25th Anniversary Surprize Party
Christmas Cheer with my girls!
MAMACHAMBS is a SparkPeople Motivator!
I FOUND A WAY!!
UPDATE!!! 12/4/13 - I'm AT GOAL!! My blood pressure is 106/66, better than it's ever been. I'm stronger and more flexible than I've ever been. Healthy, whole foods and lifting heavy weights were the key to my success!! But more than that, getting my head in the right place and making a serious commitment to ME was KEY! I'd say it was 70% mental, 20 % nutrition and 10% serious strength training that got me here. Somebody pinch me cuz I still can't believe it's true!
10/10/13 - Here I am in tail end of 2013 and for the past 3 years I found myself stuck in the 170s. Granted I went from high to middle to low 170s, but still.....
I'm still a member of the BLC but other than some fabulous friendships, it wasn't getting me anywhere anymore. That is until 8 weeks ago when my team decided to adopt a 24/7/365 mentality. Since then I've cleaned up my diet, added some serious ST and I'm down 19 pounds for the year, the majority of of it in the last 5 weeks! I am only 18 pounds from goal and I fully intend to get there by December 31, 2013. I started my journey at 198 pounds. I am currently 156. I can see the finish line and it's in easy reach! My thought processes have moved from "How do I lose this weight?" to "What will I need to do to maintain once I reach goal?"
I have struggled with trying to lose for the past 12 years. Sometimes I would succeed, but it was always short-lived. I wanted to lose and keep it off, but the temptations were stronger than the desire to lose. Participating in BL10 helped me to get past that. It was really tough in the beginning. I kept my meal tracker private because I didn't want anyone to see when my cravings won out over my desire to lose. Something changed for me in week 3. I came across this saying.
** A woman who wants something will find a way, a woman who doesn�t will find an excuse. **
It made me realize that that's what I was doing and it was hurting nobody but me. I asked myself the toughest questions of my WL journey. "Am I READY to lose?" "Am I committed to sacrificing immediate gratification for the long term goal?" "Do I truly want to resist temptation so I can lose for real this time or am I just paying lip service to myself?" "Am I going through the motions of WL or am I committed to the performance?" No one else cared about my answers but me. No one else was going to suffer or benefit from my choices. No one else was going to make it easier. Most importantly, no one else could make it happen, but me! I had a real heart to heart with myself and came to the conclusion that I had been my own worst enemy. I knew what I said I wanted, but I didn't listen. I acted and reacted for immediate gratification, not for my long term goal. Once I realized that even though I said I wanted to lose and truly believed I wanted to lose, I had never been committed to losing. I would lose a few pounds and then be so proud of myself that I would "allow" myself an indulgence. The truth was, I never denied myself the indulgence and that's why I "thought" I couldn't do it. I wasn't truly committed. It isn't easy but it does get easier. I'm so proud that I've finally committed and I'm not just losing the same 5 lbs repeatedly. I realized if I could be strong enough to lose it over and over, all I had to do was be strong enough NOT to regain it in between. I still fall occassionally. The difference is, it's just a slight stumble, not a head over heels, come crashing down hard, fall. When I realize I'm stumbling, I STOP! I use to just say, I've already messed up. Might as well enjoy the whole box, carton, whatever. Sometimes I would keep looking for that something, that flavor, that was going to make me feel better, when all it did was make me feel worse. It wasn't the food I wanted. It as a lower number on the scale. The food was temporary. The WL would continue to satisfy me if I could just stop tripping myself up and enjoy the continued success.
You have to realize that by overindulging you are hurting no one but yourself. By winning this war against weight, you are the one who benefits. The first step is most definitely the hardest. What you need to realize is the first step isn't deciding to lose, it's deciding to resist and making it a permanent decision. Resist, resist, resist! Every time. If you can't stop at one, then you have to stop BEFORE that. Yesterday is over. Last week is over. Today is a new day. Those words are all true, but you need to decide if this is the last time you are going to use them or will you be saying them again in two weeks. When I opened my eyes to that realization, everything clicked for me. I had a decision to make. Where did I want to be at the end of this challenge? Did I want to be the one who lost 1-2 lbs a week, EVERY week? Or did I want to be the one who yoyo'd the same 5 pounds for the entire 12 weeks? If that was the case, why was I bothering? I had all the tools in front of me. I had all the support I could ask for. Why not use them to my full advantage?
That was 2 challenges ago. I made it through the 2009 Holiday season without gaining a pound, thanks to BLC11. Now I'm anxiously awaiting BLC12, which is scheduled to open in hours. I am 14 pounds less than I was a year ago and I am ready to buckle down and lose another 15-20 this round. I'm healthier, more active, more optimistic and I know I will only get better!
I hope my story helps you. Take that first step. If you are like I was, you've done that a hundred times. Now allow yourself to win by taking the next, most difficult step, and continuing to take those tough ones until they get easier. If you slip, STOP, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and continue down the road. Choose a goal and don't let yourself get off the beaten path. The shortest distance between two points is a straight line. Follow that path to your goal.
"Lord, please help me to remember, that nothing is going to happen today, that You and I, together, can't handle."
Get back down to a healthy weight.
Be more active.
To like the way I look again and to prove to myself and all the doubters around me that I can lose weight at 40+ and after having 5 kids!
UPDATE!!! 2013 was a great year for me! I met ALL my goals in 10 weeks between Sept and November!!
* put the finishing touches on my AT GOAL BODY with continued clean eating and continued ST!
* begin to see myself as a skinny gal after nearly 20 years of being overweight!
Serious strength training
52 year old mother of five, ages 16 - 24.
Happily married for 25 years.
Thrive under accountability and challenge.
I'm a RUNNER!!
I'm a BIKER!!!
I LIFT heavy a$$ed weights! :-)
I'M AT GOAL!!!
Favorite Author - Karen Kingsbury
Favorite music - Young Country and 70's rock
Favorite musicians - Bob Segar, Bad Company, Louis Armstrong, Chad Brock, Trace Adkins, Travis Tritt
Favorite Movie - The Proposal
| current weight: 161.4