Me and the Chocobo I got for Christmas
An older, but flattering, photo of me.
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I'm MishiMallow, and this is my marsh!
Birthday: Dec. 23
Weight: 299 (last I checked)
Household: Wife, Amy; Cat, Cabbit; Mother-in-Law, Mum Lily; Father-in-Law, Papa Cam.
Barriers: BiPolar I Disorder, PCOS, Lazyititis
I moved to Canada from Ohio in the summer of 2008. At the time I weighed 230 lbs. I wasn't thrilled with my weight, but I wasn't in bad health and I was cute for a big girl. Also I was used to doing physical work and was only a size 16 despite my weight. After Amy and I got married, however, I began gaining weight like crazy. I hit 302 pounds at my heaviest and felt terrible about myself. I was tired, depressed, angry, and sick. I lost a little bit of weight through healthier eating, having decided that just because I am fat does not mean I have to be sick. I became involed in "fat activism" and was a firm believer in the healthy at every size initiative. A string of events shifted my point of veiw on that front, and while I still believe we as a society have unrealistic standards for beauty, I also believe that even fat activists put too much emphasis on weight and numbers. The focus should be on, How Healthy Are You? This has a connection to weight, but weight is not the only factor. It is OK to be a little overweight, but there is a point when being overweight does start affecting your health...it is different for everyone. I strongly believe I have reached that point and it is time to do something about it. My wake-up call came when I realised that the woman who got me into fat activism was not as healthy as she seemed, having needed to take a cab up a hill to her car, less than two blocks away from the event she had been speaking at. I didn't realise it immediately though...it wasn't until I could no longer walk uphill and had to take the bus home from the mall (A five minute walk) That was when I realised I had taken things too far, and something had to change before I killed myself.
I'm tyring to lose weight because I am tired of having no energy and feeling fat. I believe that whatever weight my body settles on as it's own healthy weight will be fine because life isn't about arbitrary standards of beauty, but I know better than I did before. An aquaintance from National Novel Writing Month* posted about SparkPeople on her Google+ account and I thought, what the heck, I have tried everything over my life, let's give this a shot! If Dragon has had success with it, maybe I will see results too. So here I am.
(National novel Writing Month and NaNoWriMo are trademarked to the Office of Letters and Light, www.nanowrimo.org)
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