Being me May 21 2016 (wedding reception)
NOMORESTALLING is a SparkPeople Motivator!
Having a vision of what we want in life is most important to our efforts of getting what we want, but we also must take action and for me when it comes to taking action the most important to me at this stage of my life, this very present moment, is my health....I CHOOSE LIFE!
Over the years, earlier years I often found myself desperately trying to work out how to stay alive. Not so much physically, but emotionally, spiritually because I knew I was literally dying inside. And to keep myself sane throughout this struggle of life I remembered something I had heard in one of the many sermons I attended as a young adult. And that was one single phrase that has stayed with me.
"I choose life. I choose blessings."
Sometimes I wanted so desperately to let go - I thought it would be so much easier, I thought I might get some rest; to shut off the many voices that played through my mind 24/7 It wasn't time. I replaced the thought with,
"I choose life. I choose blessings"
I had a life. Yes I most certainly had a life; better described as more of an existence. Parts of this existence I was actually content; no less painful there were days, weeks, and months of dealing with emotional and mind bending insecurities This is when I would dig deep and fight down the negative feelings and forge ahead, scrambling to build up a full head of steam in comparison to that of a locomotive and it wasn't long before life would crowd out the fractious, nettlesome, nagging thoughts and instead became totally focused on the expectations of career and family; my blinders and masks.
It was the constant telling myself that it was psychological anxiety and a heavy dose of sanctimonious mental attitude, a work your ass off commitment, and a false belief; denial, that could only come from my constant bed partner, my fictitious self that kept me functional through it all. I still had my doubts that I was doing the right thing; that vague uneasiness, that nagging sense that something wasn't quite right, a miss. But hey I was set on making a lot of people proud, really proud and in the end be proud of myself to boot. This was my promise, my vow, my commitment.
Making the commitment to change my life and then doing something about it became the most important, most vital steps to create the life I wanted. However, when you have difficulty understanding how capable you are of creating what you want, your own insecurities or doubts can derail you. When you are motivated and determined, however, you can hold yourself to the course you have chosen. You can use the power of positive thinking to propel you forward, as you stay focused on taking the necessary steps. By imagining change weaving into your life successfully, you create a mind-set that allows for the results you desire to manifest. Commit yourself to implementing change today, and you will find yourself fearlessly creating what you want in life.
Twenty two years later......and now 38 I had accomplished everything I'd set out to do. My social life? What social life? What was a social life anyway? For me it was like pulling teeth, hens teeth. After years of trying to even have one I finally gave up on it and was now non-existent, didn't care. I grew tired of the users and abusers of my empathies, and giving and caring nature. They only came around when they were in need of something; sob sisters. I was tired of listening to the complaints of the negative people in order to feel valued. Tired of my energy being drained, feeling boxed-in, and ill at ease." So my choice, my lifeline of preservation was total detachment. I poured myself into my life and blocked everything out that was dragging me down.
I graduated, with highest honors from my medical college courses at 28 and then high school at age 31. I now had a 10 year career in Gerontology and though unnecessary, holding two other lower status positions elsewhere just to supplement the income, more to the point keeping me physically and mentally engaged and pushing through.
So why wasn't it feeling right. It wasn't feeling anymore right than it had twenty-two years ago. I'd met my commitment but something was still haunting me and haunting me more and more. And you know when there are those times when truth runs faster than fiction. Particularly when I was really tired, to the point of exhaustion, or in those rarest of times when I allowed myself to become very very still. These times for me were the times I most hated because it was then that my private reality rudely and uninvited surfaced, only to taunt and ridicule me. The commitment itself wasn't what haunted me now, but the rationalization and motive behind it. Sure my fictitious self was pleased overall but my authentic self , was empty and left wanting. I was far from being animatedly involved in my own life even after all I had accomplished. I felt trapped by it. Where was my passion, hope, optimism and energy. I'd left them behind and became a part of the roles assigned by an insensitive and frequently hurtful world. This had become my concept of self, my life? I was living a life pleasing to so many people, most of them well intended, but not for myself. I was doing what I was doing simply because it was what was expected of me, what everyone else wanted me to do and be. I was also living in a place I did not consciously choose to live. As a matter of fact it would have been the last place of choice. The only thing about my life that was real was my vocation of choice. I was passionate about my life's main work. Outside of that my authentic self was suffocating and I had let it happen. And to add to the jeopardy, my health was deteriorating.
I suffered with IBS and Asthma as well. And the stress of it all only added to the mix. I was on so many medications to control my life. To add to this mix I was allergic to pollens, grasses, trees, ragweed, feathers, and cat dander. I was chronically congested and after being on so many anti- inflammatories, a battering of antihistamines and needing antibiotics I developed a chronic Sinus infection. And don't get me started on the feminine gender of health issues; cycles and Menopause!
