2010, here I come!

(12/31/2009)
As I write this, I'm not doing so well. I've had some stressful days lately as I try to take care of two kids, housework, finances/paying debts, a Hubby that's having to work too many hours lately because there's just too much work at work, and having to drive around two other people because they can't drive themselves and/or don't have a car.

It's been easy eating WAY too many calories, as I've been eating around 4,000 since ...

2010, here I come!

(12/31/2009)
As I write this, I'm not doing so well. I've had some stressful days lately as I try to take care of two kids, housework, finances/paying debts, a Hubby that's having to work too many hours lately because there's just too much work at work, and having to drive around two other people because they can't drive themselves and/or don't have a car.

It's been easy eating WAY too many calories, as I've been eating around 4,000 since about 3 weeks after my son was born (at least since then). Sad thing is that I had lost 24 lbs. out of 30 lbs. that I gained while pregnant--and then I gained most of it back. (I was 278 lbs. one week before his birth, got down to a 254 lbs. and then have gained back up to 275 lbs. right now.)

I have GOT to regain control over my life and I need to figure out how to make it all work out.

One person that I'm driving around right now is my mother....because she's diabetic, wasn't controlling it and it went up to a reading of 698--a number high enough to make her look/act like she had a stroke of some sort. Fortunately she's mostly come out of it and regained control of her blood sugar, but her vision is still playing tricks on her right now. The doctor is still hopeful that that will go away, though. At any rate, this is one thing that I don't want to be like my mother--I don't want all the health issues and also make it difficult for someone to be able to get me to a hospital so that I could get the help I needed because of the health issues.

I got a Kindle for Christmas--and got "The Spark" for it!! So, I'm going to try and work through that as well as trying to organize my days better. I've got to do this! I want to see how much I can lose before I turn 30. I'm hoping to at least get down to under 200 lbs. by then, and eventually down to 150 lbs. and maybe even as low as 135 lbs. someday.

THE TIME IS NOW!

Who I am
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(written Jan. 2009, updated Jan. 2010)

I'm a 29-year-old stay-at-home mom of a beautiful, almost 3-year-old and an almost 3-month-old. I have a wonderful hubby who is also working to lose weight with me (sort of) and a sister-in-law that's working with me too. We're doing it slowly but surely.

I've lost 40-45 lbs. and kept 15 lbs. off. But I am planning on getting those other 25-30 lbs. back off and more!

Believe it or not, I found SparkPeople by looking for a BMI calculator last Jan. 22, 2008, through a different forum that mentioned they had one. I came here and I signed up, signed on, and started losing!

This journey has taught me so much about myself and who I really want to be. It's changed my entire outlook on life, and therefore, my entire life. It's helped me set goals, not just in losing weight and being healthy physically, but also mentally, emotionally, and, most of all, spiritually. It's taught me SO much about myself--who I am and who I want to be. And it's taught me that I don't have to just dream, I can actually reach those dreams. (I seem to have lost most of this, if I'm completely honest, but I plan to reclaim it!)

Thanks, SparkPeople.
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What I want to become
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(Jan. 2010 version:)
Being defeated is often temporary, giving up makes it permanent. --Marilyn von Savant

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. --Thomas Edison

He who has no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down and without walls. (Prov. 25:28 Amplified)

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. (from Marianne Williamson, according/from another poster on SP)

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. (2 Timothy 1:7 Amplified version)

“Finish each day and be done with it…You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it well and serenely.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

***I want to be a success, I want to have control over myself and my circumstances, I don't want to give in or give up. I want to find my inner strength and to be "powerful beyond measure"--I want to find what I'm meant to be and what I'm meant to do. I want to make a difference. 2010 will be MY year!!***

(older version:)
And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. (Colossians 1:10-14)
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For you yourselves know how you ought to follow our example. We were not idle when we were with you, nor did we eat anyone's food without paying for it. On the contrary, we worked night and day, laboring and toiling so that we would not be a burden to any of you. We did this, not because we do not have the right to such help, but in order to make ourselves a model for you to follow. For even when we were with you, we gave you this rule: "If a man will not work, he shall not eat."

We hear that some among you are idle. They are not busy; they are busybodies. Such people we command and urge in the Lord Jesus Christ to settle down and earn the bread they eat. And as for you, brothers, never tire of doing what is right. (2 Thessalonians 3:7-13)
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Other things I want to become:

a professional wrestler--yep, I'm serious. I want to audition to train when I get to my goal weight. Lol, I'm pretty sure I still want to shoot for this, but I've got to get out from under all this stress in my life.

I want to get to my goal weight by the time I turn 31 years old. That's Nov. 2010, and I want to be down to 150 lbs. by then, although I think I might try to go to 135 lbs. as my final goal, but I'll see when I get there. (It was 30 years old, and Nov. 2010, but I got sidetracked by being pregnant--no regrets on that though. :) ) My goal is to get down to under 200 lbs. by Nov. 2010.

Ultimately, I want to be happy, energetic, enthusiastic, and loving to all those around me. I want to reverberate with hope to all those around me. I want to make a difference to myself and to others.
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Who I was
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(Jan. 26, 08) My starting weight is around 290 (that's what my scale says, but I know that the scales that doctors use weigh me in slightly less--I like those better!). My goal is to get down to 150 some day and then see how I'm doing (I know I can go that low, I think I might have a little more than that, but I'm not sure...anyway, if I get that low, how much healthier would I be than now?)
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For more old info, go to my blog (link: )
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Current/Future Goals
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Lose 10% at a time (also has BMI and total % goals)
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290 = starting weight (January 22, 2008)
261 = first 10% gone (May 31, 2008)
249 = no longer morbid obese* (Sept. 6, 2008)

275 = starting back weight (January 1, 2010)

261.25 = halfway to first 10% and baby gain gone
247.5 = first 10% gone (and baby gain gone)
240 = no longer morbid obese*
232 = 20% of highest weight gone
222.75 = second 10% gone
203 = 30% of highest weight gone
200.5 = third 10% gone
199 = under 200 lbs.
180.5 = fourth 10% gone
179 = no longer obese
174 = 40% of highest weight gone
162.5 = fifth 10% gone
149 = no longer overweight--will look to see where I should go from here.
146.25 = sixth 10% gone
145 = 50% of highest weight (if I go this low)
135 = where I'm starting to think I might be able to go and still be healthy, but am still unsure about that.

Weight-loss Progress
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275.0 lbs. = BMI (12-31-2009 Starting back after having a baby and then gaining the baby weight back on)

249.0 = 41.5 BMI, no longer morbid obese*
239.0 = 39.9 BMI, no longer morbid obese*
179.0 = 29.9 BMI, no longer obese
149.0 = 24.9 BMI, no longer overweight
110.0 = 18.5 BMI, no longer healthy...not going there.

*It seems that "morbid obese" has two definitions--1) 100+ lbs. over top "healthy" range number and 2) 40.0+ BMI.
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MY VIRTUAL MODEL
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I've had a couple of questions about this lately...so here's the site:
http://mvm.com
(I also had to ask someone--it is hard to find the answer. lol)
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WEIGHT VIEW
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Here's another site that uses a real picture of you and you can do up to a virtual 50 lbs. lost. (and you can resubmit that picture to do a bigger loss--just look at my pictures I did.) Here's the site:
http://weightview.com
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