This is me at my highest weight 407lbs......How did I let myself get this big?
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Time to Live.....not just Exist in 2013
I keep my prior post as a reminder to myself. 2013 is here......and I have totally gave up on a "Diet". It took me to the end of 2012 when I was going through relationship problems that I finally started to treat myself better and not wake up just to eat. Each day I'm finding a little more of myself, and even though everything I discover isn't good I know that I don't have to run to food to medicate myself. For me, I found a few things that curb my appetite for sweets (which is my biggest ...
I keep my prior post as a reminder to myself. 2013 is here......and I have totally gave up on a "Diet". It took me to the end of 2012 when I was going through relationship problems that I finally started to treat myself better and not wake up just to eat. Each day I'm finding a little more of myself, and even though everything I discover isn't good I know that I don't have to run to food to medicate myself. For me, I found a few things that curb my appetite for sweets (which is my biggest problem) so now I'm just choosing things I like to eat and play games with myself to see what the scale is going to do each day. So here's to a year of self discovery, and may I leave 2013 a better person.......not just on the scale.
Jan. 2013. ** 367.2lbs**
"Tired of a Diet, Ready to Change my LIFE
I felt it was time to update my page. Over and Over I was dieting with no type of success. I bought the Spark book yet failed to my one change to my eating habits........that was until now. I have been introduced to fruit and vegetable smoothies. To be honest I didn't want to try that either but I gave my coworker my word that I would try it. Well I love it! it's the first thing that makes me feel like i'm doing something good for myself. I knew I was lacking my daily vegetables and it is a quick and easy way to get them in so I went for it. This is the first thing that i'm going to adapt in my life and I say that because it's been changing my choices for the rest of the day. I'm getting satisfied with normal portions of food, and I don't want to eat all through the night. I feel the rest of the year will look up for me. I'll keep you posted.
**2011 Will be my year to deal with the obstacles that hold me back!**
I've been thinking this last week or so "what do I want to do with my life?" and the answer is "I want to live healthier". I know I can do it. so now i'm going to pull out all the tricks of the trade that me to become a better person and make those tricks the "lifestyle" change to rid myself of this "bubble" that i'm in.
My goals are fairly simple:
1) Cleaner eating; If I don't know what's in it....then don't put it in my mouth.
2) Let my hunger/ not my head control my meal times.
3) Give 30 minutes to myself each day for cardio.
4) Strength Training at least 3 times a week.
5) Become active on Spark.
6) Love Myself More Than I Love Anybody Else!!
With doing these things I expect to lose 10lbs per month. I don't care to weigh myself each week because I act "Normal"(ha ha) when I see the scale go down, like I can eat whatever I want......That's not an option for me, so I'll weigh in once a month.
There's also fitness accomplishments that's posted at the YMCA each month. There's one for most cardio minutes, most consective workout days, most calories burned and most weight lifted........I chose that the goal I'll go for is the most weight lifted and I will be Number 1 come February. Currently the weight stands at 489,000lbs. Which seems like a lot (it is actually), yet it's not unrealistic for me. So i've done the calculations for the month to top that and that will be my main focus for January.
That's all I have for now because I don't want to get too far ahead of myself.
There's a beautiful woman under this weight.......It's time for her to stand up!!
(Below is my prior blog with title, didn't want to erase it)
I'm starting over again!!!!!
I let my weight creep back on me.All the work I did gone!....and the depression sank in. Now i'm ready to put the foot work in for me and keeping my food journal up to date and honest is the way i'm going to get there. I'll be 40 August 10th and i'm tired. I need all the support on here that I can get .
You know I had a weight problem most of my life. I was always bigger than the other kids. Back then it wasn't a problem I had plenty of friends and a good childhood (despite some skeletons).
As I got older I had a son at 15, a daughter at 19 and moved into my own place that same year. My weight as over 200 maybe 225 by then but I was so popular in town that it didn't matter. I must admit the kids father was verbally abusive and let me know how big I was at every arguement. If it wasn't for the support of family & friends my self esteem might have been gone.
