Me around 145 in April 2012.
Me and my wonderful boyfriend on the 1 year anniversary of meeting each other... June 23, 2013
Doing what I love. Dance <3
Formerly eating-disordered, now trying to find balance and happiness with my body, health, food and exercise.
Roughly 4-5 years ago at the beginning of my junior in college, I decided I wanted to lose a little weight. It started off harmlessly enough. I began a gym regimen while also dancing with our school's dance team a few nights a week and I changed up my eating to make it a bit healthier. None of it was overwhelmingly drastic.
I began to see the weight come off almost immediately. By Christmas, I had lost close to 20 pounds, but knew something was wrong mentally. I ignored my better judgement and dove deeper into my weight loss goals.
By March, I was at my original goal weight and while I was still considered "healthy", my perception of my body, my eating habits and my workouts had changed in my mind. I no longer saw myself losing weight; I saw only a fat girl in the mirror. After returning from a Spring Break trip to Puerto Rico, I realized that the less I ate, the faster I lost. This is where the downward spiral really began.
I started to get anxious about what I ate and what my workouts were. Soon, the workouts and dance rehearsals were longer and more grueling but less food was going into me. By the time summer came around, I hovered around 125, down 35 pounds from my original 160, but I still wasn't satisfied.
Things got worse after I moved home for the summer. I planned my daily food intake, and sometimes only let myself eat up to 500 calories, and hit the gym with the intention of burning all of it off.
Long story short, my weight hit an all-time low of 109 by the time I went back to school in September. By this time, all the forced therapy sessions in the world couldn't help me. My battle affected everyone around me, my family, my friends, my relationships. I felt hopeless and lost.
Fast forward 4-5 years to present day... At some point (maybe with the helps of the meds I was put on), I started to eat again. Purging became a distant memory. But the weight I had worked so hard to lose came back. Not all of it, but enough that I could lose some.
I am by no means fat, even if I call myself it daily.
This is my attempt to lose the weight I want to lose the healthy way.
No More ED.
I want to be the weight I feel the most comfortable with while maintaining a healthy and fun lifestyle.
A mix of gym workouts, dance rehearsals and better eating to propel me down the healthy weight loss road I want to be on. Also using a rewards system to help motivate myself!
155: Pedicure - CHECK! 8/15/13 (Weigh in: 154)
130 (GW): New jeans, new shirts
125 (UGW): New bathing suit, shorts & dresses for PUERTO RICO!
| Pounds lost: 6.2