Tuesday, January 14, 2014
It's amazing how much better I feel these days, thank the Lord. I have so much motivation to take care of myself and get back to enjoying my health and trying new things to be stronger and healthier.
Thanks to my wonderful stepmomma, I received a Fitbit Force for Christmas and I am encouraged to race her and my sister in Tennessee for the most daily steps. Aside from getting the flu, I have really been running around, trying to stay active and get at least 10,000 steps in everyday, mostly with speed walking since my ankle is not ready for actual running. =P
I still cannot believe that I sprained it so badly on Thanksgiving Day. In a manner of speaking, I guess that I needed to be taken completely out of commission to truly let my knee heal and to learn to focus my attention on things outside of my food/weight issues and the control problems that I was having. A coping method that I have found to use when the urge to binge pops up is to go for a walk or march in place and increase my steps. I have also changed my routine around so that I eat dinner before my workout so that I am not tempted to purge if I feel too full or overate at all. If I feel that way, then I know that I'll work off the feeling and I keep control over the situation and my behavior. It also guarantees that I don't skip my workout because I was starving and ate dinner instead, as my old habit used to be. Every step counts! It's actually kind of funny because now that I'm focusing on making myself healthy and feel better, I've lost some of the weight that I gained while I was injured. What are the odds? =P
I have a new fitness friend to walk with as well, something that has helped tremendously to stay focused on going slow so that I don't reinjure myself. She has also been an inspiration and helped me to remember how much I love fitness and helping others to get fit and change their life and attitudes.
I've also said goodbye to a very toxic relationship in my life that has been weighing down on me more than I actually thought. To have some of that mental and emotional weight lifted from my shoulders has also made a huge difference. It's sad to have to cut a family relationship off, but there are some times where there is no good or love coming from it. It is either to be dragged under and embittered or to let it go. =S
I hope that everyone has a wonderful night and a blessed day tomorrow. I thank God for my lovely family and the changes that He has brought to my life. This will be a good year. I just need to believe it and make it so. :)
Saturday, November 02, 2013
No, I did not misspell "glo". I'm trying out Fitness Glo, a website with tons of workouts for all levels from some of my favorite fitness experts. I am already hooked!
My favorite expert, Michelle Dozois, kept posting photos on FB from some of the people that come to follow the routines live, so I checked out the website. It's fantastic! I'll probably continue with it after my 15 day period is over since it is $12 a month. There's also training plans that you can make for your level and you can log your workouts. I'll be checking that out more.
Just wanted to throw that out there. hope everyone has a good day!
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
My knee still hurts. I have a head cold. I am finally on my monster period after Aunt Flo gave me the cold shoulder for a year and a half. Thanks, lady.
Amongst other things (such as death in the family, life changes, other upheaval), I have been unable to exercise, which has been my main anti-depressant and the crux of the schedule that helps me keep from chaos and manic episodes. At least I gave my husband my credit card. No manic spending for me!!
I feel stressed and a little sad. Ok, a lot sad. I don't like feeling bad when I know that there are a ton of people out there with much worse going on in their lives. Unfortunately, exercise has been a huge part of my life lately and having to sit out my first half-marathon, well, it gets me down. And manic. And depressive. See a pattern?
I feel weak and my waist is growing, quite significantly. My flat tire (the ol' pregnancy stretched belly) is slowly inflating. =( I've got a sweet case of muffin top, and I do not mean that in good way. Pulling on my pants, seeing it all hang out and knowing that my main tool for weight loss is still out of my reach is quite crushing.
On the flip side, I am very determined to heal up and get back in shape. I have also learned several new healthy recipes and even created a few of my own. I really do believe that a fitness and food blog is in my future. =D Does anyone have any fitness ideas that I could employ while my knee heals? I would love to lose some of this weight, but most of all, I would love to at least STOP gaining weight. It kind of stinks. =S
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Oi. I am not sure if today was good or not. A friend and fellow designer left today for California and the opportunity to do package designs for a wine company, which has me feeling sad. She was a real sweetheart and great to work with. We had a food day in her honor, but being a gluten-free vegan, I was able to mostly avoid that trap.
We have a program going at work where you sign up and are given a pretty neat pedometer with the daily goal of getting 10,000 steps per day. Every week you get to enter your name in for a drawing if you met your weekly goal. I have been doing great getting my 10,000+ steps on top of my workouts and even has some friends to speed walk with on our breaks for a total of 2 or more miles on our breaks. That's actually been a lot more motivating than I expected.
Unfortunately, I ate too much for dinner and I feel too full. I had to work almost an extra 2 hours today, so I did not get to go for my Wednesday group jog. It is at this point where a binge and purge would start, but I am on here talking about it because for some reason, that really helps. I have been doing just fine for almost 2 weeks, and I am determined to be strong for the rest of time, though I will always be taking it one day at a time. I also have 2 doctor appointments tomorrow as a followup to last week's doctor visit. The stress of figuring out what is going on with me is kind of weighing me down. Thankfully, I have God to lend me strength and an awesome sister and friend who give me great support. Whatever happens, I will face it.
Looking forward to tomorrow's weight training... sort of. My booty shall be kicked! In good way, that is. =)
Sunday, August 25, 2013
I just wanted to write a little update about my recovery. Since that blog, a weight has lifted and I have been able to continue avoiding my triggers and dealing with temptation, which has reared its ugly head more than once.
I have been continuing with my plans to run my first half-marathon in 4 weeks, and I am positive that I will be doing it with a fresh and clear vision and much better mental health. I have had to go to the doctor to address some ongoing health issues, but I am not going to let that stress me out. God has it in hand and so long as I lean on Him, I can face whatever the doctors figure out (after 7 vials of blood drawn and an ultrasound, I hope they figure it out). I hope to know something this Thursday, which admittedly feels very far away. I won't let dread weigh me down, though.
I made collages last night to put up around the house to remind me to be strong, what my ultimate goals are and to help me take a moment when bad urges rise up and squash them down. Writing things out is actually an amazing aid and so is exercising. Even if it is just busting out some jumping jacks, it gets me refocused and feeling stronger mentally.
I have to say thank to everyone that has offered support and comfort. It was a surprise and really touched my heart. I thank God for this unexpected support and especially for my sister, who keeps me inspired and has been there through it all. Thank you so much!!
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