being drowned in medical problems. I want control over my life, which I had achieved with SP before. I'm a perfectionist at heart and my SPark is barely glimmering. I may not be able to control my health or my limitations, but I need to regain control over the things I can control! I need to find my SPark and make it shine, to love myself despite my situation, wait, I need to love myself including my situation; and find happiness where I can. SP helped me get there once, I'm hoping it will help me again.
Slow and steady is hard for me, but it is a mandatory method for my success. This is as much a life lesson as a weight loss mission.
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I am learning how to be someone that I love unconditionally, that I respect, honor, cherish and am proud to be. And to fill my life with as much laughter, happiness and peace as I can while living within my limitations.
~Be as healthy and fit as I can possibly be
~Be proud of all that I am
~Do more "want to's" instead of all "have to's"
~ Goal is to focus on 25lbs of weightloss at a time.
~5 servings freggies/day
~10 glass water/day
~7-9 hours of sleep/night
~Do as much as I can, without pushing too hard, nor using pain as a scapegoat.
I am a 29 year old chick living in Denver, but my hometown is New Orleans. I spent the past 7 years in Boston going to school and dealing with medical stuff. I never really clicked with the culture of the northeast, but didn't want to move back south no matter how much I miss certain aspects of it. So, I moved out west for a change of pace.
I'm on a soul-searching mission to try to accept my life's circumstances, as well as myself and, hopefully, find genuine love and happiness along the way.
I have a very sarcastic sense of humor, but it somehow seems to balance my caretaker personality. I am a foodie through and through - cooking, baking, cake decorating, Food Network, etc. I love movies and comparing notes with other movie critics. I'm a House addict. I also enjoy music, arts and crafts, dance, animals, angels and fairies! I'm also kind of a geek - I love to learn... psychology, sociology, biology...
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