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That's me on the left in 2007. Boy have I changed. I'm hoping to get back to that some day . . .





Long ago (2007) I was thin and fit and it felt so good.Hope seeing this helps me get back in shape.








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I woke up one morning and I was fat!!!! How could that have happened? It was terrifying. I was Twice the weight that I'm supposed to be!!! Almost equally awful was realizing that I was so completely without a clue. Scary.

It's so embarrassing. I was in such incredibly great shape 3 years ago, but as my mother's health went down, my weight went up.

I am married to a wonderful man - we've been together for 29 years. We still are crazy in love with one another. ...
I woke up one morning and I was fat!!!! How could that have happened? It was terrifying. I was Twice the weight that I'm supposed to be!!! Almost equally awful was realizing that I was so completely without a clue. Scary.

It's so embarrassing. I was in such incredibly great shape 3 years ago, but as my mother's health went down, my weight went up.

I am married to a wonderful man - we've been together for 29 years. We still are crazy in love with one another. We couldn't have kids, but we've had a lot of cats. Right now we just have one who was about 8 years old when she moved in. We're still in the bonding stage and getting closer every day.

In 2009 my mother died in terrible pain. It was the most horrific experience of my life. My sister and I could tell that the medical establishment just didn't want to try to help her because she was old in their opinion. She was 89 and more vital and alive than anyone else I've ever known. She was not ready to sure and could have ben helped. I miss my mother and my father and feel that a huge part of me is gone for good now. But the way my mother died, and our inability to help her haunts me. I've had some wonderful therapy inthe form of EMDR. I urge anyone suffering from PTSD to get EMDR Many therapists are qualified now because it is so successful with returning vets. Also Sparkpeople has helped me come back to feeling that I have a reason to go on. I've been amazed by how much support this site gives.

My husband and I moved from California to Illinois to live in my parents' house for a while as we sift through the many wonderful things they left for my sister and me. They were very rare, creative, and productive people. I feel close to them here. I learn from them ever day. I am so lucky to have so many reminders of thm: philosophical cartoons/paintings by my father (he told me one that he did one every day as a form of meditation), letters, research, books and collections. It's a lot of work to go through these things. We take our time.

I know that grief caused my huge and sudden weight gain.

I am so very lucky. I am surrounded with love. I want to get in touch with my happiness my true self as I journey to my true weight.
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Just saw this quote by Gabourey "Gabby" Sidibe, the star of Precious (2009) and I'd like to feel this way about myself:

"I learned to love myself, because I sleep with myself every night and I wake up with myself every morning, and if I don't like myself, there's no reason to even live the life. I love the way I look. I'm fine with it. And if my body changes, I'll be fine with that."

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10/20/2014 10:05:47 PM

Thank you for checking out my vlog and commenting. I totally respect that you want to go oil free. We do that a lot as well and just sautée with water instead a lot of times. Every once in a while we'll add the oil when we feel a recipe needs it for the flavor and consistency, and especially when we are sharing our vegan food with non vegans to ensure it has that extra yum factor. If you do make it, please let me know how it goes, especially without the oil.

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10/20/2014 4:03:00 AM

Thank you for the goodie and the suggestions. I am too busy (having just moved) to explore any new teams or books right now but I may look into the team you mentioned later. Have a wonderful week!



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10/19/2014 7:17:18 PM

Thank you so much for sharing the Extinction Bursts link with us. Can't even begin to tell you what a difference it made to me. Really can't thank you enough!




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10/19/2014 3:30:53 PM

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OOLALA53
10/19/2014 3:26:51 PM

Saw your comment on Living Binge Free. Yay for your new eating habits!

I wish potatoes were all it took to alleviate my mental/emotional issues. BTW, I also lead the team The NO S Diet, which also recommend three meals a day, no snacks, seconds, or sweets. Any and every other food is okay, unless the individual decides to make her own restrictions, but caution is recommended at that. Best to experiment over long periods of time, months or more, and seeing if consumption decreases on its own. It may take some thought and effort, but usually a lot less than a traditional diet. Exceptions are allowed on weekends, but they are not obligatory. Eventually, most days look like each other. I've lost and kept off about 40 lbs. over nearly five years Have had some recent rocky times, but it's still the backbone of my habits.



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