A very tired, serious GD Sierra & Grandma (that's me!)
DD Aubrey & GD Sierra Ready for their first bike ride together!
MIMAWELIZABETH is a SparkPeople Motivator!
I'm now the Big 6-0 years old, have been married three times, have children and grandchildren, and am happily married for 16 years. I'm also physically disabled from a brain and spinal injury in 1994.
My main goal on Spark is to live a healthy lifestyle by eating wisely and being active. Food, I do well; exercise, I need better consistency.
My beloved son Scott was killed in February 2008. I will always grieve the hole left in my heart, and am forever changed by his death... However, I also found a wellspring of faith I didn't know I had. There is no doubt I have been very blessed.
I hope you'll take a look at my Photo Gallery, and share those special times, past and present, spent with my wonderful family. The latest are of my new grandbaby, Sierra Elizabeth!
My DH Bob is a wonderful, affectionate and caring man who has always loved me just the way I am. Since we got together in 1996, my Life has had a calm center I'd never known.
DH was diagnosed with ESRD (kidney failure) and started dialysis in 2011, forcing him into retirement. Since January 2015, he's had countless health setbacks and complications requiring numerous ER visits, fourteen hospitalizations, and several surgeries. Now living in the family home, we're finally able to have our own pets. Tabitha and Blackie, our two "rescue" cats, are great comfort and fun! It's tough with the ups and downs, but we're doing fine. As DH's health is now stabilizing, we're working on a "New Normal."
My initial ambitious attempts on Spark triggered my usual self-sabotage, crash- and- burn pattern. I decided to take my time and learn to use Spark's tools, going for a long term goal of eating and living healthily, but not worrying about weight loss. That continues to be my main focus.
I've been very heavy (obese) for over 30 years now, except for a short time 15-17 years ago. I quickly lost 105# and had maintained for almost two years. I was doing very well, but "lost it" - the panic, depression and inertia of PTSD, prompted by retrauma of CSA, caused a complete reversal and I gained over 50# in 4 months, plus 20 more over 3 months, going on to gain 115# total.
How could I have regained so much weight, after all that work? Because our emotional and mental components will determine the ultimate result of our physical condition. I've definitely learned that, which is why "losing weight" isn't as important to me. I'm enjoying the journey!
I'm doing well now as far as using the tools on Spark. I weigh and measure and honestly track ALL my food every day. That's the bottom line for me, the most basic of steps, and IMO the most important tool.
I love to do Spark activities; but reading and posting on my teams' message boards is a source of support and comfort, and an outlet when I need one. I try to remember to turn to Spark when I start floundering, and I've spent many a night on Spark, reading, posting or journaling, instead of binging.
I have "Silver Sneakers" and use the pools at the local gyms for water-based physical therapy. My biggest challenge is exercising consistently. The problem is just as much a mental block as it is physical limits.
I have two biological children from my first two marriages. Often, they were my only reason for living, and remain my heart and soul. Son Scott would be 36, but he died in February 2008 (details in my blogs). Daughter Aubrey, 31, married in 2007; photos of this wonderful day are in my gallery. She and SIL live in Colorado with their daughter, my precious Sierra Elizabeth, born March 2015. My amazing DD is undoubtedly my best friend!
DH has a grown daughter with three children (one step, one bio, and a new step). We are "Mimaw" and Grandpa to Kaile, age 12, who has been a big part of our life since her birth. We live in southern California.
I was crippled in a fall in 1994, disabled with a brain and spinal injury. My children suffered greatly, financially and emotionally, made worse when abandoned by my second husband in 1995. Slowly, I rebuilt my life with my kids. Meeting my DH is the icing on the cake of life!
PTSD from violent sexual abuse in my childhood has hindered me all my life. With the death of my son, I am dealing with a whole new set of devastating emotions. When I started on Spark in 2007, the wonderful and caring community made a huge difference in my life. I feel stronger and more grounded, and have had more successful days and weeks in the last nine years than in ALL my years before! Also, I know I would not have survived the death of my son without Spark in my life, and unending support of my wonderful Sparkfriends.
Secrets of Success
| Pounds lost: 70.0
Thank you, again for the support and for keeping me in your thoughts. You are right it hurts so much and besides I learned, late at night that I dear friend of mine had a sudden death and it is like my soul could sense it. Oh gosh, sometime, everything comes together. Thank you for supporting me. I really appreciate and value it. (((HUGS)))
3 days ago
Thank you so much for think about her. She is very depress. She says it feels like he died, but she was not going to marry him after what she discovered. She is praying a loy, church is supporting her and I know she will survive this situation. It hurts so much to see one of your little ones suffer, that I need support as wells, I need to do something about it. Thank you so much for caring. I really appreciate and value it. (((HUGS)))
5 days ago
Happy cap A of the day! Hope it was grand!
7 days ago
Yesterday is now stored in our memory bank,
full of things we cannot change.
Focus on today and make today a perfect memory for tomorrow."
7 days ago
Elizabeth, hope you're having an Capital A Day!!
7 days ago