Hi my name is Sylvia, welcome to my page!

Well, my struggles with weight started when I was a child. In my family food was a reward. I specifically remember getting to go out to a hamburger place or ordering a pizza if I didn't miss any days of school or if I got good grades. Growing up I never really felt self conscious about my weight. The doctor once told my mom that I was chubby but that I would probably lose the weight when I hit puberty. Well, that ...

Hi my name is Sylvia, welcome to my page!

Well, my struggles with weight started when I was a child. In my family food was a reward. I specifically remember getting to go out to a hamburger place or ordering a pizza if I didn't miss any days of school or if I got good grades. Growing up I never really felt self conscious about my weight. The doctor once told my mom that I was chubby but that I would probably lose the weight when I hit puberty. Well, that came and went and the weight stayed on.

Food has definitely been connected to my emotions since I can remember. When I felt sad or lonely I would go grab a bag of chips, when I felt happy I'd reach for some ice cream. Things went like this for a long time, and then when I started college I decided that I was going to do something about it. I got up and ran every single day, ate healthfully from the dining commons, and worked out when I wasn't doing homework. I got down to 115lbs and looked fabulous. Then I met some people who introduced me to the campus' fast food outlets and within a few months I had gained most of the weight back.

The past 5 years of my life have been like this- a constant struggle of losing and gaining weight; a constant struggle of placing the blame of the weight gain on anything other than myself. I got introduced to spark people in September of 2008 and I did very well for about 3 months. However, I did not see the results that I expected (I wasn't being strict enough with the program and I started getting lazy at the gym) so I quit. I am at my heaviest weight, 175lbs and I can't stand it. I finally realized that I am only a few pounds off of 200 and that is somewhere where a 5'2" person like me should not be.

Well, I can now admit how I got this way- I ate to make myself feel better, it was my decision and I could have done something about it, but I decided not to. I am so tired of being fat! I have a fabulous boyfriend of almost 4 years who loves and supports me and everything I do, but I've relied too long on the fact that he loves me unconditionally. I have talked to him a lot about how I feel about myself and he agrees that he will help me all that he can by keeping me accountable and just saying "No" when I mention convenience foods. I think that's the hardest thing, to tell a loved one "No", but I will be better off!. I know that this is not going to be easy, but it is possible! My plan is to reach my target weight by this summer . I know that it may take me longer than 6 months to get there, but that is just a goal date that can and will probably be changed as I progress. I am taking this journey on full force and I will not give up no matter how hard it gets!

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