Until this year (2013) I had focused my ALL to raise my 2 children. Now they are healthy, happy, educated, responsible young adults. I love them to the moon and stars. I don't regret one minute of putting them first over all things for the past 20 years, including myself.
When they were little (grade 4-5) people used to say to me, you know, you are going to have to let them go one day! I thought to myself yep, I will - but not today...
When I woke up the day after my daughter's graduation, I knew that the day had come.
It is now my turn to be proud of myself. Focus on me.
Somewhere down the road I crossed the line to obese. I am not comfortable here. I used to be the strongest person I knew, I skied, swam, biked and laughed. I don't know where that person went. I would like to find her.
I know there are people out there watching to see how I manage without my kids because I literally lived for them. I know there are people waiting for me to fail. This time, I am not doing this to show ANYONE I can do this. This next stage is just for me - win loose or draw.
My desires are to run my dogs in agility with energy and for the sheer fun of it. We have 4 dogs. The 2 Australian shepherds are agility dogs that my daughter and I train and run. The German shepherd is trained in search and rescue, disaster and rubble, by my husband (much too serious a business for me) however I do take him to play agility sometimes. It can't all be math math math you gotta have PE sometimes. And one old fart who started the whole "everybody's-gotta-have-a-dog" mess. He is a lab/sheltie cross who would work himself to death to please his people. He started agility at 8-1/2 years old, and qualified for the Nationals twice. He will be 14 in January 2014 and I don't know what my life will be like with out him.
I am treating my spark experience as an online course. I've joined Spark Coach for a full year and plan to make a daily commitment to it.
I started yoga in May of 2012. Kripalu yoga is teaching me to be gentle on myself - body mind and spirit. I believe this to be the biggest factor in getting me back to Spark with a desire to put myself in a high place of importance.
I would like to put the 50 pounds of extra weight I carry daily into a backpack in the form of tent, food, cooking gear and go hiking in the mountains. That way I will be able to take it off when I want to. While there I plan to leave the weight of the weight in the mountains.
I eliminated wheat from my diet in July 2013. It has been easier than I thought so far. I am looking forward to seeing if it will eliminate joint pain, flatulence and that darn belly. After 4 months I can say it has made a difference, less flatulence, my rings swing on my fingers and my belly is not hard and distended all the time. I've lost 18 pounds that I could not loose in the past. I know that I have changed other things in my life but I feel this is a serious contributing factor.
At 183 pounds I will have reduced my body mass by 20%. I feel this is significant enough to have an hour long massage. ohh can't wait.
at 179 pounds - I haven't seen a 7 in my weight since 1995. Weighing 200 pound before the birth of my 2nd child I was unable to reduce my weight to pre prego weight forever thus. This will be the beginning of a new era. I would like to join a running program at this time which I am hoping to be close to the new year.
At 167 pounds I will be on the borderline of over weight and healthy weight on the BMI scale therefore eligible for a breast reduction. This was another catapult back to Spark as I was denied to be on a list because of my weight. It seems that this was just the news I was waiting for. It gave me a reason above all other reasons.
At 160 pounds I will be the weight I was after the birth of my son in 1994. Here I would like to stay for 6-8 months to try maintenance for a BIG change.
Longer term (withing 2.5 years) - aim for 145-155 pounds. I will work with my Dr to see if this is something I should do or will even want to do. time will tell.
long long term (within 5 years) Hike to a mountain village in Peru. Maybe Matchu Pichu (maybe by then I will know how to spell it! ;-) )
new goals Oct 1/13
a vision board
a list to show I am taking responsibility for WHY I am over overweight
#1 I want to be medically eligible for a breast reduction.
#2 Hike in the mountains:
mountains of PERU or CHILE
-an 8 on the scale - Achieved Sept/13
a 7 on the scale
-join an 8 week exercise class - Reward=new runners)
sept 4/13 TRX/Spin
(reward new shorts)
Add regular routine of strength training to my program
- be off the obese scale - achieved Oct/13 (reward=new sweater set and scarf)
- swim 1 length of the pool - achieved Nov 5/13 (reward=new swim goggles)
Yoga, childs pose with knees together head on the floor
be able to do up and spin my skirts around my waist.
Achieved Oct 25/15
X-C ski or snowsh
My plan is to change one thing at a time so I know what works and what doesn't.
kripalu yoga may 2012 eliminated wheat.
Aug 1 added 10 minute daily structured exercise (cardio & strenght)
Sept/13 joined a fitness class 60 mins x 2/week
A list of reward ideas:
gem stone pendants for my silver box chain
- eye lash tint by Maria's esthetics (I hate mascara)
- swim goggles DONE
-shoes dress, runners, BOGS gum boots
-hand drill with lazer light (man size drills are too heavy)
-give $ to friend/family members to buy surprise rewards. Give them a list of my goals so they can match.
nice panty sets
| current weight: 179.0
Hope you are well.
842 days ago
.•*¨) -:¦:- Just for Today I have decided to take the path of change.
¸.•*¨) -:¦:- Just for Today I CHOOSE to improve my quality of life.
¸.•*¨) -:¦:- Just for Today I AM the priority!
¸.•*¨) -:¦:- Just for Today I am a success, even if it is only for today!
¸.•*¨) -:¦:- Just for Today I am beautiful!!
-:¦:- -:¦:- I will make EVERY Day... Today! -:¦:-
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(. ;.•.♥ Wishing you a wonderful day full of sunshine and love!!! ♥•.:.)
863 days ago
Have a SUPER Sunday girlfriend :)
873 days ago
Thank you so much for the goodie and the note !
I can't believe how busy you are!
Good luck with everything!
Keep Sparking :)
878 days ago
Today is National Hugging Day!
National Hugging Day
It is National Hugging Day,
The day we show we care.
Wrap our arms around each other,
Lean in and share
The things we feel inside,
Love we sometimes hide.
It's National Hugging Day,
So we take the time.
We pause along the street,
Look into the eyes,
Consider emotions and
Ask the questions why
We feel the way we do.
Reach out, let hearts touch,
Share ourselves on this day,
An example that means so much.
885 days ago