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That's me on the left in 2007. Boy have I changed. I'm hoping to get back to that some day . . .





Long ago (2007) I was thin and fit and it felt so good.Hope seeing this helps me get back in shape.








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I woke up one morning and I was fat!!!! How could that have happened? It was terrifying. I was Twice the weight that I'm supposed to be!!! Almost equally awful was realizing that I was so completely without a clue. Scary.

It's so embarrassing. I was in such incredibly great shape 3 years ago, but as my mother's health went down, my weight went up.

I am married to a wonderful man - we've been together for 29 years. We still are crazy in love with one another. ...
I woke up one morning and I was fat!!!! How could that have happened? It was terrifying. I was Twice the weight that I'm supposed to be!!! Almost equally awful was realizing that I was so completely without a clue. Scary.

It's so embarrassing. I was in such incredibly great shape 3 years ago, but as my mother's health went down, my weight went up.

I am married to a wonderful man - we've been together for 29 years. We still are crazy in love with one another. We couldn't have kids, but we've had a lot of cats. Right now we just have one who was about 8 years old when she moved in. We're still in the bonding stage and getting closer every day.

In 2009 my mother died in terrible pain. It was the most horrific experience of my life. My sister and I could tell that the medical establishment just didn't want to try to help her because she was old in their opinion. She was 89 and more vital and alive than anyone else I've ever known. She was not ready to sure and could have ben helped. I miss my mother and my father and feel that a huge part of me is gone for good now. But the way my mother died, and our inability to help her haunts me. I've had some wonderful therapy inthe form of EMDR. I urge anyone suffering from PTSD to get EMDR Many therapists are qualified now because it is so successful with returning vets. Also Sparkpeople has helped me come back to feeling that I have a reason to go on. I've been amazed by how much support this site gives.

My husband and I moved from California to Illinois to live in my parents' house for a while as we sift through the many wonderful things they left for my sister and me. They were very rare, creative, and productive people. I feel close to them here. I learn from them ever day. I am so lucky to have so many reminders of thm: philosophical cartoons/paintings by my father (he told me one that he did one every day as a form of meditation), letters, research, books and collections. It's a lot of work to go through these things. We take our time.

I know that grief caused my huge and sudden weight gain.

I am so very lucky. I am surrounded with love. I want to get in touch with my happiness my true self as I journey to my true weight.
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Just saw this quote by Gabourey "Gabby" Sidibe, the star of Precious (2009) and I'd like to feel this way about myself:

"I learned to love myself, because I sleep with myself every night and I wake up with myself every morning, and if I don't like myself, there's no reason to even live the life. I love the way I look. I'm fine with it. And if my body changes, I'll be fine with that."

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DS9KIE
1/24/2015 4:53:41 PM

hey you crave chocolate like I do....I can't have chocolate in the house cause I will just eat it until its gone (no matter how much) in one day...maybe if I'm lucky two days

So what do you do to help with the cravings?



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1/21/2015 10:20:35 PM

It's great that you have opened your home to feral and semi-tamed cats!
I am not quite able to do that yet - I mainly deal with surrenders & newborns
Maybe one day :)



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DS9KIE
1/21/2015 5:15:51 PM

see I knew you would be good McDougall team leader...you have great articles that are about McDougall. I have alot of info but its not all about McDougall...its plant based,vegetarian, ect...not about meat) which is ok but you got to have stuff and understanding about McDougall...boy you sure do.

Thanks for the goodie...I think I have the flu or something like that cause I sure have been having a stomach ache and then just not feeling good. But I'm getting better.

see ya



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DS9KIE
1/17/2015 9:14:54 AM

on The McDougall Diet page I think if you put an emoticon emoticon and say do not post might get people to stop better(I've seen that on other team post)...what is funny is that people still posted

I think something is wrong with the post cause it looks like one big link that doesn't work (hard to read too)



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DS9KIE
1/15/2015 11:23:28 AM

hey hows it going?

wow that was alot of great post you posted today....and that soup sounds yummy and best of all easy

ok ok I put off doing my exercise looong enough so here I go...

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