September 2012 at 165 goal
Me (at 279) and my three amazing kids...James age 9, Samuel age 21 months and Kaleigh age 15 1/2
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TRACYNOTGIVINUP is a SparkPeople Motivator!
Hello Everyone, my name is Tracy. I have been having a hard time for the past several months now. Here are some of my numbers to try to shorten my description:
Joined SP in July 286 pounds.
In September of 2012, I hit my goal weight of 165 pounds.
In April of 2012 I began running and loved it.
In July of 2012, I ran from start to finish my first 5K. I still loved it.
In December of 2012, I ran each day for a total of 100 miles.
In April of 2013, I began wondering what I was aiming for. I had a hard time keeping my weight in check and wasn't looking forward to my running anymore.
Since then I have been struggling. I have gained about 30 pounds back. I am very unhappy with myself and seem to keep grasping on different things to try to find my lifestyle, but thus far nothing has worked. I have tried running again, but am still finding it feeling like a chore, probably because I am looking at it as a job/chore and I am mad at myself that I am not in the shape I was just a year ago. After months of doing this, I made some new years resolutions, figuring that had to work. I feel like I MUST know what I need to do. But they came crashing down around day 10. I suppose I should note here, I am a food addict and I am pretty sure I suffer from binge eating disorder. I have been thinking for days, I decided that the time I was happiest was when I was active on Spark. I believe it is because I always searched myself and came up with goals and plans to achieve them. I need to do something to keep myself in check. So, here I am back sparking. I also searched my thoughts about starting a new name or coming back to this one. It is kinda shameful to look at what I had done on this old name and feel like I let others but mostly myself down. But then decided that this is what I need to do, go back to this girl who lost the weight, who found the motivation and determination to follow through with making goals and setting plans. I decided it was truly time to live up to my name on spark.....
Get back to my goal weight range of 163-168 pounds.
Find my love for running again.
Run a half marathon.
Get smaller and leaner, not skinny.
Eat in my calorie range
Weight lifting 3x a week
Running/cardio 3x a week
Learn that it doesn't have to be all or nothing
My name is Tracy.
I am 40 years old.
I live in Connecticut, USA.
I am married to my high school sweetheart, have been for 17 years.
I have 3 AMAZING children, Kaleigh, 18, James, 13 and Samuel 4 years.
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Big Bang Theory
UConn Huskies men basketball
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| current weight: 190.0