Monday, September 01, 2014
My friend Sheila posted this image in her blog this morning and it is perfect for where I am on my journey. September 1st. I have a reminder that pops up on my Google calendar every September 1st that reads, "BEWARE: September was a tough month for eating ..."
In the past, September has been the beginning of my downfall. There are lots of anniversaries that occur starting this month. Lots of things have happened in the Autumn and early Winter that have been tough in my life. But one thing I've learned, I don't need to eat my way through them. That will not fix any of my past. What will fix my past is laying it down, letting the past be the past and moving forward, taking good care of me.
I've had a tough year this year because of a new medical issue. I've regained some weight. I'm not upset about it, I know why it happened and I know how to fix it. In fact, half of the weight is gone already. September is going to be a great month, leading me into a wonderful Autumn and Winter. I'm taking care of me! I believe I've learned the lesson I need to learn related to my old Autumn and Winter behavior. I'm moving on!!
Friday, August 29, 2014
TaaaaDaaaa! My magic recliner! Yes, this is the place where I come to sit and relax after a long day's work. Where I curl up to read a good book. Where I sat last evening to work a little extra so that my department could have the evening off. Somehow, this magic recliner takes the stress and pulls it right out of me.
I suspect the magic recliner really has no actual power, just that I'm in a state ready to let it go. Whatever, I love the magic recliner. And so does Asher. He's on his favorite sofa cushion napping on his quilt right now or he'd be in the picture too.
Today, know that I'll be working from home in the magic recliner and all will go well. :)
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Work was REALLY stressful yesterday. OK, so I know it's the season, but it just kept on coming. I first thought to just sit at my desk and work through it. Then, it hit me, THAT is how I've done it in the past and that is what leads me to food to soothe me. By the end of the day, I'd be all worked up and feeling that I deserved a treat. After all, I'd suffered through the day. And my treat wouldn't be something healthy, but something that soothed. Something that made me feel cared for.
A co-worker IM'd me needing direction on something. When I responded, I also asked if she wanted to walk. THAT felt good. Taking care of me! Stayed OP. Dumping the self-punishing thought of just working through.
We walked, laughed, talked and shared a lot. We even took an extra lap because we weren't finished. I could even have tracked it as 1:1 time if anyone questioned it because we were sorting out work stuff at one point. :)
I arrived back feeling light-hearted. OK, lighter of heart. I know that the woman who is causing a lot of stress in our office is still very stressed and she's in a position of power. The project that is so stressful is not complete. Stress is going to continue. And I'm going to find a walking partner again today!
I gave myself a treat last night too. I went to my room early. Curled up in my reading chair and read. And dozed until my dog woofed for me to come to bed. What a blissful evening. Much better than indulging in food!
Saturday, August 23, 2014
Asher stands outside the shower EVERY morning looking in at me. He gives me this pleading look as if to say, "Pleaseeeee, I'd love to come in there with you. I won't take up much room. Pleaseeeeee!" But when I leave the door open and invite him in, he seems to know that it's not going to be as fun as he imagined. Maybe he remembers what happened last time. Maybe he knows that sometimes things are better left to the imagination. I can tell you that this morning, he was not happy as I allowed him in, gave him his bath and he got water up his nose!
But, isn't this the same thing that happens to a lot of us. We look at that item of food and think that maybe just one, or just an extra serving, or perhaps a day without exercise would be just the ticket to improving our state of being. For me, I need to be more like Asher ... hesitant to run jump in when I have one of these ideas! They usually aren't true. Typically, there is a small lie in there some place. Probably, I'm not going to have just one. Allowing an extra serving today leads to an extra one again tomorrow. Not doing my exercise today seems like permission for the entire weekend. Yep, I'm a creature of habit and I'm better off to keep them good habits. So is Asher ... he'd do better if he had a shower every day. That's probably the reason I take one each morning too! ;)
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