adding this to my poster
Getting a late start on my 2015 goals and state of mind...
My year did not start well. I had uprooted my life near the end of 2014 to go across the country to care for and spend time with my mom who's cancer was terminal. Going "home" always drastically affects my weight and activity level adversely (even if its just a week) and with the added stress of my mom's condition, trying to keep up with my business while being there and it being winter and impossible to do much of anything outside the house, I eventually ballooned to my highest weight EVER.
My mom passed away in March and I stayed on to get things in order for my family. I returned back to my permanent residence, gratefully in California, in April and finally started my own road to recovery.
I realize I have some extra challenges ahead of me with depression and some newly discovered shifts in priorities as stumbling blocks, but I *loved* how I felt when I was fit. I also had promised myself that by my next big "0" birthday I would be in the best shape of my life so I need to start seriously working towards that goal (especially if I'm going to exceed where I was 3 years ago).
But to begin, I just need to focus on getting back to habits. Drinking my water, tracking my food, doing something active every day even if its a 10 minute walk. Because the first step is always the hardest.
After yo-yoing a bit in 2013 (down to my 20-year low and then back up 10 pounds HEAVIER than I was at the beginning of the year), 2014 will be back to the programs that worked for me and working on healthier maintenance habits (i.e. NEVER stopping or taking a break). It will be a more introspective year as I will focus on QUALITY relationships with more healthy-minded people.
After a good start in 2012 of revealing "the REAL me," 2013 will be a continuation of healthy habits to see how far I can go. It will also be a year of moving out of my comfort zone with relationships, career, and communicating in general.
I do well when I focus internally, but its a little harder for me in the outside world. This year I will try to balance a little more of each.
2012 has been the start of not "the new me", but in fact, "the REAL me." After several years filled with health issues and relationship implosion, I finally found the road back to me. SparkPeople has been a big part of that.
I rejected the idea that the person I didn't recognize in the mirror was who I was. I rejected the idea that I was too old, too frail, or too tired to do the things I used to love: hiking, dancing, climbing, trekking, travelling.
My goal was to just feel like myself again and look like myself again.
I made travel plans, joined hiking groups, and started learning better healthy practices. Cooking even (something I never did before).
My major victory AND motivation to keep going was a program I followed from BodyBuilding.com. Jamie Eason (a fitness model) had a regimented 12-week training program called LiveFit. This has weight training and diet components to it. I completed the program, with the support of a great SparkTeam, seeing amazing results for such little time. This not only gave me strength, stamina, and the smaller body I used to have-- but actual HOPE that I CAN be the person in my mind's eye. I CAN do the things I "used to" love to do. and I'm not going back.
There's more to be done, but now I know I am in control of it. Its MY choice. And I choose ME.
Come visit at the LiveFit team: http://teams.sparkpeople.com/jamieeasonliv
Drop 2 dress sizes by July.
Drop at least 1 more size by end of Summer
Be able to wear all the tiny clothes in my closet
Get down to "fit" BF%: 21-24%
Do five pullups
Be BACK in bikini shape by 2015.
"Clean, Lean, and Green"
Doing another round of Jamie Eason's 12 week LiveFit program in 2015. Leading the Sparkteam:
California girl with Michigan roots.
Love golf, hiking, traveling, rock climbing, hip hop, photography, big dogs, sailing, dance, music, art, and my family.
SWEAT is just fat CRYING
History is not destiny.