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One day at a time...NO MATTER WHAT

I've been a yo-yo dieter for the last 8-10 years, mostly off, sometimes on, with some brief success followed by dismal failure. I also struggle with addiction - to alcohol, drugs, men, food, sex, shopping, you name it, I can overdo it! Some of my history, I lost 60 pounds from August 2007-March 2008, which I quickly put back on when I stopped doing the things I did to lose the weight and got with my ex-boyfriend. I've been stuck in between 150-175 pounds ever since then, losing 5 pounds ...
I've been a yo-yo dieter for the last 8-10 years, mostly off, sometimes on, with some brief success followed by dismal failure. I also struggle with addiction - to alcohol, drugs, men, food, sex, shopping, you name it, I can overdo it! Some of my history, I lost 60 pounds from August 2007-March 2008, which I quickly put back on when I stopped doing the things I did to lose the weight and got with my ex-boyfriend. I've been stuck in between 150-175 pounds ever since then, losing 5 pounds here, gaining 10 there, all the while hating my body and myself. I have learned that dieting and exercising can be an obsession and an addiction for me and so I am trying to learn how to lose weight and get in better shape safely without acting out in obsessive-compulsive behaviors like constant calorie counting and measuring of EVERYTHING (ketchup, coffee creamer, etc.). I am in recovery for alcohol and drug addiction and I had been sober 2 and a half years, since April 15th, 2011, but I relapsed and continued to do so off and on, getting 30 days here, 42 days there, etc. I currently have 30 days today (my new sobriety date is 05/07/14). In recovery, there is a saying "progress, not perfection" and this is a concept I struggle with when it comes to losing weight - I am an "all or nothing" girl and any failure on my part turns into a binge that lasts for days, weeks, sometimes months (the same is true of relapsing on alcohol and/or drugs). I am trying to break the habit of alternating between punishing myself for slipping up and giving up entirely when I have setbacks and I have turned my life over to a Higher Power (whom I choose to call "God") - I am learning to ask for help and reach out, and to also practice the 12th step, which means carrying the message to other people like myself. I am addressing my codependency and my addictions. I am happy today and while I am not completely at peace with myself I am finding more and more peace as I work my program, talk to my sponsor, and address the issues that have held me back all of these years.
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Member Since: 3/12/2007

SparkPoints: 7,992

Fitness Minutes: 9,444

My Goals:
- Participate in my first 5K (the Dance Dash 5K)

- reduce consumption of soda, sugar and red meat

- drink more water

- meditate/write daily

My Program:
- weights training with my roommate and accountability partner 3x per week (M, W, F)

- take out time for ME (bubble baths, polishing nails, getting hair done, etc.) as rewards and when I really just need it

- walk/jog at least 2-3 times per week (3.5 miles each time)

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RPCLEM2000
7/24/2013 12:54:41 AM

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7/15/2013 5:28:41 PM

You can look at a mountain as a wild place of beauty to view or paint or photograph from a safe distance; or a wild place capable of destruction like Mount St. Helens. Or you can look at it as a wild challenge that you take on one step at a time. When you begin the challenge you'll have no idea how long it will take to get to the top, but you know you will with the support of your team.

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7/14/2013 6:49:40 PM

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DARKCHILD
7/11/2013 9:05:08 AM

First of all, congratulations on your new house! emoticon The Serenity Prayer is one I depend on a lot as well! Sometimes I have to repeat it over and over and over........
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YELLOW09RED
7/10/2013 11:37:37 AM

emoticon Welcome to the Virtual Walk/Run Challenge team.
I hope you have fun with everyone.
Have a nice summer,
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