But for me there was also a probem with having esteem. My uattitude was "I was beautiful no matter what!" and I held on to that a long time-The problem with that is that I was holding my head so high for so long I never looked down to see how big I was really getting. Before you knew it I was pushing 250 then 260 then 270 telling myself that I wasn't going to get any bigger and eating out after I found out that I did. Of course I tried all types of diets and diet products through all of this. It took some years before I hit 300 but once I did it wasn't that long before those last 42 settle on my hips.At that point I had enough I refuse to see 350 and I meant it. I love to dance but I could barely get through a song. My lab coat would only button 3 of the 5 buttons and I started to feel sloppy in anything that I wore.
So I started walking-then "The grind" workout tapes since I love to dance a few months later I joined a gym and the weight started coming off. While doing this I read everything I could about eating (thinking that would find an easy way -I didn't) I started "The biggest loser" weight loss pool at work (I won second place) and after that I got sick. Blood pressure dropped to the point where I would pass out. This went on for 2 months and no one still could not figure out to this day why that happened. ( Oh! I forgot to add that I had high blood pressure at 30 and a Heart Attack at 31 in which 2 stents were placed in my heart. It was so mild I drove myself to the hospital. quit smoking 4 months later). I came back to work weighing 259lbs with my head in the clouds wanting to lose 17 more so I can hit the 100 mark but eating like I can have anything I want. Well needless to say I didn't get any lower and I started my climb back to my new high point of 323lbs. In october me & my girlfriend decided on a buddy system of calling each other for motivation the next my sister joined so we talk and tell each other what we been doing. I signed up for "sparkpeople" on Nov 26 2006 But didn't come back until January 1st 2007 only because I was working much that I never had time to explore. Now i'm here and I love it!
So i'm going to forgive myself for hurting me. Ask God to do with me as he sees fit and walk right.
THANKS SPARKPEOPLE for being here!!
Highest Weight 363 (2-6-09)
Highest Weight 363lbs
Friday Dec 18th 09 Biggest loser weigh -in at work 362lbs *sigh*
Thur. Dec 31st 09 358lb
Fri Jan 8th: 357lb
Fri Feb 12th: 355.2
(3-12-10)351lb Biggest loser weigh-in *took 2nd place*
Dec 24 2010: Date to Remember!!!
(Jan 1st 2011) Ultimate high...Won't get any higher!! 377lb
Boy did it get higher (Nov 18th 404.2)
January 1st 2011-377lb
April 1st 377
Sept. 23 2012 396.4.....Sept 30th 391.4 (Down 5lbs)
November 1st 391.4 (Nov.8th)
December 1st 387.6 lbs
January 1st 371lbs
February 1st 360.4lbs
| current weight: 295.8
Member Since: 11/26/2006
Fitness Minutes: 60,834
Make me fruit and vegetable smoothies each day.
I like to keep my old entries up to see my time frame for getting myself together.
This year I really want to take time with myself and learn how to change my lifestyle.
50 Pound challenge:
My starting weight as of 1-1-10 is 358 pounds
Feb 1st CW 354, weight lost -4
Mar 1st CW 346, weight lost -8 (total 12lbs gone)
Sunday June 27th 2010 358.6lb until.
October 18th New high 367lbs
*sigh* Even Higher 373 Nov. 2010 (407lb August 2012)
My goal: To lose 10% of weight. Which will be 40.7lbs
10lbs gone- 9-23-12
10lbs gone- 10-28-12
10lbs gone- 12-19-12
10lbs gone- 12-31-12
.7 lb gone- 1-20-13 (367.4)
First goal met on: Jan 20th 13
2nd 10% to lose up next. 40.7lbs from 367.4 to 326.7lbs
.7 lb gone
Walk 30 miles a month.
and/or 450 cardio minutes per month (eliptical, b
Swimming 60 minutes 5 times a week.
Fruit & Vegetable Smoothie each morning.
Plenty of water
30 Minutes of cardio each day.
Strength Training at least 3 times a week.
Limit Red meat
Mostly fruits & vegetables
Add Protien shakes
I'm from Wyandanch Long Island, New York but I now live in Norfolk, Virginia.
I have 2 children 26 & 23. and a 4 1/2 year old Nephew
I'm a grandmother of 4.
I recondmend the book "Convicts Candy" by Jason Poole. Also "Secret Society" by Miasha.
And without saying: The Qu'ran of course.