"Make no doubt about it: all drugs are toxic and have the definite capability to lessen longevity!"
Coupled with the nutrient-poor diet and the weakening of immune system this witches cauldron of dependency on medications to feel normal and nutritional deficiencies has been destructive to my health as I've aged It has been what lead to every one of frequent and chronic illnesses that I have had.
Fictitious self be damned. It was time to start pushing back!
"Don't compromise yourself You are all you've got." Janis Choplin
Yup definitely ME time!
I'm well on my way! Mind body and spirit are finally in sinc! This has been MY year! Finally after too many years! I won't say wasted years because it was mostly the environment and influences back then that effected my life and I wasn't really given the choice until 15 years ago. I got out of a life's situation, got my mind and spirit in sinc and my health; once I knew what I could physically do to correct things as well which was a Hysterectomy and balancing hormones with Bio-identical hormones, about a year and a half ago. My doctor said if I didn't do something I would be dead in five year! So I radically changed my diet to Nutritarian and increased my physical activity!
Until then weightloss was non-existent.
Now LOOKOUT WORLD HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!
In the summer of 2010, I made the firm decision to follow the nutritarian diet-style. At that time I was 49-years-old and suffered from severe food addiction, obesity, pre-diabetes, heart disease, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, shortness of breath; Asthma, hypertension, high cholesterol, chronic fatigue, bloating, brain fog, severe low back and leg pain due to Arthritis. I couldn't climb a flight of stairs without needing to stop numerous times to catch my breath, and the extra weight was causing increased leg pain which made me increasingly immobile with each passing day. My blood pressure was 150/87, and I knew that I was sitting on a ticking time bomb. My doctor told me that it was not a matter of if , I'd have a heart attack or stroke, but "when". I wouldn't make it to my 55th birthday. And that was my wake-up call to change two years ago.
Within a year's time I lost 80 lbs. and have eradicated ALL the aforementioned diseases from my life. However, most importantly, the overwhelming cravings for high-fat, salty, processed junk foods and sweets, that consumed my every waking moment for over thirty years, gradually subsided, and then completely went away for the first time in my adult life.
My success with getting healthy, for the first time in my life, which obviously included weight loss, was a direct result of understanding the science and logic behind Dr. Fuhrman's nutritional recommendations. My perspective changed from deprivation dieting (starving myself to obesity) to eating for the best health that's possible.
I still have a number of pounds to lose but one thing I do know is that I will never return to that former life again!
LIKE MANY OTHERS BEFORE ME THEE ARE THE THINGS I'VE LEARNED AND NOW ACCEPTED AS MY LIFELINE
THE WAGON MENTALITY
The wagon mentality and deprivation dieting go hand-in-hand. "I fell off the wagon" basically translates into, I blew it so I might as well eat anything I want now. It invites cheating and binging. The nutritarian eating-style is not a diet to go on and off on a whim. Instead, it's an ongoing endeavor of flooding the body's cells with a comprehensive array of nutrients to fight disease and feel great for the rest of MY life. A well-nourished body will no longer crave toxic junk foods or be driven to overeat uncontrollably. Although a slip up may happen from time to time, the key to success is getting back up as quickly as possible and not dwelling on the mistake.
MODERATION IS A MYTH
There is no such thing as eating in moderation when it comes to toxic food's addictive power. Taking just one bite of an addictive food can be just as deceptive and dangerous as taking just one smoke for a former nicotine addict. It's much easier to keep addictive cravings extinguished than to be continually fighting obsessive compulsions, because it only takes a tiny spark to ignite them to full power again.
THERE ARE NO SHORTCUTS
Everyone has to cross over the threshold of withdrawal from toxic foods, and for most, it is no fun. Detoxification (or toxic hunger) is not pleasant but necessary. Some of the symptoms can include: headaches, nauseousness, weakness, fatigue, shakiness, irritability, and generally feeling blahh; just to name a few. It can be very uncomfortable for some and last up to several days, but once the symptoms have resolved, and if toxic foods are no longer consumed, the symptoms don't return.
NEVER GIVE UP
Hard times happen. When life is turned upside-down, it will take everything within to muster up the strength to keep going in the direction of health. But even if some days are like wading through quick sand, and itï¿½s a challenge to continue on, stay committed to making wise food choices as best as one can possibly manage. It may be only baby steps, but keep moving forward. There is never a valid excuse to throw in the towel and quit, especially during a season of crisis or great loss when one's body needs optimal nutrition the most to survive the extra demands put on it. The sun will shine again and happiness will return as one continues to stay the course. As Dr. Fuhrman states, "It will take strength. It will take effort. But the pleasures and rewards that you'll get from a healthy life will be priceless."
