Dinner with the fams.
10/23/16 - sitting pretty.
90% what you put in, 10% what you put out.
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I've come to a point where I feel like I'm fighting a battle every day. My faith is weak, my emotions are strong, and I have let my eating get out of control. I do not feel like I have been "restored to sanity" but quite the opposite. I'm no stranger to struggles - I've fought against addictions, abuse, bad relationships, unhealthy eating, emotional and mental breakdowns, and somehow I'm still here. I know that I have a big God who can handle all of my problems and that I am not capable of fixing anything on my own, but at this point, I am not sure I want to lay anything else at His feet (see blog). I'm angry and confused. As far as my weight loss goes, I've been setting goals lately and sometimes reaching them - I'm getting real sick of that rollercoaster. I get up and hit the gym every morning (ok, mmost mornings...) before work - because I know if I let myself slip one time, I'll want to do it every time - but my eating is completely out of control. I've been watching the scale bounce back and forth with the same 5-10 pounds for years now. It's ridiculous - and I know WHAT to do, but actually doing it is much harder. I am seeing a therapist to attempt to get some of my emotional problems in check so I don't feel the need to stuff my face to "make myself feel better" (what a lie!), but it's hard when there is temptation all around me. I'm trying to get stronger. My goals are to lose 40# by the wedding (6.5 months away), and to log 1,000 miles by the wedding (~5 miles/day). I need help and lots of it.
Mon - legs/abs, cardio, clean aunt's house
Tues - cardio, circuit, meeting
Wed - arms/abs, cardio, therapy
Thurs - cardio, circuit, meeting
Fri - abs, cardio, sponsor
Sat - cardio, fam time
Sun - REST
Sobriety/Cessation (smoking) Bday - May 7th 2014 (2016)
Anniv. (dating) w/John - July 13th
Birthday - October 21st
Wedding - 05/06/2017
I like to read, go to the gym, go to concerts and movies, I spend a lot of time attending meetings and church and activities associated with both - I don't have a lot of free time - trying to learn to have more balance and take out time for myself and just do NOTHING.
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| current weight: 171.0
What a sweet message you left on my friend feed! I'm just so overjoyed that you have found love and joy! After all you've been through, you deserve to a great big happily-ever-after!
3 days ago
Stephanie, I am so happy for you! If i didn't live so far away, I'd be nagging you to invite me to your wedding! I'm cheering you on from afar! So grateful for your joy!
10 days ago
I have been thinking about you and wondering how you are doing..
321 days ago
Just stopped by to wish you a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY from the Weekly Challenge Team. I pray you have a special day of celebration. And I wish you the very best.
371 days ago
Stephani! Thank you for that wonderful list of acronyms! I laughed all the way through. My sister and her husband have been in AA for twenty or more years, and they probably know most of these, but just in case, I have copied it and am sending it along to them. I went to an open meeting with them when I visited them last month in Florida, and I loved every minute of it! Two people got up and told their stories, and those stories were full of pain and sorrow, but the most amazing thing was their sense of humor about it all. I was in awe and had the best time! Everybody was laughing and joyful. Of course, there were a few scared newcomers, too, but the atmosphere was just so warm and hopeful.
391 days ago