Thanks for the blog comment. I think realizing that I am worth taking care of is one of the hardest realizations I've ever dealt with. Because while the strong forefront of my mind says I am, the little nagging voice in the background still says "are ya sure about that?" And shutting that voice up is definitely a chore. As for the house.. I did get off my butt yesterday and deep clean it! I'm really going to try and make time for one big cleaning day a week, in which I'll do the floors and bathrooms and such. Then during the week, ill just make sure I put laundry away and wipe down counters. Little by little.. Somehow I will work everything out!