IT'S A PRIVILEGE TO GET HEALTH BACK
Those who will and do succeed long term will come to view the opportunity to earn health back a privilege, and they will do whatever it takes to live in the best health that's possible. This perspective enables a person to get past toxic cravings to thoroughly enjoy great tasting foods in their natural state. Additionally, this gives a tremendous amount of pleasure and satisfaction with the nutritarian eating-style which produces the ongoing and long term success!
I'VE BEEN PUSHING BACK EVER SINCE!
I AM MY AUTHENTIC SELF! DEAL WITH IT WORLD!
There are two options regarding commitment - your either IN or your OUT. There is no such thing as life in-between.
"There is a difference between good intentions and commitment. When you have good intentions in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient. When you are committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results."
My life today is the result of attitudes and choices in the past. My life tomorrow will be the result of attitudes and the choices I make today.
Many people blame their health and weight on their age. They think that as they get older, or after women go through menopause, they no longer have the ability to change the quality of their life or their bodies. I've just had another birthday this new year and I'm living proof that this couldn't be further from the truth!
We've all gotten to a point in our weight loss journey when things are chugging along nicely, we've passed several important, monumental goals and should be coming down the stretch for our ideal weight in the not too distant future? And suddenly we encounter that insane, split second moment of reasoning and we revert back to the behavior that got us into this mess in the first place. And it's not the first time. Frustrated at our seeming inability to close the deal- yet again! - we throw in the towel with overwhelming discouragement and go back to living a life well beneath our capabilities. Why does this keep happening, this dog chasing the tail syndrome? How can we really want (or need!) to do something so desperately and yet get in the way of our own progress just when things are going well? Why, why aren't we proceeding toward our goal anymore instead of backing away from it? Don't we want to accomplish this more than practically any other thing in our lives right now?
It's time we sat down in front of our mirrors and took a long hard look into ourselves and ask those questions we need to ask and be brutally honest in our answers. And then we have to take those answers and look at them with fresh eyes to figure out why it is that we have been blocking our own success. I realize everyone's story and background are different but what seems to be a common denominator is that for some reason we make others and their feelings and expectations trump our own
Then there's the old school of thinking of "I can't have that" so we starve ourselves with restrictions, elimination, and deprivation with trying to be committed and dedicated to our weightloss (diet) program of choice.,
Firstly, I am here to proclaim DIETS DON'T WORK! I will scream and proclaim this from the highest mountain, the Toronto's CN Tower, Calgary's Tower , the Seattle Space needle, Detroit's Chrysler building! I'd go to the top of the world if that's what it would take to get this information/knowledge out there! Because anything other than a lifestyle change comes with restrictions, eliminations, and deprivation. And the minute we put restrictions on what we can and cannot have, it's all one thinks about. Plus , dieting is a SHORT TERM way of thinking and a direct route to non-accomplishment. Do we plan on dieting all our lives? Because I can guarantee that WILL be our fate as long as we continue to allow ourselves to be vulnerably gullible and discriminated, taken advantage of by unhealthy, roller coaster, commercialized dieting programs that we'd pay money for, for the remainder of your lives. I certainly don't nor will I! No siree..I won't waste my time or money. Sorry, I know that's blunt but then truth usually is! Plus I can predict 100% accurately that if you choose to entrap yourself you will eventually fall off the diet for a period of time and then restart again and again down the road. Who wants to live like that? But those are and will be the consequences of your choice. You've set yourself up for sabotage right from the get go pure and simple! Stop the Sabotage! Stop it now! Stop adapting your station in life to where THEY think you belong. It's time to right this wrongheadedness. It's time to be committed and consistent to right-headedness and take back the controls! It's much more productive to make diet and lifestyle changes that we can live with long term; permanently, for life. No temporary restrictions, eliminations no deprivation, no falling "off track" by eating something THEY have told you you can't or shouldn't for the duration of your dieting journey to reach goal weight. That only causes you to be guilt ridden and embarrassed. I refuse to succumb to that degradation; humiliation. It ain't happening! Contrary to popular belief, you don't have to live the rest of your life that way. Do any of you feel that you're self-sabotaging your efforts to get fit? Why do you think that is? I don't. not any more!
