I just read your blog and could really understand what you are feeling. As soon as someone hesitates when I suggest doing something I immediately jump to the conclusion that something is wrong about me. Why do we do that to ourselves? I have always tried to please everyone and felt shame and guilt when I did not meet their expectations of what they thought I should be or do. I dealt with those feelings by comforting myself with food. I am just learning to deal with the results of that life-long behavior at this late stage of my life. . . but it is NEVER to late to change and grow! I’m not saying that we should always put ourselves first but that we definitely deserve our place at the front of the line at times! Let’s all “put ourselves first” at least once every day!
“Dedicate yourself to the good you deserve and desire for yourself. Give yourself peace of mind. You deserve to be happy. You deserve delight.” Mark Victor Hansen
Stay focused on your goals, determined to reach them, and positive that you will! Sheila