Me in my new size 18 jeans.
Me after losing the first 10kgs
The before pic. 105kgs
Hi everyone. I'm here on my weight loss journey. I'm aiming to lose 50kgs to reach my goal weight of 55kgs. I have lost the first 10kgs and I have 45kgs to go. I have decided to stop weighing myself monthly. The reason is that I really do have a scale watching habit and I can get onto the scale as easily as 4-5 times a day. The scale can really change my mood and upset me in a minute when I see the numbers creeping up. Hence, I have decided to kick the scale watching habit. I don't own a scale now and when I want to weigh myself, I do it at any shop which sells scales. I just step on it to weigh and I step off once I get my weight.
I have been an emotional eater as far back as I can remember. Dealing with emotional eating and staying away from binging has been the biggest challenges in my life. It has been 7 years since I last went on a binge. And since there's no binging, I don't crave anything in particular too. I don't have any restricted food list and I allow myself to eat everything that appeals to me. I make sure I eat regularly and keep my portion sizes small. I am happy to stay that I've been successful in staying binge free for 7 years.
I have been practicing mindful eating. That means that when I eat, I pay attention to my food, the way it looks, it's texture, temperature and taste. I take small bites, making sure that I taste the food and chew it very slowly and enjoy every single bite. This has helped me to cut down my portion sizes as now I am satisfied with less since I am enjoying my food. I make sure that I pay attention to my feelings prior to and while eating. I take care of myself emotionally and allow myself to feel my feelings instead of 'eating' them.
The reason I'm here is to change my life, one day at a time. I'm taking tiny little steps towards a healthy lifestyle. Feel free to add me as a spark friend or send me an email regarding anything you wanna talk about. BTW, please email me if you add me as a friend because for some reason, I never get any alerts on who adds me and I really have no other way of finding out if you've added me. Thanks.
I recently had a gallbladder surgery done (January 2012) laproscopically. Gallstones hurt and I'm glad to have had that chapter behind me. I am now totally focussed on recovery and well-being.
I'm curious how I would look like when I hit my goal weight. Never been there! I want to lose weight as quickly as I can but as slowly as I need to. I am not rushing this and I am giving myself and my body plenty of time to lose weight. If I had to put a time frame on it, I would say I give myself 2 years.
When I first started out, I was calorie counting and I kept my calorie intake to 1400 calories per day. I also exercised 4-5 times a week. However, I got involved in a motorbike accident which caused some damage to my knees and forced me to stop exercising. I could not even do the simple walking that I used to do. This really forced me to look at my eating patterns because previously I was eating following a calorie counting process and exercising too. But 1400 calories really left me feeling hungry most of the time. I was not willing to continue a restricted calorie diet. In fact, I quit dieting altogether. I decided to eat mindfully and really pay attention to my food. When I did that, my portion sizes dropped dramatically and I began losing weight further.
Beside mindful eating, I also pay close attention to my feelings and really take care of myself. If I am tired, I take a break and sleep. If I am bored, I do something to occupy myself. If I am restless I meditate or self talk. If I need a hug, I ask for it. If I want to talk, I find someone to talk to. I do whatever that's necessary for my well-being. I put myself first.
I pay close attention to my body too. I eat only when I am hungry and I stop just when I am getting full. I enjoy the feeling of lightness and hence I don't stuff myself with food any more.
Sometimes my body tells me that it needs some exercise. I feel this when my legs kinda feel tense or my arms are restless. So I do some stretching. Now I exercise because my body tells me to do it and not because of my mind or my prior beliefs that I should exercise everyday.
Everyday that I practice mindful eating and listening to my body, I am getting more confident and courageous. If I can do it, you can too.
A quote I love:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves - who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous? But honestly, who are you to not be so?
105kg - 31 Oct 2011
55kg (goal weight)
Mindful eating, taking care of my emotional self and my physical body.
I'm a happily married mother of 2 children aged 2 years old and 1 year old. One of my main motivators to lose weight are my children. I want to be around for them. I want to have lots of energy to play with them.
Other reasons why I want to lose weight are:
1. To look good
2. To be healthy
3. To be totally comfortable in my own body.
4. To look good in the clothes that I choose for myself.
| current weight: 200.0