My god, we know so much about nutrition and its powerful effects but even in this we've been duped; lead down the garden path because we've been given just enough knowledge but we were still missing that all important fundamental building block to life long success. It has been withheld; perhaps for a reason, ulterior motive? Think about it, face it, dieting has become an habitual lifestyle We grab hold of the most recent most popular weight loss diet with promises of to good to be true grandeur because we need to lose that no good influencing our lives, disease causing, life threatening poundage and of course we want progressive results not tomorrow not today but yesterday! And we lose the weight, not the ultimate goal weight but enough weight to make us think that just quite possibly this is THE ONE! And BOOM it happens We abruptly stop making the numbers magically go down both on the scale and the measuring tape. Another weightloss goal down the toilet and we move on to the next one because it holds more promise until BOOM it happens again. It's become a vicious never ending cycle this dieting roller coaster. Why because every last one of them are missing the mark, the crucial key of continuing weightloss and maintaining and keeping it off permanently.
So where is the crucial key of continuing weightloss and maintaining and keeping it off permanently? It's been right under our noses the entire time! It's been hiding in the nutritional quality of our diet all along! It's not enough to lower our fats, carbs, calories, sodium and eliminate refined carbs.
It is not sufficient to merely avoid fats. It is not sufficient for the diet to have a low glycemic index. It is not sufficient for the diet to be low in animal products. It is not sufficient for the diet to be mostly raw food. A truly healthy diet must be micronutrient rich and the micronutrient richness must be adjusted to meet individual needs. The foods with the highest micronutrient per calorie scores are green vegetables, colorful vegetables, and fresh fruits. For optimal health and to combat disease, it is necessary to consume enough of these foods that hold a micronutrient per calorie density,
Few people could expect to have optimal health without attention to the consumption of high micronutrient foods
It works for everyone. Yes, every person has unique nutritional needs, but assuring nutritional excellence is essential for everyone whether old, young, fit, overweight, healthy or ill, to achieve their overall health and weight goals. To accomplish this, the micronutrient quality (H=N/C) or nutrient density of an individual's diet must be increased accordingly.
It must offer a sound nutrition prescription for disease reversal and prevention
. Dr Joel Fuhrman
These, these were the crucial keys that were missing for me. This is what is turning my life around, eliminating toxic hunger, reversing health issues I've been having for years and the bonus is INCREDIBLE HEALTH AND WEIGHTLOSS
The 3 Steps To Incredible Health and Weightloss links
This is where it all begins!
Go get yours! Meet YOUR personal enemy toe to toe eye to eye and slay him!
I AM accomplishing that! WITHOUT A DOUBT!
Life is a whole new adventure! I've lost 96 so far and I STILL Have 60 to lose! And if I've got the determination and grit to go through with this.....
Sure, there's always going to be bumps in the tarmac along the way. But if I remember to set daily goals and if there is one that I don't meet? I won't sweat it! It's NOT failure just a non-accomplishment that can be accomplished another day. I refuse to beat myself up over it either. It's one day at a time. I never quit quitting.
Don't lose sight of your finish line because a few people running next to you quit the race. Your success is not connected to their choices. - Beth Jones
Cross my bridges.
Meet my challenges.
Reach out for my dreams, and bring them closer and closer to my heart.
Get rid of the "if only's" and get on with whatever I need to do to get things right.
Go after what I want in life, with all the blessings of all the people who care. And find out what making my wishes come true really feels like.
My power is knowing that despite the setbacks and hurdles that I may face, I still have the opportunity to do my personal best! Progress not Perfection!
We know that it is more than just weight loss; more than eating less and exercising more. It's Knowledge!
I Keep on moving forward
So Let's FINALLY DO IT RIGHT AND GETTER DONE!
There are two options regarding commitment - your either IN or your OUT. There is no such thing as life in-between.
A person who wants something will find a way.. A person who doesn't will find an excuse...
APRIL BABY -------------------Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
I am a very creative crafty person I love interior decorating, and landscaping I also do oil painting. My favourite authors are Steven King, Robert Ludlum. There is just my DH myself and we have eight cats and three dogs.They are our family
Secrets of Success
| Pounds lost: 5.0
TODAY Is MY tomorrow. It's up to ME to shape it, To TAKE CONTROL and seize EVERY opportunity. The POWER is in the choices I make EVERY day. I eat well, I live well I SHAPE ME!
THE EMPOWERED LIFE. EXPECT IT . BELIEVE IT. RECEIVE IT.
The human will is the most incredible thing. It's keeps us going, when everyone else expects us to quit.
THIS MEANS WAR AGAINST FAT:
I'm to positive to be doubtful, too optimistic to be fearful, and too determined to be defeated.
I WILL Fight for it. I will NOT give up.
I WILL reach my goal and ABSOLUETLY NOTHING will stop me!
Life can only be understood backward. Unfortunately it can only be lived forward.
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